another post for the day.
haha. but it gonna be a picture post most probably.
i hope. so let's hope that i shadnt be too naggy as to ratter on and on? XD

but now, the sad thing is..
blogger isnt working. so i cant post any pictures. lols
so i shall update myself about my day today.
actually theres nothing to talk about for the day and the noon since i woke up late.

lets jump to the night instead.
my mum tricked me and my sis out of the house-.-
she said that we shall be having dinner outside today.
which day do we not have dinner outside? -.-
okay, some days. but thats when my grandma's maid cook.
okay, maybe i should change it to my cousin's maid.
but i dont like it, still prefer calling it my grandma's maid.
or rather, im used to calling it that way.
so we went out together with my aunts.
and out of a sudden, they said 'lets go to compass point'
i was like..wth?!?
seriously. because i only want to come back home after dinner and why are they wandering off to such a far place?!?

it was actually my first time going to compass point-.-
okay, call me a noob or what.
but nevermind, at least i saw it today.
it was totally different from what i thought of it to be.

i think my mum and aunts are the powerful ones.
they could just sit there and chat for like 3hrs.
so i was stoning there with my sis; doing stupid stuffs.
i think, sometime my sis is my best entertainment XD

went to T3 suddenly.
omgosh, another random-ness of them again.
but that, i didnt mind.
for i wanna have a look of it.

theres candy empire there.
omg omg omg. lols
stupid-.-
went in XD
as usual, it makes me happy looking at the different kinda chocolates.
smile gay-ly to my sis and she said 'go and find mummy, dont find me'
lols. what a reaction-.-

and i think, alot of space is wasted in T3. lols
for its so big and empty.
so i spent my night going to new places which i have never been before.

just looked out of my room and i saw my mum fiddling with my sis finger.
what a sight. lols
i think shes helping her to burst a blister or what because my sis had been complaining about it.

oh yah! my sis passed me a 4D paper(i dont know what is it called) just now while we were at the mall for random and told me to pick 4numbers.
lols. so i randomly picked it and started crapping about why must we shade the boxes fully and blah blah blah.
my sis gave me a slap and told me to wake up.
lols. the scenario was very funny at that moment.
she asked me to go and buy the number for tomorrow-.-
i told her im not of age and guess what she replied me..
sis : oh yah! you arent of age yet, i thought you can buy le leh *smirks face*
me : damn you-.-
sis : *laughs*
so irritating!

leechuang was again being very random.
but still, i like her answer. lols
she suddenly said 'then there will not be so much "then"s'

im going off. bye

hi there.
im feeling sleepy and yet not sleepy.
lols, how contradicting.

lets see what i can talk about yesturday.
founder's day..boring activities.
but the morning started out a little funny because of the water that were spraying out from the fan.
ranon's and shawn's hair was wet by it.
and they did those typical auntie's action of taking out their umbrella.
haha, its nothing wrong to react to that way.
and after the tap or what was switched off, it started shooting out droplets of water on me&caiyan instead.
i was like, 'the sudden drop of water is cold..'
but the droplet of water yet looked cute =/ to me at least.

about the performance..
nothing to talk about.
but what i think is that the song vick,joel&fusheng put up was like damn depressing?
i dont know, but hearing vick and fusheng played the accompaniment part made my heart sank.
and according to what they said; it was dedicated to lydia sum.

i'm glad i took the earlier spa XD
because i was dying.
lols. though the timing i slept was just as per normal, not exceptionally late or early..
i felt dead.
and again i would say, this is because of the energy i had used up on monday.
hahahahaha. okay not funny -.- =)
came home and slept for awhile before setting off to meet yuyun and huiyi.
i woke up late and so was late.
i was still feeling sleepy, but i decided that i should turn hyper instead.
but after seeing yuyun so dead..i was like..dont know what to do.

i thought i would have been better since thursday was another new day.
but when i was given liying's cello, i had a hard time tuning the A string.
a barrier just seemed to have formed that i found it so hard to even turn it a little.
i wanted to call huiyi or catherine in to help me with it because i simply dont think i would be able to take it if i break another string again after what happened on wed.
but they were busy playing the songs.
and so, the day goes on without any breakage of string and i can say i was glad for it.

