i didnt felt like going to sch today.
so i lied in bed till like maybe 6.45am?
and then i took my time to get prepare.
by the time i was out of the house, it was already like 7.10am?
and i was thinking..am i gonna be late today?
lols, took 28 to school.
it seems as if it was so long since i took a bus to school in the morning.
as in those feelings like 7++am and like gonna rush to school later?
the bus was damn cold and i dont know why either.
maybe its just that im weird.

teacher's day celebration without a concert just doesnt seem right.
i dont know why i thought so but i thought it was pretty boring.
mstoh is really really really very cute when shes young.
and wang qiang looks really like la bi xiao xin.
haha, im bad. but he have to really look alike then i will find it so ah.
as in, i have never watch the la bi xiao xin cartoon before.
really. i only heard of it and i dont know what everyone is talking abt if they ever touch on him.
the atmosphere was a little alright before recess, but i guess it changed later after recess.

caiyan, nothing is too much too handle =D
just find me if you need someone to talk to, i will be there..unless i got a problem in hand too =X
haha, but dont worry, you can look for me.
and if i arent there, maybe you can try the place i told you about?
well, it somehow helps me.
maybe you can try, but visiting it too often is no good. lols.

went back to junyuan later.
i think im like dumb or what?
maybe i was too used to getting into the 65 queue that i wasnt even observing where im walking to.
instead of getting into the bus 22 queue, i went to the 65 queue instead and happily happily board the bus and i didnt realise it-.-
only realised it when the bus went straight and not turned-.-
so i got down and chiong-ed over the overhead bridge and into the HDB blocks and to junyuan within 10mins or less.

the dumb guard says that the principal dont allow us to go in.
dumb -.-
someone called mrs how and she brought like 20 odd of us in?
lols, like some kinda strike or what.
went up to forth level to look for mandy.
guess what!
i saw weiliang with them!
lols, it was like really surprising to see him there.
like, though we are in the same class, we like hardly talked?
and i thought he wouldnt be going back so i didnt ask him.
and mandy was saying : whats your mouth for? your given the gift to talk.
-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
fine, suan me. lols. okay nevermind.
so i walked one round round the classrooms.
i miss the 6/8 classroom of my batch =/
well, i meant the classroom and not the people.
lols, evil, just kidding im actually missing everything in my primary sch
the ballet room(i dont take ballet though, it was used as the choir room too, and sometimes the tkd room), the music room and just every corner in the school.
other then that miss cheng lian chee. -.-
gosh, i cant believe i remember her full name. i forgot the vp's name. lols
mrs ann tan went back too =D
but i didnt talked to her =(
lols. retard.
oh, and i was talking to mrs de almeida and suddenly i remembered that i dreamt of that scenario before! really! i mean it.
i was thinking what was i doing there. as in why am i in there.
most of the teachers especially the male teachers have put on lots of weight. and i mean loads.
all the fit looking teachers are now out of shape.
only mr daniel slimmed down. lols

they built a new corner which has those kinda 'outdoor' feeling.
its like so damn innovative of them to think of that in the school.
then we went to the conference room.
mandy, kelly, puishan and i was reminiscing the times we had there with miss foo and the whole of 6/8 and 6/9 for supplementary classes.
she always forbids us from switching on the aircon with her 'conserve energy' thing. lols
and the times when she brings us to the garden to try some weird fruits that can be found in the school.
and the times when i had to rush over almost immediatly after choir.
she even scolded me, saying, psle is coming and why do u still have cca?
how i know? lols. i just went since they said so.
the sweet old times
shes gone to be the vp for fairfield methodist pri sch.
so all the best miss foo, i will miss you.
lols, actually im already missing you =P

went to meet caiyan at century square later.
i wanted to ask her if she wanted to have pepper lunch, but she said she wanted pepper lunch even before i asked her. lols. i can read minds!
wahahahahaha. lame. lols
wanted to catch dead silence. but the timeslot is only at 7pm++
so its like what to do for that period of time if we were to catch it.
met yunguan and stacia. hahas
so went for a haircut instead.
i somesort of got a shock when i put on my specs.
lols, as in though i might have had this kinda hairstyle before, it was different from the one he showed me. lols.
but i still like it though, as in i was missing those hairstyles and wanted to cut back but my dad dont like it though, because it makes him think that i arent straight-.-
accompanied caiyan while she get her eyebrow trimmed, i was sitting outside waiting though.
haha, it felt so cool and somehow a little cosy that i felt like sleeping.
when i got out the shop, i was like, i wanna go to bed now and i mean now!
if only i knew how to disapparate. lols

went home later while caiyan walked back home with her mum.
watch zhongjiyijia ep 16 and then i fall asleep.
my sis said she was wondering why was i looking at the computer screen for nothing and she just realised that i was sleeping when she came closer.
i shifted my one seater sofa into the room while watching.
so it was very comfortable. lols.
i cant believed i shift it in-.-
my mum was like wondering where the sofa was when she came home, only to see it in my room. haha
she said next time she should get non-movable chairs or heavy one so that i wouldnt shift the furnitures round the house anytime i like. =P

was told to go down to get baking powder
and to buy supper for them -.-
my sis wanted bubble tea from 929 and roti prata from 801.
what the heck...i didnt want to do so, so i told her choose one or none.
went to the 7-11 at 801, they dont have it.
went to the medical hall beside it, they dont have it either
the provisional shop across the road, they run out of it.
why does no shop seemed to sell it when i need it? lols
so i went to 929 in the end.
finally found a shop selling baking powder.
then bought bubbletea and rotiprata for her-.-
i said i wouldnt walked around to get her what she wants and in the end, i still gotten her what she wanted -.-.-.-
i dont think i will be patronising that bubbletea store in the coffeeshop, their pricing are very misleading.

