Dear Diary,
It's been long since I've taken a real and proper break away from life. So much has happened in the past 2 years of my life that it seem just yesturday that I've graduated from TP.
Two years, two long years indeed. Turmoils, adventures, life lessons.
It's been eventful; tried out many things that I've never thought that I'll do, nothing illegal though (duhhhh).
Drink, drank, drunk; Been there, done that. (Literally.)
As compared to the youthful and willful me back then, I feel that I've changed quite a bit.
I'm not sure if these changes of mine are for the better or for the worse, though some of it are quite regretful, but I'm thankful for the changes because I've learnt invaluable lessons to make me not take life for granted.
The world is a nice place. It is the people who lives in it that makes it a wonderful or horrid place to live in.
Because of the things that everyone has to deal with in life, that molded the way they react to things that happens around them.
Some judged people, some fear being judged.
At the end of the day, being a judgmental person doesn't help because life's too short.
Why bother holding other's opinions of you so tightly when that person is of no value and significance to your life. They'll never fully understand life until they've experienced it.
Because of all that has happened, I've learnt that the more we try to keep things in our control, the harder we'll break when our plans fail us.
Saying that, I'm not saying that I'm going to just live life as it is and waste my life away.
I'm just saying that there's too many things that can potentially fall out of our control due to external factors which may or may not affect us internally.
And just because things fall out of our control, it doesn't mean that it's the end, for life is all about taking chances.
As we pave our individual stories, we'll learn invaluable lessons; no matter its significance.
At the end of each chapter, it will all end with a proper closure.
As for my studies, this break is not a closure, but merely a break away from it. Though this path of mine isn't one typically taken, especially with the standards that every Singaporean is following, I believe that this will do me good. The journey ahead will be tough, but a midst the bitterness will I find sweetness. When things are already at the bottom for me, this just meant that what's left will just get better for nothing can be worse.
May 2014 be a better year for everyone.
With love,
Abigail.