i got hyper in the night.
somewhere around 10+,11.
dont know why either, when i was so damn sleepy in the afternoon-.-
maybe it was because of the song that they blasted on the speakers after everything ended?
but no one else was. =(

took a wonderful bath after reaching home XD
felt so fresh.
but seeing that no one would be online, i didnt bother to switch on my com.
so i spent the night staring at my ugly ceiling.
and thus, my day ended.

its good friday today is it?
but it doesnt feels so.
it seemed like just some normal other day and its worst when there isnt practice on saturday.
talking abt that, i better remember to inform junyan.
if not, its my fault.

bye people.

hi there.
its only the second day since term2 started and i seriously forgot about it totally.
i was like thinking, its just a normal schooling day with all the lessons and stuffs thrown in.
it seriously didnt felt like a new term beginning. lols.
guess im really mental.

talking about being mental..
i thinking sleeping REAL LATE makes one hyper. lols
due to sleeping in the late noon and waking up in the night..
i cant get back to sleep.
moreover, with all my undone Holiday Homeworks.
so i stayed up all the way till somewhere round 5.47am(looked at the clock before sleeping).
well, it wasnt solely based on doing homework.
while doing it halfway, i got distracted by my DAMN DAMN MESSY bedroom that i stopped doing my homework and started packing it up-.-
thats a very DUMB THING to do.
especially at a timing like 3am++ ?!?

oh, another thing that made me amused too.
just as i was to go to bed..
my sis just got out of bed to prepare for work.
lols. like 'WTH'
people elsewhere is GETTING OUT or have already GOTTEN OUT of bed.
but here i am, getting IN to bed-.-
isnt it how interesting that my day actually ended and is starting just within a couple of hours?
ps : i only consider my day to end when i rest for the day, and not according to the 24hr system.

the lack of sleep got me very hyper.
i was in the mood for playing and stuffs.
but no other was.
lols, or maybe call that the excitment of getting back to school(which i doubt so? because im lacking all the way back. lols)
not even caiyan or zhihui played with me.
so bad..*cry le lah* lols!

and amazingly i didnt drop dead after 3pm. lols
so i guess i threw my own face away with the stupid things i did. lols
and i was in a very enthu mood in playing the cello.
but, no one to enthu with me. lols
sad thing right =/

another crazy thing was that me and chuiying sat OUTSIDE her house with stools and a table.
it was seriously LOLS.
and i guess i really saw how much the connection between a dog and its owner can exist.
and chuiying knocked her dog's head onto the table accidentally-.-
omg, i was seriously thinking 'ouch' for it.
came home and dropped dead. lols
seriously dead.
so i was just staring and staring and staring at my books-.-
doing NOTHING productive.

and i concluded that such cases of irregular sleeping, for me at least, makes one hyper.
and its very hyper.
for, every since something happened this year, i have never really felt so hyper and'played' without caring about anything.
and its really from my heart.
chuiying, dont come and say that im so happy because you didnt go to school-.-(which you have already said. how can you say that lah-.-)

today..tuesday.
i told jetaime that because i was too hyper yesturday, ive used up my energy for today.
lols, what a stupid thing to say-.-
but nevermind. haha
but i seriously felt dead today.
as in, i wanna just stay in bed for another couple of hours. lols
and i totally forgot about my bottle of lemon drink which i got from 7-11 yest.
so luckily, i had that to keep me awake on and off when im dozing off.
and actually, i dozed off for a while during ehist.
lols, bad student; sleeping in class.

caiyan and i had our candlelit lunch together today. lols
since dont know how long. lols

the rehearsal dragged all the way.
and so, we only really left at about 8pm.

talking about cca, seriously, i have to say this.
shumei, i believe ive mentioned to you before a couple of times, no matter what, you still have to give junyan the respect he should get from anyone as a senior.
and till now, my stand still stays.
its not whether about if im siding him or what; because he do gets on my nerves at times, just like how i might get on anyone's nerves inculding any of your.
thats not the way to say things.
all of us makes mistakes.
no one, seriously, no one is perfect.

i know im not a good cellist either.
but what i can say is, you cant deny that he is a better player then you for now.
the inaccuracy of one's note is unavoidable for us.
just with that alone, everyone of us makes mistakes in that aspect.
i guess im wrong too with the way i express it out just now.
but looking at it for the interest of everyone(like how it will display the standard of cello), it does matter how do we present ourselves.
with a better player, why should i not choose him?
okay, topic close.