my thumbs are still hurting from the tying of balloons =(
i havent touch the cello for a week.
i wanna practice on it but im lazy to even take it out on a bag.
and i dont know why but i like to do things in the middle of the night.
because i might want to play the cello later.
i never know when i feel like playing it.
its just like a random feeling which comes and goes.
and i would be disturbing my neighbours once again if i starts playing after midnight.
i want a cello mute. damn it.
anyone wanna study during the sept hols?

its sunday today and i was woken up by a phone call -.-
my house phone ringed, but i was lazy to get out of bed so i let it continue ringing.
lols, and then my handphone ringed too.
so i just stretched my hand to answer it.
the first thing i heard on the phone was : WHY DIDNT U PICKED UP THE HOUSE PHONE?
lols, what a way to start my day.
woke up ard 1.30pm++
slept at like 5am++ this morning/last night.
hahas. okay lets talk about the nanyang girls concert.

i fell asleep in the after and was awoken by liying's call.
luckily she called, if not i will be like sleeping until dont know what time.
lols. but it turned out that celeste was later. haha
fusheng asked where are we meeting and that he, vick and yunguan are going for the concert too.
so last minute. haha, but nevermind =) its the presence that matters
celeste is funny and crappy.
haha, took 154 from Eunos down to nanyang girls high.
my earpiece spoilt on the way.
HOW WONDERFUL-.-
now i needa get another earpiece.
anyone has any recommendations for one that is good but isnt too ex?

reached nanyang girls high and saw some familiar faces there.
someone there looks like boon yew. haha, and its really look alike.
the concert was okay i guess.
i was complaining, why isnt there a cello solo, and only other instruments solo?
lols, rubbish man.
nanyang girls played the syf set piece and it was really like WOAH! to see their cellists lah!
argh..........like, their motion is all together and the movement.
it just looks beautiful! =/
i gonna grill my juniors. lols.

haha, chatting with yunguan and fusheng on and off is funny..
especially when fs is kena suan-ed by yg. haha
took 67 to bedok.
actually we were on 154 but then we alighted the next stop to board 67. lols.
i got scared by vick-.-
i was just staring out of the window then suddenly i was thinking why was it so dark suddenly then i look up i saw vick -.-
got a shock and fs, ly, hy was laughing so happily =/
evils! lols.

went for supper at bedok 85.
had bbq stingray(nice=D), oyster egg omelette and chicken wings.
i dont know what happened to the mince meat noodles. haha
guess it was replaced by the stingray.
so huiyi and liying, i hope ur dont mind.
took 17 and alighted at huiling's hse bus stop and walked home from there.
i dont know why but the road was damn quiet only with a few buses going past on and off.
so i played a few tracks on my phone while walking home.
reached home within like 10mins after alighting from the bus. so not that bad.

okay and today, i didnt do much stuffs.
no one was at home when i first woke up.
all pang-seh me. lols
so i watched episodes 9-13 of x-family today and did nth else.
lols. and i realised that i didnt bring home my tuner again when i wanted to play the cello
i left it on a cello and forgot to take it home on fri so i thought i can get it the next day after prac
but yet i forgot to bring it home on sat again. and this time round i dont know where i placed it.
so i went online to see if like theres any online tuner.
found one which loads of comments said its useful so i tried.
and i think i only got the A-string right.
as in accurate.
others is like estimation?

okay its 11pm now and no one has yet to be back. =/
im bored. anyone wanna chat on the phone?
because my msn is still not working.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

had a 'bad' night yesturday.
thanks celeste, chuiying, liying & yuyun.
i dont know why but i just felt damn bad.
i guess theres something wrong with me these days or what.
my mood just change here and there very quickly. =(
and most of the time its for the bad =(
but i just felt like a total failure sometimes.
im sorry that ure were 'forced' to go to the concert and later had to pay for it even if ur are not going.
especially catherine. sorry.
and btw, belated happy birthday. though i dont know if u will see this. haha

had co this morning and my mood was actually quite okay.
but as soon as i got to school..
i suddenlly felt damn bad and emo.
i sort of had no mood for todays prac and just felt like staying home.
but i cant for no good reason as in i shouldnt be doing that.
so i made junyan arranged the chair instead today.
haha sorry junyan and thanks for arranging the chair.
but he dont wanna help me tune my cello-.-
i was in no mood to touch the cello either.
so tune it here and there then i had my disappearing act for maybe like 5-10mins.
haha, guess it doesnt matters though.
yeah, so nvm.
during that period of time..
i suddenly thought of so much thing and felt so lost.
theres some things i wanted to consider doing like telling my dad abt something but yet im not prepared to think what the consequences gonna be.
and theres other things too. nevermind, end of this emo thing.
cause its nth good.

