Happy Teacher's Day.
Okay, today is not the actual day. But shall still say this first in case I don't blog on teacher's day, 1st sept.

I'm having mixed feelings about today's celebration.
I don't know why.
I feel both sad and happy; not much on happy though.
But shall talk on why I'm happy first =) =(
It was fun and a nice surprise to see the teachers in uniforms.
Mr Ong(OM) was the first that I saw.
The next was Mrs Teh and Mr Chee.
I think Mrs Teh looks damn cute! Haha.
Other teachers are cute too lah =)
Also, we took pictures with the teachers and well, I'm glad we did.
Because..what if we don't get to in the future?
And anyway..I think its better that we take loads of pictures and keep it rather than taking only one.
Though the one would be very precious as it is the only one, but what would happen if that only one was lost?
That would be very sad. (not meant to be sarcastic)

The sad things..
It may look quite insignificant though, but it does bothers me a little

Firstly, I won't be returning to my primary school this year.
Okay not won't, should be did not retun to my primary school this year.
That alone, made me sad.
It's like, teacher's day for me has always been very interesting for me.
Because I get to catch up with my primary school teachers and friends.
But this year, I did none of it.
I could simply just rush over to my primary school after ngeeann's celebration normally. But Junyuan has shifted to a holding site in changi(why changi?!), so I didn't attempt to rush to that site as I don't know the place well either.
Moreover, the teachers were leaving early for lunch at a hotel, as usual.

Seeing how close others still are with their primary school friends, I felt envious.
Very envious.
Since don't know when, we had all just said 'we shall meet up and gather after Olevels.'
But what's the actual possibility of it happening?
I don't mind organising, but..that's provided that we really do meet up.
=(

Next, I don't know why.
But I had quite a bit of expectations for the celebration this year.
I think everything had gone well overall.
Just that I was expecting too much.
I don't know why, but the expectations of the expressions and actions of the teacher wasn't really what I expected.
Okay. nevermind.
I'm ending it here. I don't have any mood to type on further.

WHY IS IT THAT ALMOST ALL OF MY PRIMARY SCHOOL TEACHERS ARE GONE ALREADY? D=
They either are transferred to other school, has resigned or retired already.

Though prelims are not yet over, I don't know why but I have this feeling that I can slack a little today-.-
Guess it's just because the worst has yet to come.
After sept hols..biology, physics, chem, amaths and...e.history
OH NO..................
I don't want to dream of hitler and stalin!
haha. retarded-.-

I'm actually looking forward to the end of prelims.
Because the shirts would be ready soon by then!
Actually, I can't wait for the class dinner too!
But that might not be a good thing?
That is...O's coming soon..and the worst thing of all..............
partings..... D=

Okay, I don't know of anything to type anymore.
It's only 2pm now.
and...I'm feeling sleepy.
Bye!

Sudden sadness.

Went to look at JYPS website just now for fun.
Alot of teachers left, and there's many additions to the jyps family.
But there's still teachers there worth visiting.
Not many though.
Some were transferred, some retired and etc, etc.
Miss Foo has quit teaching. =/
It's only that day that I just talk about her and now, she's no longer a teacher.
Haha. I don't know what to say.
I just miss the past so much suddenly..


Come to think of it, it's gonna be the 7th month since she left on koknam's birthday...

Left this out previously.

Happy Birthday Catherine!

One more thing to add on. My Red phone is working!!! =DDD

Hey thereeeee.
I don't feel like studying for the moment. =(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
Howhowhowhowhowhowhowhow!!!!!
Zhi Hui don't wanna talk to me =(((((((
Haha -.-

I SERIOUSLY DON'T FEEL LIKE STUDYING LAH!
DAMN SIAN CAN!

Hais......
Was watching a TKD match on olympics just now.
OMG................I MISS THE TIMESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Sweden VS Mexico.
I hope Mexico wins.
And she won =DDDDDDDDD
But Sweden was DAMN scheming.
Tried to make Mexico out of the court.
Well, mexico went out once.
But she still won in the end.
So nothing much. Haha

The two of them were damn nice, they shook each other hands and gave each other a hug.
My opponents didn't do that before T.T
At that time, it was just like any other sparring session for me.
Lols, win or lose, I didn't have much joy or sadness. LOLS
I guess at that time, such things didn't matter much to me.
The first match I had, I didn't even know what to do -.-
My instructor was like giving me signals of what to do at his end.
And I looked at him more then I looked at my opponent. LOL-.-
And he told me to fall and I fall.
EVEN WITHOUT HAVING MY OPPONENT TO ATTACK ME. LOLS!
WTF MAN! XDDDDDD
Thinking about it now, it was like damn funny please!
And he told me to hug(go near) my opponent during the intervals.
I didn't know what it meant that time, but I simply just went to hug my opponent after she kicked me.
Damn stupid can! T.T
Lols, luckily I was shy in the past, then I won't really go hug, just place myself near the other.
If not I would be the joke of the day man. -.-

There's something I want to say.
PS: NOT FOR THOSE WEAK AT HEART.
I think I used to be damn cute. LOLS!