but if i have caused any displeasure in any of you(cello people),
i hope you would let me know about it.
at least, let me apologise for it if im in the wrong.
and, i dont have anything against anyone by stating your name.
i just dont think theres anything to hide about it.
and its like, what for.
but i just want to let you know, sometimes, little reactions of one could cause anything, be it troubles or what.

well, shall end it off here. bye

i think i really need to bang the wall.
because sad to say, im not awake yet-.-
im still playing playing playing and yet playing.
though theres isnt much homework given this holiday, i have yet to complete it.
how wonderful right! -.-

i told myself that i gonna complete it by today.
but i spent the say stoning at home with my sis.
how wonderful-.-
and even with all the work undone, i could still take two hours out and watch those drama serials-.-
talking about the show =D..
i think its not that nice.
as in, it might or might not turn out nice.
i dont know.
because there isnt like anything intense or uptight about the show or what.
so i dont know if to continue watching it.
maybe because of the preview, ive seen what happened in this episode and hence has nothing to anticipate for it.
RAHHHHHHHH.
even to decided watching or not has become a chore-.-.-.-.-

and i guess because of the playings i had done in this holiday...
i gonna suffer it in the coming days man.
with uncompleted work and stuffs-.-
RAHHHHH
RAHHHH
RAHH
RAH.

i dont like it when this is the result for procastinating-.-
and on top of that, i have yet to catch up with maths-.-
its like running and running and running and RUNNING AWAY.
*SLAPS MYSELF*
RAHHHH
RAHHH
RAHH
RAH.

im going to start studying!
lols, what the hell..
alittle too late ah? -.-.-.--.-.-
but even when i say this i would still slack and play
DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN
if only i can like start chionging again like the first few days of 2008..
i think my aamaths would be able to make it.
okay, anyone up for it with me? XD

okay, bye.
off to chiong when everyone is happily sleeping.

i've been wanting to change a blogskin you know.
been looking around for dont know how many times
but i just cant find one that i like and yet i could still see people changing their blogskins.
is it that hard to find one skin that i like?
i guess im just too weird. thats why.
so, why not say hi to weirdo?
*HI WEIRDO!*

gosh, i think im seriously mental.

error error.
it isnt gracie's birthday today-.-
its on the 30th not 13th.
who told me its on the 13th hur?
make me malu only 0.0
found out about it when i called to inform her about practice.
damn malu.
and i was supposed to call her home to tell her that, but i called her mum's mobile instead-.-
and i think she got scolded for that. =X

the rain is like..
damn heavy.
and it was also damn cold.
my shoes arent dry yet with all the rain storms..
its been like trying to dry since monday i think.
but i forgot to take it away from the window before going out.
and thus, my shoes got wetter-.-

its freezing cold-.-
damn. i need some warmth.

by the way, happy belated birthday julian.
forgot to wish you happy birthday yesturday.

hello.
i believe today has been great day for me.
as in, the later half of the day.

morning was..
crazy! lols. because i slept late last night after sleeping from 3plus-9plus(thats like a normal school day sleep lah!) to get my fever down.
went to the bank with chuiying and lols, we spent time waiting playing handphone games.

floorball(i think) was fun! and funny. lols
sorry for all the boobs, legs, arms and faces i hit. lols!
thats like practically every part of the body hur? XD

free sauna for the face and fingers today. lols
yiliang says that it opens up our pores.
but yet it isnt washed and cleared.
instead, more particles are landing on it instead. haha
and what will that lead to? PIMPLE!
so cool right! lols
thats spastic.

captain's ball was fun too. lols
julian is just too tall -.-
kinwee tricked me-.-
I'M JUST TOO HANDSOME AND COOL XDDDD
hahaha. sorry, zi high.
but still, funny what. lols

oh yah, by the way, i think i was damn mean/rude to just shoot qihao when he 'replied'
and so, for my rudeness, i apologise.