so i was in a no mood state to play the cello.
played other songs during break even though my fingers were pain -.-
thats what a idiot like me does.
so the end result is...
my left index and last finger hurts and i have gotten blisters on my index and right middle finger.
my middle finger dont really get blisters on it =/
i guess i felt better after the break so prac after break was much better for me.
got to try playing fengnianji at the actual speed i guess.
but im still not sure when to come in at certain parts.
but i managed to get through the whole song once =D
sorry yuyun, for causing displeasure later part. really sorry.

went for lunch at tecc mac later.
played the number game and now i know why dion dont like mayo
im actually alright with mayo taste
but after today with its mixture with others..omg..it taste disgusting!
lols. and yuyun the poor fellow kena continuously a couple of times.
haha, sad for her.
just hope that u dont get tummyache.
haha. going to nanyang girls high for a co concert later.
so far D=
okay bye bye thats all for now.
once again sorry catherine and yuyun.
if i owe any apologies to others, sorry too.
have a nice day everyone.

yoyoyo!
okay today is a nice day.
lols. total crap.

had bio in the morning and gotten back the previous test paper.
like finally after so long.
well, its pretty okay.
not that bad.
that was the day which we had physics, ss and bio
haha, all the test all chiong together
then pe which was boring.
gotten back physics common test paper!
luckily i passed! =DD
i dont know why, but i fear to fail physics paper more then anything now.
abigail passed too =D
and abigail said she likes this topic the most because its her highest

why does chem seems to have so much things to master now?
im dead.... so dead.......
english was okay too.
then it was the extra emaths lesson.
got back common test paper and i passed my emaths too.
lols. yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah.
lols lesson ended earlier and actually alot of ppl went home after getting their test paper.
went to look for missyanti later with chankai for the slf thing
chankai's sword balloon looks like a banana balloon.
lols. =PP

went to catch secret with yuyun and liying =D
haha, others pang-seh me.
lols, kidding lah.
timing clashes. thats why.
yup and so we caught secret and its pretty nice.
only that the ending was........
aww....sad.
but nvm, its just a show. lols.
and those fingers of his is like, woah, so fast.
haha. they played 'the Swan' for the graduation piece.
hmm, gonna go try out and play the song.
haha, even fusheng cant really handle it.
whats more me...
forget it lah...
lols, nvm lets just play it just for fun.
no one wants to play with me cello =(
booo....haha.

i cant upload the pics because i dont know why but my internet is being sucha * now.
okay not only now...this few days.
so..bye bye going to have my dinner.
my msn just cant seem to work =/

"Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word" by Elton John



What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?

What I got to do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

What do I do to make you want me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Yeh. Sorry

What I got to do to make you love me?
What I got to do to be heard?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
What have I got to do?
What have I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word.

chatted with liying and yuyun last night.
actually i guess they were the one talking..
because i was falling asleep anytime soon.
haha, so sorry for not talking much.
other time k?
i promised i will speak, provided i have a topic. lols

well, so i only woke up at 3pm this afternoon.
more then 12hrs of sleep.

the weather is considerably pretty cold today.
was under my comforter whole day.
its so cosy and comfy. =)

sometimes i wonder what am i actually practicing.
i dont seem to be improving at all =/
and everytime i takes the cello out to play, im not practicing the songs we're supposed to but playing other songs from other book.
i ought to be shot.

homeworks yet to be done
but im not in the mood for them.
thats it. stopping here.
listen to the song! its nice =)

hi! its sat today, so theres co prac.
i slept late yesturday, so i didnt got to replenish my sleep from the loss of sleep on thurs night.
so i woke up late. like at abt 7.30am?
lols, so i made chuiying and her mum wait for me.
sorry. haha
placed my cello at the front seat.
lols, my cello get to sit in a car with a seat to its own u know! lols -.-

had co prac..
and hias...the songs thing, still in a mess.
why erhu cannot play lower notes?
hais...then now must re-find the notes on cello again.
gonna use my own cello to find the notes which will be like a horror.
because just using the sch cello, while finding some notes on A string, my fourth and last finger the skin sort of came out.
and the bridge for cello isnt that high.
my home one is higher.
die le..torture to my fingers again.
supposed to stay back to prac but alls gone.
and now..all not enthu if theres concert.=(
like now, if theres concert, it will only be like the usual sec3s who go and watch de..
the juniors dont really go ...
hmm, must go mah..so can see what others standard is like and maybe learn from them their taifeng or maybe their skills or what?
and carry on the having 'outings' together before or after the concert.
but leechuang somehow said is compulsory to my juniors.
lols, because alot say not going to watch, then no one go, abit hard to reply nanyang girls shouxi ah?