Okay, that's enough.
The weather's cold enough.
Bye!

PPS : I STILL DON'T FEEL LIKE STUDYING! LOLS

Hi.
I don't know why but I seem to be just plain lazy.
Heh heh heh heh heh.
Haha

I think my timeline is damn screwed.
Lols. I totally had NO idea that teacher's day is just next week and that the sept holidays is just the week after.
Speaking about Teachers day.
oh no...I won't be visiting my primary sch this year.
Okay, not like I'm some big shot or what-.-
But I just miss my teachers. Can't I ?
It has shifted temporarily to changi?
It's undergoing PRIME as well.
Oh no.....
Once its built up again, there's nothing left of me there =(
Oh no oh no oh no oh no.
Sudden gush of sadness. =(
Haha.

Miss Foo!!!! where are you? =/
I miss you.
Okay, I know you're the VP for don't know what primary sch now.
You were the HOD for maths back then.
And I remembered that time when me and sarah return during the holidays to help you pack your area in the staff room.
Haha. (seem like some stalker of teachers-.-)
I also miss the times where I got on your nerves for 'arguing' with you.
Haha, hey, I don't argue with teachers for nothing ok!
Reason being..I was accused of letting my friend copy my maths homework.
So, I was scolded by missfoo.
I was also not happy that I was scolded for nothing.
And so, I replied her in a harsh tone.
And so..our argument began.
Haha. I was only p6 then.
Okay, its not that young, but comparing now to that time..I don't really talk back to teachers then.

I also miss mdm eng.
She and her thick and wavy locks of hair.
Haha. She even brought a mic to class, those kind that you use for singing? lols
But that was to train us for our oral.
I am definitely calling her out after O's . haha
She will want to kill me if she knows what I am scoring for eng now =p
You're just like my granny.
The way you two speaks.
Its just like a english and mandarin version. Lols

I miss mrs lee, josephine lee.
She and her eye bags. lols
I miss her lessons.
And how she often scold me.
But her scoldings were just like naggings. Lols

I miss mrliu too.
I miss your FF stuffs, the games, posters and everything that you have.
Haha.
He's really nice.
He gives out the items that he collects to those who did well in class.
I didn't like chobits back then.
But I still don't like it now. Lols.
I miss your ultra flat hair.

I miss mrs de almeida, and amazingly choir too. Lols
Not to forget, mrs dorothy lee, the choirmistress.
She and her bright 'darlie' smile.
She really has that 'darlie' smile! Lols

And many many other teachers.
Like dailaoshi. my primary one chinese teacher.
She was the first teacher to make me interested in chinese.
And the first teacher to give me a duty.
Which is? Carry mt books. lols-.-
Well, at that time I like the job because I like her.
Stanley and me gets to leave the class earlier from the previous lesson because of hat too.
Lols. And we would always compete on our way up to the staff room.
The fun and childish moments.
I can still remember how we run up to the staff room! haha

I have photographs of myself with them!
Wanna see?? Hahas
Don't have one with mrliu though.

Hey! what's with the sudden post?
Lols. That was damn random man!
I simply just rambled and rambled on about my primary sch teachers.
There's many more teachers I would like to talk on though.
Like chenlaoshi who thought me in p4.
He looks like a tortise =X XD
Hey! I seem to enjoy chinese in pri school more then I do now huh? Lols!
I think so too. =/

Tell you something.
I've drifted really far.
From wanting to talk about how little time I realised that I have left to study to talking about teachers.
Lols, and now..the time I spent to write on all those teachers.
I think I will find some time after O's to write a teacher's post for all my teachers.
Not for them to read, duh?
Like which of them knows my blog huh? Lols
But for me to look back in the future =D
Let's hope blogger will never close down. Lols!

Going off now.
Bye people!
Dont you guys miss your primary school teachers?
I can even smile just thinking about them.
Oh yah, I wanna add something, I never like miss cheng. Lols
Lychee!!!! Okay, thats rude. Haha=P
Don't get it? Come and ask me then =P
Shouldn't write here. lols
I use to say, she stuff a coin at her dimples everyday to make it significant.
Seriously, the smile on her face that she wears everywhere she goes seem to be force out-.-

Gone were the past few days.
Prelims are starting tomorrow-.-

I'm having a bad headache.
Can't absorb anything. Oh no =/
Okay, I shall be gone with the wind.
Till next time.