today has been a nice day.
though the DAMN RAIN spoilt it-.-
i still like pokka's green tea.
and actually, im feeling depressed that i didnt get to drink it today. lols
okay, depressed is just so NOT the word to use.
im just wanting to drink pokka's green tea. lols
im awake now and would gladly accept any person's offer to chat.
as long as i can lie on my bed. lols

i still like doing stupid things like the Sunkist's smile( lemon skin instead of orange) =D

even after bathing, i still think i reeked of the bbq lah!
wth-.-
im going to take another bath again.
bye people!
enjoy the last few of the march holidays.
and by the way, shenyun just sent me a message on msn.
she said she sent me a letter and asked if i recieved it.
but i have yet to. lols.
anticipating =D

and i swear that i will really stop emo-ing!
for, i dont like myself for that.
i dont mind stoning.
and enjoys furthermore.
but emo-ing should really stop.
because im only making myself more emotionally depressed by doing that-.-

expected more from august rush actually.
so it kinda disappoint me a little.
everything is alright and blah blah blah.
if only there can be more on music, i would like it more.
to play as well as lyla, i think that will never happen.
hahaha-.-

im really having a fever-.-

im going to plan some time to take a walk down bedok reservoir.

i guess the later part of the day was nice for me.
thanks chuiying for keeping my cello for the mean time while i went to spend quality time with my mum XD
just me and her.
lols, sounds so gay.

we went to have some random dinner.
if only there was those kinda roadside stalls..
then it would be wonderful XD

went to breadtalk and got a loaf of bread.
damn random i tell you!
lols, i went to choose a greentea red bean falvour.
i hope its nice =X
haha

went to ntuc and i started taking things off the shelf so randomly.
but i ended up placing it back properly because after comparing the items between each other..
some just didnt look that appealing after all.
lols. my mum 'scolded' me.
she says im mad.
hahahaha.
i guess so.
have never felt such since a long time..
i think i should shop with my mum at ntuc more often. lols =D

was damn contented with what we bought.
lols. though nothing much has got to do with me.
and i would be cooking dinner next week!
haha, because its the school holidays for a week and i feel like cooking on one of the nights.
i havent even cook instant noodles for LONG LONG time.
so that goes to show how long have i not touch the gas. lols
but i do use the rice cooker to heat things up-.-
its just so typical of my family and me to use the rice cooker to warm food up instead of placing it in a pot and warm it up instead. lols

im home and..
im happy shopping at ntuc today XD
i know thats.....
but still, its shopping. hahaha

i think i might make a good literature intepreter?
i make certain sentence interesting =DDDDDDDDDD
eg. 'where were they? at the dump?'
hahaha! what a thing to say.
thats just so funny! to me at least
'did you scream long enough for your dad to hear you? or did you scream your dad away before'
hahaha! so cute.
lols.

okay, im going for my bath now.

byebyebyebyebye.

i gonna get that emo side of me AWAY!
and i mean it! though i dont know what am i going to do to mean it.
but life is already depressing enough for me and to be depressed so randomly like that every single day is going to turn me nuts.
not peanuts, not cashew nuts not hazel nuts or anything. its just nuts.
'Ha..Ha..Hah..'
i guess my sense of humour is getting back.
yeah right-.-

cello practice after school.
learn about 2 more scales, a few arpeggios, and a song.
played alot of errors.
all thanks to my bad habit, 平感觉 -.-

tuition later was omg..horribly long.
i dont know why. haha.
but i was feeling very sleepy on the journey there.
trip back was worst, waited the bus for like dont know how long before a 59 came.
i even wanted to walk again.
sawy terry on the bus.
was sort of surprise actually.
because its like at such a late timing, he was still in sch attire.
guess it has got something to do with scouts.

im dead sleepy.
theres co tomorrow.
wanna have breakfast before practice?

i love my bed.
bye.

the passion is no longer the same.

just like the rainy weather,
i guess thats what i feeling now.

the day..didnt seem good for me.
i dont know whats wrong with me.

im sick of how screwed ive screwed myself into.

i cant think of anything to make me smile from the bottom of my heart.

im liking sentimentals even more then ever now.

tomorrow might not be a better day.

i think ive really lost my cool.
i could no longer be able to be as strong as the past.

i hate myself just like those who hate me too.

im that depressed that not even my cello could cure me out of it.

i feel like fighting now.
but there isnt any tkd training for today.
and it doesnt necessarily meant that they would have sparring today.

whats the hell wrong with me?

tag reply to all : haha.

today was like one of the earliest day that i have ever wake up for school. lols
shouldnt elaborate about it.
because i still screwed up my amaths test -.-
but nevermind, i deserve it for not studying properly.
only studied for it this morning.
its very cold early in the morning.
and one thing i hate about it is that i would go round my house with my jacket on just to keep me warm.

im feeling er... moody.
yah, thats the word to describe what i feel.