went for lunch at yoshi with yuyun,liying,koknam,dion,qihao,benjamin,kimwee,yiliang
lunch was about crapping.
i cant believe dion&kokknam is so wu liao as to go round trying to make others shoe come out.
and they attempted on my shoe liek dont know how many time and i sort of knock onto the banner while turnign back to 'spy' on them
haha, yuyun was the fastest in eating among us, and so she said : i wonder its i eat too fast or ur slow.
i said she was too fast, but then i turn to the guys table, they were already done eating and i was left with like abt half?
so i said that its really we slow.
lols. and i dont know what for i add on a drink when i dont drink it at all -.-
as in, theres miso soup, so normally i dont get a drink but i dont know why i got it this time.
so shared with liying&yuyun.
haha, im nice right. lols,you have to admit it. just accept it.
kidding kidding.

went to catch Rush Hour 3 after lunch.
i cant have a movie marathon on mon =(
theres meeting for SLs on monday at 2.30pm
and secret starts at that time =(
i wanna watch secret!
hmm..how to watch secret? =/
went to the open area while waiting for the show time.
omg, koknam and dion is seriously seriously........no comments.
so all of them were like playing with those playground things, only me and qihao were the normal ones to not play it. lols
oh, and they kept bullying benjamin..
so bad, haha, like ps him so many times.

before going in..
i did something mean/bad.
haha, i told qihao to keep the tickets as all the others were infront and no one saw me passing him the tickets.
so i sort of pretended to lost it, and qihao act along.
haha, and they went round looking for it.
but later i felt bad, and i dont know if i should continue playing.
as in..they really went to look for the tickets, and like im making a fool out of them?
so when koknam asked if im serious later, i admitted.
sorry. for making ur find it and 'worry'
i dont know if they were angry abt it.but if ur are, then sorry. really.

while waiting for benjamin to buy his nachos
we waited near the entrance of entering the cinema.
and guess what!
i saw mandy!
haha, mandy mandy mandy mandy.
i saw MANDY LEONG YU LING!
haha, okay im crazy.
but havent seen her for quite some time.
and im glad to see her as she did once made a great impact on me during my p6 year. =D
i will nvr forget her and sarah
haha. she and her friends were catching rush hour 3 too!
one of them was qihaos pri sch friend too.
coincidence. the world is so small. lols -.-
qihao said his friend was the emo kind.
while mandy was those feng fen dian dian kind.
haha, okay i dont mean anything of the wrong meaning.
i meant like those very carefree and outgoing kind.
pretty crazy too. lols
so its like, the two of them personality is really different
haha, but its alright, because thats what friends are, people of different personalities getting to know each other.
went to the toilet before the movie starts.
in case of disruption. haha
mandy was sitting inside, and she signalled me to sit behind her, so i was a nuisance requesting for a change of place.
see mandy, all for ur sake.
lols. and she did this twist thing on her head for fun during the commercials.
lols, so mandy to do crazy stuffs.
but shes not that crazy today yet.haha

there was one part which i was wondering what happened.
but just watched on, and later when qihao asked if we know what happened,
none of us know.
but the others later slowly understood.
leaving only me and benjamin still blur.
so i was like bugging everyone to tell me what happened?
and none of them wanted to say out after they found out.
all saying that its damn sick or what.
but i dont know mah, so can tell me right?
as in its in the show. not some sick joke or what
but none of them wanna say.
grrrrrrrrrrr
so i was like bugging them from the time qihao asked the que until we were going home?
later met mandy again when she was in toys-r-us
i asked her if she knew because none of them wanna tell me.
she dont know abt it either.
i think she later asked her friends and told me abt what they think it was.
after hearing her interpretation, i was like, very sick meh?
and it turned out that i think it isnt the one they were refering to.
so meaning mandy and her friends didnt understand it too
because what the others later add on abt laser? doesnt really match.
so its wrong i guess.
and qihao kept saying he got a feeling its abt two different things.but he just dont wanna say it out -.-

so went home after that and i asked my sis if she know what happened though she hvnt watched it.
but i describe out the entire scenario and included in the 'clues' they gave me
and my sister think she got it.
but she dont wanna tell it to me too.
grrrrrrrrrr
she just kept on laughing and kept saying that its sick.

can someone just tell me what is it abt?
she says that its abit kinda weird for a guy to tell a girl abt it.
as in like how to say it.
but how would i know if she dont tell me.
then why cant she tell me?
she meant that shes a guy?!?
wow..i didnt knew that.
and i asked how did she know that since she didnt want to tell me.
maybe i could go check it out ont he net or what.
but she told me that its from what she heard on others talking abt while she was having her intern with one of the shipping companies.
thats how she came to know abt it.
but in conclusion..
i still dont know what is it-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

okay, i gonna fiddle with the cello.
trying to figure out other songs if i can.
haha, i like the song in zhong ji yi jia
as in the part where 'duan chang ren/xia tian's dad' and 'da dong/xia tian' were kneeling outside the hse.
esp when xiatian's dad played it on the violin later part.
that means it can be played on the cello too!i must find that song and play it on the cello too!