All the best my friends.

I'm not posting this to make a big issue out of nothing.
I simply think that its very irresponsible for one to make such comments when they know nuts about whats happening and take things in their own stand.
But if that's what you think, I can't help it.

I'm not going to hide anything or what.
I very much wanted to direct this post clearly to but I'm not going to.
Because I respect the rights that everyone should have on their freedom of speech.
Be it whether you read this , accept it or not, I'm not going to do anything about it.
But at the very least, I have done my part to make the situation clear.

Firstly, I'm going to touch on the point of the part about some classmates paying for the shirt.
Like I mentioned and I will repeat, your classmates are paying for the shirt not for the sake of paying. It's not something which you could put it so simply with a lousy example of treating one to a buffet or such.
Have you ever thought of why would your classmates even voluntarily offer to pay for the shirt? It's not because of some stupid reasons like 'maybe to bring the cost of the shirt down' or to 'appease' the other part of the class.
I dare not say that the class is bonded.
It's true that there's cliques here and there, but are we those kind who really distinguished and segregate the class into many many small parts?
It's just a matter on how you wanna look at things.
The most irresponsible thing you can say is 'jus treat me as a bastard who dun give a dam abt the whole class.I am jus a self centered individual who does not know how to appreciate.Ya, hate me this way.'
That's not the way to close this subject.
That's the lousiest thing one can ever think to close this.
Like you said, you don't want relationships to turn that sour, for that, I agree with you.
That's why just taking you as a bastard or whatever shit is not the way to end things.

You mentioned that you will not be part of the class anymore, but like it or not its a fact that you are part of the class.
And maybe to you, sadly, its one fact that you can't change.

Shall touch on the first two points.
I won't comment anything on the making of last year's shirt as I don't know the full happenings. So I won't comment anything irresponsibly about it.
Our purpose for making a class tee this year was to make up the for failure of last year intentions.
We were hoping that we could leave at least a thing for each other to keep.
You might say that you don't give a damn about the class or something like that.
Once again, we can't do anything about it.
You mention about using this money for a class outing?
Like I said, we tried to organise but simply got rejections from you guys.
You want to talk about class outings?
Okay, let's bring in the most recent attempt.
The class dinner.
Do you dare to say that you are going for the class dinner?
Once again, we are getting rejections from some people who claims that we could use the money for better purpose.

IF you think that all of us or most of us are well-off, for that, you're wrong.
I can't say for all, but for some, the money that we pay for the shirt are from our daily savings from our allowance.
Our allowance though higher than those who faces financial difficulties, are not of very much higher. However, we do not simply just go up to our parents and stretched our hands out for more money.
We know that its not a easy thing to earn money
Thus, we use our savings from our allowance instead.
If you were to throw the shirt away after 'purchasing' it, won't you be contradicting yourself after saying that we should spare a thought for others who are not able to afford it.
And wasting it here yourself.

You proclaim that we did not find out from the others if they are able to afford it.
Are you able to justify your statement?
Do you even know what we have done to try to see if the class is okay with it?
I admit, its our fault, we didn't get to ask all, but we did try to ask for opinions.
And I assure you, its definitely not just within the few we normally interact with.
You might think that we might have asked mdmashikin about it and get her backing, but for your info, we did nothing of that sort.
It just happened to happens during her period and that she went to touch on the topic seeing that there's quite a number who didnt want to get the shirt.
And I believe because of it, she might get misunderstood by some.
Some might think that she's wasting the time on such stuffs when shes not done with the syllabus.
That I think, is very unfair for her when she merely just wanted to help to probably, bond the class a little more.

That's mainly what I have to say.

Heyhey!
I can't say that this week has been good or bad.
Because I don't know about it myself either.
Well, loads of things to say actually, but the thought of typing it out all turns me off.
But anyway, I ranted about it to my sis.
Lols, she has a much bonded class than me in her secondary sch life -.-
Come to think of it, I have never been in a class that bonds very well since P1. LOLS.

Anyway, while going out with my mum just now at tampines mall..
I saw MrChee.
And he looked scary-.-
I seriously didn't see him at all.
Until some time later, I was thinking, why do I sense that this person is staring at me?
Then I knew it was MrChee and I waved.
He waved back but he had this expression on his face which seem to say..'Why are you here and not studying at home!?'
I don't know, I just thought he looked fierce.
Maybe he was discussing serious matters with his wife?
I think he can be quite a scary dad though a loving one.
Haha.