oh, and btw mdm ashikin said that she read some people's blog.
but still, that isnt gonna change anything about what i blog about.
because, even before she mentioned about it..
i already heard it from someone that she might read our blog.
so its nothing surprising to me actually.
im not like going to close this blog or what because..
this blog started all the way back when i was sec2.
when caiyan was the enthusiatic blogger who was always bugging me to update my blog..
to me updating it on my own will..
and it contained memories too, be it good or bad; which is one of my favourites if you did bother to read those rubbish things at the left hand side.

sheltered aiysah to the bus stop and i got wet instead..
because when the wind blew, she just pulled the umbrella towards her and i got wet.
and to like prevent raindrops from falling on her, i had to hold the umbrella all the way down that it was pressing against my hair while i walked.
so uncomfortable-.-

went safra to bowl after changing into a new and dry set of clothes.
guess what...
my bowling skills sucked like hell-.-
it had slacken so much just because i havent played it for a long time.
its been at least a year since i last played.
i cant remember if i played during sec2 times.
bt sec3, definitely not.
my scores now are only like 80++ -.-.-
sometimes even 60.
wth wth wth.
seriously wth.
i use to get like so much higher-.-
and i cant find a 10pound ball.
so i had to make do with a 12pound ball -.-
and i guess thats probably why i couldnt control the direction of the ball.

explored safra after that.
stayed in the reading room and looked at the singapore's book of record 2007.
i dont see our school in there =/

came home later and played the cello.
well, i havent really been practicing it every day yet =/

i guess things has changed.
i dont know what to say.
things come knocking to you even when you chose to stay away from it.
and i dont know what to do.
nevermind, lets change a topic.

from the bottom of my heart, my lovely juniors. ok?

i need some happy pills.
not in the context of esctasy; sadly, also known as happy pills right?

caught The Leap Years after school with my BELOVED juniors.
yuyun kept insisting shes one of them, so here you go. lols

i think, watching it a second time gave me a total different feeling about it.
as in, this time round, i felt sorry for the casts instead rather then like the uncontrollable water taps that time. haha
maybe because i was feeling stone hearted today. lols
but still, i still think wong li lin is very pretty. lols
as in, compare her with some of the new stars coming up now, and i think she look way much nicer then some of them.
and i still like the quotes that they used in the show. =)

had to rushed home later because i just saw a message saying that i will be having my physics tuition tonight because i cancelled it yesturday.
didnt had the mood for it yesturday either.
so yeah, it was really straight home after the shows. lols
so im ending here for now.
tuition's starting soon.

and again, people just loves coming to me to show me attitude.
i guess i just attracts attituders-.-

had bio spa.
just like what me and caiyan had said about it, i dont regret leaving my answer as that way.
for, its just how one inteprets the question.
though someone else might say u dont answer questions with just some random and weird 'words'
but still, it doesnt mean that a certain thing cant be written that way.
since you're the play safe fellow all along, dont bother arguing with me.
because we will always have a different viewpoint.

i have been walking home for 3 schooling days continuously!
how cool is that! lols.
okay, maybe not.
i didnt walk home on friday.
but the reason was, i didnt had the time to. haha
but still, i get a different feeling everytime i walks home.

went out to study/do homework with chuiying in the night.
lols, i cancelled my physics tuition that i had tonight because i had no mood for it.
so i dont wanna like waste one lesson away because its not cheat.
to others, it might be nothing.
but im not some kinda rich fellow who comes from a rich family.
so money do matters.

i got crazy and fed up with the drawing of the physics practical graph.
i practically went crazy and felt very irritated.
it was just simply getting on my nerves.
so i went out and decided to buy a green pen for my spoilt.
but..it was already 9 plus and all the shops were closed-.-
so i went into seven eleven for dont know what reason..
and i suddenly wanted to buy The Newpaper or some magazines to read.
nothing caught my eyes, so i decided to go to the magazine booth outside, near the bus stop.
but who knows...
the shop closed-.-
just before i went into seven eleven, it was open.
now that im out of it, its closed-.-

went home around 10pm nearing 11pm.
listen up people!
its not a good thing to return home late okay!
lols, but i wasnt wasting my time away, i was using it usefully.
lols. and the weather was far too cooling that it became cold instead.

physics never fails to turn me crazy.

im sorry for the bad attitude that i showed any this morning.
i was that pissed that i couldnt even smiled when i look into the mirror this morning.
had to like punch myself before my face muscles loosen.
crazy shit right.
yah i know that.