lols..dion & koknam

i dont know how to phrase things out.
im actually having a slight fear towards it.
why did it turn out this way.
its just so not right.
i really really really felt very bad.

chiong the amaths hw that i owe mrs wee last night.
did till 4am++ because i only start doing at 1am++ -.-
and i was using the com at the same time.
in fact i spent more time looking at the com instead of my hw.
so i deserve the lack of sleep.
somehow couldnt wake up this morning.
and so i dragged time.
went down without seeing the sms chuiying sent me abt telling me to not go down yet.
only saw the message when i was down.
so i sat at those tables&chairs underneath the block and i nearly dozed off.

didnt do english hw.
and msyanti gave this comment : im so disappointed with u.
-.- im not the only one who didnt complete my hw.
why is it said only to me.
and its only ex 100 that i didnt do.
i did other exercises.

learnt blood groups in bio today.
it seemed that only our class has yet to learn blood group
blood O is rare?
i dont think so.
it seemed as if its quite common =/
everyone in my family is of O blood group.
haha, no fun at all =P

i dont know why but i was afraid to break the balloon today while twisting it during recess
the fan was also making me shiver.
the weather is like damn nice to be sleeping in bed at home!
grr, im jealous of my sis.
cause shes still sleeping at home at that time.
zhihui said my hand is shaking, yeah i guess so.
partly because the weather is cold and i have not twisted such balloons for a very very very long time.
i dont know why, but i seemed to be a little afraid to burst it.
i dont used to be like this when young.
things that i dont fear when young seems to be making me fear them a little now.
i could just twist the balloon into a dog very quickly in the past..
but today.. i was like twisting it very slowly, worried that i hurt it -.-
is not a living thing, how can i possibly hurt it?
maybe because the balloons arent mine, thats why im worried if i break it.

had co meeting after sch.
as usual, it was the lecturing by the teachers
mr lee went through about the way the cca system works.
so okay, i finally hear it.
he said this last year at the co camp too.
but i wasnt there.
qihao has got 24points.
wow..he only need one more point for his cca points to get A1.
im jealous.
daphne is once again not here.
i just dont know what to do with her so that she will attend practice.

went for lunch with celeste, koknam, dion, qihao, kimwee, yiliang, julian & yu jing? at east cc mac
koknam is a queue cutter.
lols, i was just like standing a little to the side and he just came in front of me suddenly.
then dion and yiliang.
so i joined another queue.
but koknam is faster.
grrrr. lols

played the number guessing game with dion's untouched fries.
so everyone had kena leaving only me and kim wee
but later kim wee kena-ed too and i was the only one safe.
haha, because my surname heng mah..so i lucky los.
and so they kept on playing and said to stop only after i kena
celeste and yiliang had to eat the fries the most times.

and then, i courted my own doom.
there was like quite a big gap among the number..
some where 40plus - 80plus i think.
and yet of all number there is within the range...
i guessed 72 which so happen happened to be the number julian had chose on his hp.
it was like..so tyco!
others got the forfeit due to no choices of number of just by one or two and yet mine which had sucha big range..i hit the jackpot.
so celeste and julian chose a fries which was sort of covered fully with the sauce combi of chilli tomato and bbq sauce.
this is not the worst combi ever, but it doesnt taste nice as well.
and when i took up the fries, it was like so damn slimy and soft?
yucks.
thats due to being 'seasoned' by the sauces for too long.
its disgusting.
i wasnt given a chance to take any revenge cause it ended after i gets the forfeits =(
so bad. lol

okay, i havent been practicing the cello though its at home.
the last i touch it was probably last last sat when i brought it home.
oh, and celeste recieved a call saying that there will be a concert.
is it really true?
then we will be preparing for a concert.
which will be like so cool, because the juniors will be taking part in it too.

okay, im going to play the cello now.
what do i like most about the cello ? getting blisters from it.
lols.. -.-
okay byebye

Only Love
2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

[Chorus]
I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our last good-bye

okay, three more test left.
bio, ss & emaths
well, lets start with monday
it was raining pretty heavily the night before..
so i thought maybe we can go to sch later?
but it didnt last.
that big rain =/
no tim eto finish chem.
so rushing!
i was only at page 3 when the teacher said 15mins left.
i was like chionging like crazy.
because theres still 3 more pages yet undone.
okay maybe not like crazy, because not alot of words to write.
just sums to do.

had bodyache on the way home.
actually it was since morning.
but my temp was still under normal in the morning.
and i was really really really sick of bread on monday.
practically had it the whole weekend.

had fever when i reached home and my sis gave me dont know what medicine that my fever got worst-.-
so i wasted the afternoon sleeping.
went to the doc in the night.
drtan is lols.
he gave me like a NE talk?
just because i commented something about going back on thursday if i still has the fever.
given two days mc.
but if i were to miss sch, then i would have to take 6tests when i return.
so studied till like 1am++ before sleeping

went to sch this mornign because the fever was like moderate.
as in it dropped pretty much.
but it rise again now-.-

gotta go study already.
why is my temperature going up and down?!?
fusheng just sent me this song 冬
the song is damn cute okay!
lols, the starting. omg..so cute lols
okay bye im going to ake a nap before studying.

