My mum asked me, 'why you so young also got to think so much ah?'
Honestly speaking, I don't know either.
Sometimes I will start wondering what will my life be like now if I hadn't join any cca and just go to school, do tutorials, play, and everything else but cca.

Just when I thought I could relax just a little after my submission on monday, my next submission on 11jul is pushing my project mates and I up the wall.
We've just started on our project today because we didn't had the time to previously.
And everyone is all feeling antsy already.
Together with other tutorials and whatsoever, life couldn't get betterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I need time to get away and recuperate mentally because everything seem so blur now.
I need to think of plan B, C, D, etc..just in case plan A doesn't work out.
And I think I'm dying soon. LOL.

PA's concert is finally overrrrrrrrr!!!!!
My nightmare is all over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel sooooo happy and relieved that it's over.
Like I no longer have a duty to commit myself to PA practices because the performance is over and I can use the time to finish other of my work without being so exhausted mentally and emotionally.

It all seem very fast actually. Haha, 10 practices with PA gone just like that.
Though it was like torturous because of the short time we had to practice for the concert..but it was still a good experience because welllll...I think in someway or another I've improved even though I don't know where. But yah, you get my point.
Plus, some people made the experience bearable and fun. So yah..loads of nerve-wrecking moments though.

After every song ended, all that came to my mind was, a song lesser to the end of my nightmare! And when it came to the last song, I felt so relieved that I've survived through and that after this, no one will notice me anymore. That is if there was anyone who noticed lah lol.
Can't helped but grinned like an idiot to jasmine when we finished playing the last song. So much that even having to play the encore piece and another piece didn't matter to us at all. Hahaha

I can't help but to tear a little after the concert as well because I couldn't help it. Haha it was like tears of joy and relief I guessed?
Like I managed to survive through this ordeal. I was seriously under quite an amount of pressure because even though we only had little time to practice the songs, I didn't want to perform too badly at a concert because afterall, our actions will affect the organisation as well. Plus I guess the expectations I had for myself to meet at least gave me the pressured.

For now, it's time for bed and a good rest before I wake up tomorrow and face up to other projects I have on hand for sch and co.
Amazingly, instead of wanting to stay away from my cello, I actually am even more tempted to practice my cello pieces and to work on it and resume cello lessons soon.

GOOD NIGHT!

I can say I had a veryyyyyy interesting birthday. LOL
Had celebrations which started since sunday.
In this sense, I can say that I am veryyyyyyy lucky.
I must have accumulated alot of good karma! But I hope all these doesn't end just like that. Hahah
I don't want bad things to happen. I will work hard! Hahaha

Ok, I won't say that I spent my birthday in the WOW kinda celebrations or what, but it was amazing in it's own ways lol.
I was surprised, speechless, amazed and kinda everything. Haha.
Thanks to all my friends who gave me such an experience! Hahaha. And for someone, a SHOCK.
Crazy, I can never forget the shock the larsen strings gave me. Too much too much *shakes head*

Thanks weilin for the lunch! and cake! and randomness!
Thanks to the monsters for the birthday dinner and blue shirt LOL!
Thanks to jas for the lifetime guarantee pen!
Thanks to wanling, shihui, clams, junjie, kinren, jasmine, shiyan for the random surprise and cupcakes and dinner.
Thanks to weilin, shihui, wanting for the day spent!
Thanks to all the birthday greetings that I received, FB kinda killed me with so many notifications LOL.

Thanks to pa for draining my night-.-

I'm now officially nineteen, don't feel as if I'm nineteen! LOL I still feel as childish as ever.
But I can definitely feel the workload and responsibilities getting heavier.
My next wish is that everyone will always be safe and do well in whatever they do.
Let me keep my third wish for myself.
Haha.

This year, I have nothing to wish for but just to wish that everyone I know will be happy and that life will at least be better for them.
I'm not almighty, but I want people that I care for to be happy.

I'm left with 2 more wishes.

Sorry I can't help it but I'm feeling so proud of myself LOL.
Let me brag lah k, since it's the first time I feel so proud of myself and since it is my blog anyway. LOL

One firm emailed me to go for an interview next monday, I was soooooo tempted to say ok I will go, but I can't cause I have already accepted the offer from a firm.
Plus, by going for the interview, I'm also depriving others for a position in that firm.
So I had to decline the firm's offer.

And then after lunch, another firm called me saying that I have secured a place in that firm already and that I have to come down for a briefing on Thur. The person on the phone even emphasis that I got a position and not an interview in the firm.
I was like huh?! How come secure already? I never even go for interview or what, why they anyhow secure me, how do I tell them? (Because we were previously told that we can't hold on to 2 positions if not we will get into trouble cause the firms will be unhappy)
I was like okkkk but I had to reject them cause I'm attached to another firm already. Siannnnn.

Then I went to submit my declaration form to my teacher and he went
m - 'ohhh...you went for the interview at their firm already? Mr W conducted the interview is it?'
zm - yah..i went for the interview on sat...
m - hmm..he can be quite a difficult person..*smiles*
zm - huh really? he seem quite ok during the interview..
m - he didn't give you any trouble during the interview?
zm - nope.
m - oh well, ok have fun there during your sip there! *laughs*

Jialatttttttt. Am I going to get hell for my sip?!?!? Lolll.
I'm kinda anticipating for SIP to start because I want to see what challenges will I face.. But at the same time I'm like, I hope it isn't a difficult firm! Lol.

And then I called my mum to tell her about it and she said that the firm that offered me a position is actually a big firm and I'm kinda thinking like huh..I just gave up the chance of working in a big firm, although the one I accepted is a medium but well-established firm.
And the firm(not the one I accepted) starts work only at 9am and not 8.30am and it's at city hall, which means that it is nearer, plus I can take bus 518 and stop straight outside. Plus that firm accepts 2 interns which meant that I would have someone to accompany me (but that isn't really an issue cause alot other firms accept 1 interns only also, so I won't die of being alone)

The only consolation I can tell myself now is that the one I accepted pays higher and that I was comfortable with the office when I went for interview. Siannnnnn, did I miss out like on a real good deal??? =/

Have I shared my story of my interview with you?
I would like to if I haven't! Haha, because I bet I had one of the best experience ever.
But I'm too lazy to type it out here, so give me a call! And we'll chat LOL.
Ok, ignore my random-ness.

I can just say I was veryyyyyyyyyyyy happy when I knew that I was offered a place in one of the firms! Haha
Because this is kinda like the first time I prepared a proper resume and cover letter and even attending a proper job interview, and to my pleasure, be offered a place of which I am satisfied with the working environment!

Well, SIP hasn't started for me, so I don't know how will it be like working there, but at least, it is something that I am looking forward to!
Even though working hours will be from 8.30am-6pm, I will still gladly wake up for work because I'm finally reaching the phase that I have been anticipating since the day I entered my course.
And also...because there were 2 other candidates before me, I actually feel proud of myself for securing this place as it wasn't a situation whereby I got the job without any competition.
Sorry lah, can't help but to unleash the competitiveness in me lol.

And I hope that my mentor will be the one who interviewed me because he is interestingly interesting enough. Haha