its a sunday and what i can say is that i have been feeling rather low for the past few days.
not feeling low the whole day, but at certain period of times, i dropped into the emo-mode.
that also explains why i've been walking home.
lets talk about saturday.
its been both a fun and yet emo day for me. haha.
because of friday night..
i still wasnt feeling back to my normal self.
so i thought maybe a walk in the morning would be better for me.
so being the usual lazy self, i didnt want to wake up early and so the only way to do so, is to take a bus to school instead of getting a lift from chuiying's mum.
but it didnt help much. =/
too short i guessed.
practice was as usual.
fusheng came back; though he also came back on friday.
though there was some times when i dont like him probing into matters which sometimes makes it worst for me..
i really missed the times we had together with huiling.yinglan,stacia and other seniors.
i guess that is what growing up meant.
to gain and to lose.
and thats what i hate about growing up.
lets say im greedy then, because i dont mind gaining, but i dont want to lose.
i dont like the feeling of losing something.
who does?-.-and i really like sitting at the back.
because that makes me reminisce about the past.
okay, i believe ive mentioned this before a few times.
but so what.
this is my blog.
so i shall just say what i want and repeat things how many times i want.
and also to note down how many times i kept missing the past.
and, i guess people this days have been showing me attitudes and stuffs.
i tell you, im sick of it.
seriously.
i dont mind playing those games like being dao-ed or what for fun, but not in a serious note.
like my sis, she just gave me those f* attitudes just because i asked her back the question she ask me.
i seriously dont like the concept that just because shes the older one, she has the authourity to probe into my life and me being the younger one cant probe about hers.
not say i wanna know every single thing, but just some questions to make a particular plan or what goes well, why cant i know what you're doing before that and then i plan?
why must it always be that im the one reporting and you would adjust everything to suit in your way?
and when i arent willing to do things the way you say so, you claim that im troublesome.
sometimes with those freaking attitudes, im really f* up with you.
though i may know the reason why your mood suddenly turn-ed for a 180degree mode..
still, try to take it easy.
and just let me know like you're okay or what and not just give me those stares right..
im sick of ! being so prejudice against @.
seriously, i really dont care what u dislike about @.
its not like, knowing that ! dont like @, i place them together on purpose.
im just arranging things to be at where i think its suited at.
who cares about what grudge you have.
if you have your principles, you should know that some things ought to be 公私分明.
and dont撒娇to me because..sorry, that doesnt work on me.
im not specifically pointing fingers at whoever.
all those werent referring to the same person either.
im just typing out what i think and what should change.
after hearing what # said..
i somehow thought that i saw myself in him/her.
the situation are somewhat the same though theres some differences.
i guess that was what made me _ suddenly..
i seriously felt lost and as if i screwed myself up.
i had to stop because im not going to like embarrassed myself with puffed eyes or what.
caught The Leap Years.
i think its nice. seriously.
at least it appeals to me if it doesnt for others.
and feeling so suffocated of the happenings recently..
i simply cried because i felt like doing so.
it only started when a paricular part touched me at the beginning and i guess that started my water taps.
while watching the shows, many other things also kept coming into my mind and that kept my water tap going.
according to what chuiying said, i cried throughout the entire movie.
if only something like what happened in the show could happened weeks back
(like jeremy waking from his coma and being well again..)how nice would that be.
and tomorrow would be the 1st month since shes gone..
shared packed food with chuiying for dinner at sunplaza park later in the night.
played the swing which i last played since k2 if i arent wrong..(the playground near my house had its removed a long time back)
fell from it when i wanted to stop and pushed chuiying..
i forgot that we should stop gradually and not just stopping by placing your feet onto the ground immediatly.(moreover it was sand instead of concrete ground)
how CLEVER can i get. -.-
okay, so that was roughly what my day was a little.
full of ups and down. haha
my cello bridge is not properly in place on the cello.
damn damn damn.
i guess i gonna bring it to school on friday and see if tianlaoshi can help me with it.
and my fingers really hurt.
i guess the bridge needs to be change =/
oh, and i bought the lemon drink from the vending machine too.
i finally gotten it.
and that made me very happy.
haha, i like the uniqueness/cuteness of the stupid but yet adorable bottle. lols
i guess im really weird.
some random pictures that i found at my grandma's place.
i think that me and my cousin were really good pals who does all fun rubbish together when we were young =D

i guess its just really me to be crazy and wanting to have fun all the time.

and arent i handsome since young? LOLS. =D
bye. XD