Create your own Friend Test here
do the quiz?

went to study this morning.
but it was not as productive as yesturdays one.
reason : the amount of time spent on chatting was more frequent
there was only me&caiyan yestuday. and we are serious ppl k!
studying means studying! lols. crap
yup and theres gaoyang, chankai(that pangseh-er), ranon and jiahao

went off to yaoyi's cell though he wasnt there today.
its yuanzhan(?) birthday today.
so happy birthday yuan zhan!
went off first because my dad called and he wants me to be back home by 7pm just because he arranged dinner with someone else-.-
what time did he call me? 6.50pm
luckily there was a cab at the traffic when i got down.
thats why i was able to hop on to that cab
waste my money on cabfare!!!!
for a dinner which is like not formal?
or rather, its not the first time we're having dinner with them.
though they are cambodians and our asean friend(accroding to what chankai says), i dont give a damn
as in, they are not the only cambodians in the world?
lols, im mean.
okay bye bye

its a day off toda.
but i guess i gotta spent the weekends studying.
so it doesnt makes much of a difference
so well, woke up at 10.30am
went down to airport to start studying first while caiyan will be there later.
chankai that pangseh-er.
lols. i have been calling him a pangseh-er everywhere.
had my lunch and then i started on chem

caiyan reached like er...maybe 12pm++?
so we chatted here and there too.
so it wasnt like totally really mugging today.
lols. saw cheryl.
shes blind. lols
cheryl, if ure seeing this.. I'M SAYING HI TO YOU!
lols. okay this is so retarded of me to be doing so.

caiyan, i seriously dont know to call ur juniors cute or what.
lols. its was like damn funny when u told me those things they did.
but i couldnt laugh out loud, otherwise i would be seemed as some crazy fellow in public.
okay, school is a public place, but not as bad as in the airport.
lols. bought cakes home upon request by my mum&sis.

guess what. my mum is not back for dinner tonight.
so my sis is the one doing the cooking.
lols, not much of a yeah! but well..
didnt eat like fried rice? lols
ate dishes from different plates today!
lols. im crazy. its just eating different dishes on different plates.
well, my mum doesnt like to cook that way, she thinks it troublesome.

dumb sis, uses those dumb high pitched voice and called out for me-.-.-.-.-
caiyan, you really blog for a real long time.
i started much much much much later then you, and im done when u arent done yet.
lols. slowpoke =P
i wanna catch a movie!
or maybe two?
three?
everyone is like watching movies bu i dont get to =(
i wanna watch disturbia, secret & rush hour 3.
dammit dammit dammit.
i shall go and have a movie marathon some day after the common tests.
lols. crazy.

it just pierce right in just like that.

the concert was quite okay.
the story that mrwong told made me feel =(
and then about the hall, i suddenly felt so sad that once its demolished, its gone
before today, i was like, demolish los, it doesnt affects me anyway.
so then i became like damn emotional?
just playing the national day song made tears welled up my eyes very quickly.
and jetaime was messing with my hair -.-


the class activity was boring.
then had fiesta
went to try the haunted house thing.
but it wasnt scary =/
so walked around the canteen.
i think i preferred the fiesta my batch did.
went back to class earlier since there wasnt much to do.

had amatths lesson later and i was totally not in the mood for studying.
so i wasnt really listening and i was scribbling all over my paper to note down what mrs wee wrote on the board.
played with the balloons later.
everyone was like bursting it. lols
the guys was like using the balloons to attack each other and later i was attackedby dont know the balloons or my class people.
i dont know why but they just rushed over with the balloons and started attacking each other and i was behind all the balloons.
it was like squashing my face and anytime, it can burst.
took two videos of the balloons attack.
one of i was taken by grace when i was behind all the balloons

walked home from sch after that.
tooked abt 34mins from sch gate to my block downstairs
haha, the walk might seemed long because its all straight ahead.
but i was listening to songs in my hp through the earpiece.
so it wasnt that bad.
in fact, it seemed as if it wasnt that far.
okay, sch is not that far after all.
came home and took a shower and went out with my sis to the bank-.-
so i was playing games on my hp while she queued
then we went to hans for lunch.
her treat. wahahaha.
then went to sembawang
bought zhangdongliang's wang zi after so long
well, my sis helped me pay for it first, becase i didnt have enough cash with me.
going to study for common test on these few days off.
anyone wanna join me too?

violent. lols, the popping sounds were the bursting of balloons

the attack where i dont know how i got involved in.

shirlin, me & mrswee

balloons!

the back of the class with balloons. like a storeroomlols, dont let bokai know abt this. because i wasnt supposed to take it with his face in. but i forgot to zoom in to cut off his head =X

balloons.