Oh yah, I saw this nike bottle, same design as the blue one I had.
But its colour was quite nice.
Tansparent bottle with bright green?
Wanted to get it.
But I don't know if I should. Haha

Another thing I want to share!
I just signed into MSN and I saw this thing popping out 'New email from Shenyun'
Haha, I got damn excited-.-
But happy though. Haha =)
Her email never fails to bring a smile on my face.
I like email and letters.
Haha, I think its very heartwarming.
Especially letters =D

Bye!

Let's hope that time changes people.

I posted a post earlier, hoping to mark the completion of the class video.
But who knows..they scheduled it in my entries-.-

Nevermind.
So let's see...
I have been rather sleep deprived this few days.
Gonna go catch some sleep later.

I actually intended to sleep at around 12pm just now, but I got woke up by a call.
Had a really weird dream in less then 15minutes of sleep.
I was dreaming that there was a basin somewhere in front of me and I saw this long and black thing in front of me.
I tried to disturb it by turning on the tap and who knows, it was blown up.
But when I stop aiming the water at it, it shrink again.
It was some snake-like creature.
I pulled it and tried to kill it by giving its neck a 'sudden' jerk.
I dont know if it had a bone in its neck anyway.
And I tried, but when I was reaching its neck, I woke up.
So there goes my dream.... Lols
So random.

I finally learn how to play bridge.
Haha, I still remember the times when I was sitting at the dizi area together with my seniors playing card games while mrpan teaches the bass.
And how unfair it was that the seniors were always playing cards but I had to practise.
Haha, okay, thats not unfair, its because I was new to cello, so naturally I had more things to learn.
The good old days...

Need to study!
But I'm going to sleep first.
See you people.

By the way, Happy Belated Birthday Shi Hui!
Have fun today =)

The class video is finally done! =D

Yo.

Okay, cello exam down.
So for now..full concentration on studies!
Haha, I'm glad that I'm done with my cello now though I know I screwed it up.
But I had a real fun and nice experience.
So..its worth it.
I might fail, because of all the errors I made or what, but I won't blame anyone.
Because its my fault.
If I really fail, which I hope not, I would just have to give it another try next year.
Now I see why people have to start practicing early for their grade.
Wanted to blog about alot of things.
But now..I guessed the excitement had calmed.
So..yup, there's nothing and I'm going.

And..thankyou to my friends again for the support and encouragement.
Also to tianlaoshi, though you still scold me as much as usual. Lols.

PS: My mum just came back with a box of donuts. Don't know what made her buy it, but I get to eat it =D haha

DAMN.
I just can't seem to play in school just like how I play it at home.
I totally suck and screw it all lah-.-
DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN
And I just can't seem to play well with the piano.
I'm always waiting for the piano to play a note first.
But that will never happen because I'm not the accompaniment this time round-.-
Maybe I should listen to what Yuyun says, don't bother about the piano at all.
Maybe I should try that hur?
Maybe it will work out.
Tianlaoshi kept saying that my pai zi wasn't stable last practice.
And because of that, I don't have the confidence that I'm stable.
So I keep looking out for the piano.
Also, when I can't hear myself clearly, I don't have the confidence that I'm playing the right thing because I don't know if I am.
My sis said that I improved a little.
But Junyan says likewise.
So who am I supposed to believe?
I just wish myself all the best for tomorrow.
Hope that I don't screw it up.

Olvl chinese result out next week.
*hopes to get an A1 though I have never gotten an A for my chinese since sec1*

Hi there.
Guess that I'm feeling better today.
Well, that was what I thought till at about 5pm/6pm, I realised that I have yet to settle my emotions.
But I will get better.
Just like what caiyan said, I won't regret it.
Okay, let's just hope so.
But still, thanks again caiyan.
And..sorry for the moodswings.

I was checking my email and I suddenly saw an email from shenyun.
It totally made me smile.
Wanted to post the whole content here.
But I don't think I will.
This was one portion which made me smile.
'I believe we will sleep on one bed and chat all night again. And i will wake you up when you fall asleep^^like that night.'
It might sound wrong.
But think of it in another way instead.
It is something which is written with such pure intentions in mind; to relieve the memories.

Thank you, my friends.

Lost myself totally.
I tried hard to stay calm during chemistry.
But the smses just got me upset, disappointed and lost.
Not referring to any specific person, because I was sms-ing a few at that time to ask around.
I think..
Because this matters so much to me, I will expect myself to do well in it.
But that also means..if I myself or someone screws it up for me, I will be hard on myself or on that person.
Anyway, thanks dion, caiyan and huiyi.

This week has been tough for me actually.
Loads of lost and frustrated moments.
But its going to be over.
A new and better week it shall be then.

I wanted a hug.