do you see a head among the balloons? haha
abhishek
it looks like some white blood cell or DNA. only that its red in colour

hi!
chem was the first period for the day.
then it was pe.
i actually wanted to play badminton, but i played basketball in the end again.
lols. this tim eround..i didnt get a bruise or what.
instead...i hurt my middle finger-.-
now its swollen and a little painful at the niddle portion
dumb..continuously hurting myself-.-
and i kept hitting out the ball today with that 'buddha palm' of mine as they deemed-.-
just because of the action. lol
bio was okay.
caiyan was sleeping i think, then mdm ashikin came by and i tapped her a little, hoping she dont get caught.

had ci yu xiao ce yan for mt
dumb thing. i read through the book and its meanin gyesturday but not remembering how to exactly write it.
and todays one was to write the words out
it was physics after that.
was given back the test paper.
guess what!
i passed my physics!
like finally!!!!
lols! im like damn glad that i passed my physics this time round because i hvnt pass my physics once yet since this year.
though its not that high as someone deemed, its still great!
because i can improve from there=DD
then english was okay too.
someone was being a .... by trying to get away msyanti's attention on the speaking thing just to skip it

went for lunch with jet, pris, ayisah and abi
had waffle with peanut butter and choc.
i didnt knew that we could mixed it before today.
because pris ordered strawberry&choc and jet ordered cheese&peanutbutter
yup, and so thats how i came to know of it
bought green apple green tea to go with it. =D

went back to sch to open the cd shelter.
i told myself that i cant afford to break the key or twist it again.
lols. the opening of door was alright, nth happened.
lols. i attended bass lesson today!
lols. i asked the teacher if i could join in just for today.
he said yes!
hes pretty nice and funny
it was quite meaningful actually.
i learnt of this metal thing like i forgot what is it called.
but its like so cool!
as in, because of the vibration from the metal, if applied onto something, u can hear the perfect A sound.
u can also tune the bass from there.
it works for other instrument too.
there was this la la la thing too
but like, u imagine it in ur mind is alright
but to sing/say it out, it felt pretty weird
lols. then tried a little on feng nian ji.
its quite fun to play that using bass too!
haha, like so damn cool please.
but the bass teacher is just damn nice!
though i arent a student of bass, he still taught me as per normal.
haha. and he says i should have learnt bass in the beginning
even my hand is bigger then his!
lols. every teacher just says that i have big hands and i should play bass instead-.-
nvm, i take bass as part-time
can? lols, abit rubbish. me i mean.
so went home after that.
yup and thats it for today.
oh man..im just like so interested in bass now?
as in playing songs on it.
lols, and the way he played the bass was like so nice
as in the sound that came out.
bye

VL was quite okay.
it was pretty fun today.
only that i had to break the egg-.-
but i seriously didnt touch the region near the egg!
dont tell me that it gotta do with pressure(physics)-.-
okay so my fault then.
lols. my area stinks with the egg smell now. lols
haha, sorry to make ur do the forfeit.
lols, my fault my fault
but seriously, i rather solo cello then do other forfeits.
as in, i know my playing is awful, but its still better then like soloing dont know what in front of the class
so i went to wash my hands during recess.
washed it like twice without soap and thrice with soap, but it still stinks of the raw egg smell.
i wonder why is that egg so stinky

wasnt really listening again during mt.
had already read the story, so yeah.
the short clip was damn nice.
lols, im violent. okay not damn nice but just interesting then
at least it didnt bore me
assembly was again the usual thing
they had this blowing of balloon thing, but actually, i pity huihui
lols. as in, people just loves to do the opposites.
i dont deny that because i like to do that sometimes too
maybe there could have been more balloon if so many didnt break

stayed back after school to help a little with the balloons
haha, shirlin was damn nice.
lols, as in to come back to school though she was already on the bus home when i called her
shes too fast. lols
woah..i didnt get caught by munera(?)
lols, the way she like signalled them to stop is like.. u, u and u stop
okay, its sort of a funny day today
i sorta enjoyed it.
just with those simple words, its totally a different thing

well, i guessed my mood turned very quickly over the weekends.
i dont know why, but im getting a little sick of things.
lets start from friday.
after the retests, was talking to juliet while walking down to cd shelter.
i was reminded of my grandpa.
felt a little horrible.
so went for cello prac next.
i was like late. went there like only at 3.30pm i think?
do i have to pay $1 to the c&b fund?

tried to settle some stuffs and yet i dont know why everytime something is settled or trying to be settled..
* will have to step in and then everything will go haywire for me again.
when somethings goes right, ok none of my business
but yet when things goes wrong, im like seemed as ...
and dont give me that look, i wasnt the one to drag others in.

so i only prac here and there because iw as late and then the next thing was i had to settle some things and then i just missed practicing
and because i was at error while playing feng nian ji as in the bow moving direction..
i think i got scolded or what?
but nvm, because it was my fault.
but yet that reminded me of the past too.
got a lift home from chuiying mum.
thanks.

woke up late for prac on sat but was so called on time thanks to another lift from cy's mum.
lols, i feel bad.
then later at prac there was this very one time which junyan got on my nerves ALOT
i dont know why but it just got me all irritated and i seriously felt like telling him off.
of all things to pick up..he pick up that disgusting actt.

and i dont know why * cant just wait
* just goes on rattling and rattling and rattling at me
i dont know for what
cant * listen carefully, not say im just sitting somewhere and listening carefully
im doing some things and everyones talking how the heck u expect me to know what their talking abt
and..not say i wont keep the chairs, just wait a moment wont ya?
went for lunch and then went off later to meet yy,gy,ck with my cello
on and off it made me agree that that was what i felt.
esp the story that was said.

and then when i went home
i took my cello out to play and then i just suddenly felt very horrible
i wanted to talk horribly to someone
but yet again.
i dont know how to.
and instead of like getting the frustrations off my chest, i was yelled at for nth
and i mean for nothing!
i was very very very very very pissed this time round
went to locked myself in my room
and so i sort of vented all my frustrations to the cello
i was playing too hard on it that my left index actually swell a little on the side.
it was painful too, both my left and right index and my left little finger
i just went on playing and playing for 3hrs straight without stopping
okay, other then flipping the scores
so i guess i played pretty loud and awfully.
because i was applying loads of force on it.
as in on the bow but not that much to break it
went directly to bed after playing it
my shoulders were even aching

sunday...
i took my cello out again and i dont know what for
i guessed i didnt let off my frustrations fully
but i just went on and on again
thanks yuyun for trying to ease me
but i didnt really bothered abt her
sorry for not saying out anything but well i just dont felt like to
sorry liying for not replying ur sms too
i think im dumb or what
my index is hurting and yet im still applying equally as much force on it
my mum then came in and like asked me to play the songs that she wanted to hear like im some kinda music player or radio. dumb.

went over to my grandma place for her birthday celebration
i dont really know whens her birthday actually
because i dont know why the date changes every year
but its somewhere round national day period.

and so i wasted my sunday again
its 2am+ now.
im going to bed i guess, or maybe just stare at my ceiling and then maybe i will start punching it again
i always does that
maybe my neighbours would complain someday if they cant stand it anymore
anyway, it was a horrible weekend for me.
okay maybe not that horrible then there was still some happy times too

okay, its thurs today.
which means....i have survived though the four test we had this week! =D
okay, its not even common test over yet and im like happy for nothing?
nvm. lets get starting.

im like pretty happy with myself that i managed to not stay online and chat.
lols. because normally even when i do have tests, though i said that i wont chat..
i still chat in the end and ends up dragging the time i have for my studies.
but after checking somethings and sending caiyan the pic which she always says that i never send to her(which i dont know why), i went off.
yup and so my music accompanied me throughout my studying time.

i spend quite alot of time and bio and not much on physics.
did revise and do some questions on physics though!
so lets hope i pass my physics =/

early in the morning, was told that bio test might be postponed.
i was like..feeling dont know agitated or what.
because i spent so much time on bio just to hear that its to be postponed?
and didnt spent much time on physics..then isnt it not worth it?
so when we went back to class mrchee had swopped the period with mdm ashikin.
abigail and ayisah didnt hear from huihui that the test might be postponed i think?
so abigail was asking me why.
i told her that i didnt know why and not to ask me why.
she still asked me why for nothing.
and i dont know why, i got damn fed up.
so i sort of glared at abigail with those eyestares.
okay, sorry abigail, i know ure just asking
but im already pissed with the fact that bio test was going to be postponed and that u asking me why for nothing just simply adds on to my nerve.
so im sorry for that attitude i showed u.

and so one hour of physics was just gone like that.
i had a careless mistake.
i forgot if i should minus off 8cm from the height.
did both on the paper but i corrected it off with the correction fluid.
i cancelled off the right one!?!?!? wth...
okay yup so the last ques both parts is gone.

mdmashikin came in later and bio test was later resumed again.
i heard a * comment. wont write it here.
and i forgotten some of the terms used.
i was like just remembering and remembering the cells things uses and all and all that i somehow forgot its main properties or what.
so a few marks is gone here and there.
and that does not include other mistakes i might have..just that i might not know it =/

the test was over and it was like a great relieved.
now..its only the waiting of getting back the testpapers for our marks.

then it was english.
actually..i also had like some of the descriptive in the so called conversation i wrote that eric uses.
lols. and i was like..oh gosh after msyanti commented.
so it was my turn and i did many editting to it.
while reading it halfway, i dont even understand what i was writing yesturday that i changed here and there very oftenly that i er and erm alot.
or maybe paused.
yup, so its rubbish.
i think i was like leaning on the teachers bench is it?
i cant remember, but i think i did so.
lols. like, leaning on the desk while presenting abit er...
how to say..like too casual ah?

okay had emaths and then chem.
sorry shawn for getting ur partner away from u everytime.
but i just felt like er..
how to say..
just felt like having someone to chat to.
not say abigail dont chats with me.
i just dont know why. yup so sorry shawn for making u alone again.

walked to the bus stop with pris and jet.
so im home pretty early again and im going to sleep now.
i desperately need to sleep. lols