okay, im going to bed now. cya people
happy first month grandma.

its a sunday and what i can say is that i have been feeling rather low for the past few days.
not feeling low the whole day, but at certain period of times, i dropped into the emo-mode.
that also explains why i've been walking home.

lets talk about saturday.
its been both a fun and yet emo day for me. haha.

because of friday night..
i still wasnt feeling back to my normal self.
so i thought maybe a walk in the morning would be better for me.
so being the usual lazy self, i didnt want to wake up early and so the only way to do so, is to take a bus to school instead of getting a lift from chuiying's mum.
but it didnt help much. =/
too short i guessed.

practice was as usual.
fusheng came back; though he also came back on friday.
though there was some times when i dont like him probing into matters which sometimes makes it worst for me..
i really missed the times we had together with huiling.yinglan,stacia and other seniors.
i guess that is what growing up meant.
to gain and to lose.
and thats what i hate about growing up.
lets say im greedy then, because i dont mind gaining, but i dont want to lose.
i dont like the feeling of losing something. who does?-.-

and i really like sitting at the back.
because that makes me reminisce about the past.
okay, i believe ive mentioned this before a few times.
but so what.
this is my blog.
so i shall just say what i want and repeat things how many times i want.
and also to note down how many times i kept missing the past.

and, i guess people this days have been showing me attitudes and stuffs.
i tell you, im sick of it.
seriously.
i dont mind playing those games like being dao-ed or what for fun, but not in a serious note.

like my sis, she just gave me those f* attitudes just because i asked her back the question she ask me.
i seriously dont like the concept that just because shes the older one, she has the authourity to probe into my life and me being the younger one cant probe about hers.
not say i wanna know every single thing, but just some questions to make a particular plan or what goes well, why cant i know what you're doing before that and then i plan?
why must it always be that im the one reporting and you would adjust everything to suit in your way?
and when i arent willing to do things the way you say so, you claim that im troublesome.
sometimes with those freaking attitudes, im really f* up with you.

though i may know the reason why your mood suddenly turn-ed for a 180degree mode..
still, try to take it easy.
and just let me know like you're okay or what and not just give me those stares right..

im sick of ! being so prejudice against @.
seriously, i really dont care what u dislike about @.
its not like, knowing that ! dont like @, i place them together on purpose.
im just arranging things to be at where i think its suited at.
who cares about what grudge you have.
if you have your principles, you should know that some things ought to be 公私分明.
and dont撒娇to me because..sorry, that doesnt work on me.

im not specifically pointing fingers at whoever.
all those werent referring to the same person either.
im just typing out what i think and what should change.

after hearing what # said..
i somehow thought that i saw myself in him/her.
the situation are somewhat the same though theres some differences.
i guess that was what made me _ suddenly..
i seriously felt lost and as if i screwed myself up.
i had to stop because im not going to like embarrassed myself with puffed eyes or what.

caught The Leap Years.
i think its nice. seriously.
at least it appeals to me if it doesnt for others.
and feeling so suffocated of the happenings recently..
i simply cried because i felt like doing so.
it only started when a paricular part touched me at the beginning and i guess that started my water taps.
while watching the shows, many other things also kept coming into my mind and that kept my water tap going.
according to what chuiying said, i cried throughout the entire movie.

if only something like what happened in the show could happened weeks back (like jeremy waking from his coma and being well again..)
how nice would that be.
and tomorrow would be the 1st month since shes gone..

shared packed food with chuiying for dinner at sunplaza park later in the night.
played the swing which i last played since k2 if i arent wrong..(the playground near my house had its removed a long time back)
fell from it when i wanted to stop and pushed chuiying..
i forgot that we should stop gradually and not just stopping by placing your feet onto the ground immediatly.(moreover it was sand instead of concrete ground)
how CLEVER can i get. -.-

okay, so that was roughly what my day was a little.
full of ups and down. haha

my cello bridge is not properly in place on the cello.
damn damn damn.
i guess i gonna bring it to school on friday and see if tianlaoshi can help me with it.
and my fingers really hurt.
i guess the bridge needs to be change =/

oh, and i bought the lemon drink from the vending machine too.
i finally gotten it.
and that made me very happy.
haha, i like the uniqueness/cuteness of the stupid but yet adorable bottle. lols
i guess im really weird.

some random pictures that i found at my grandma's place.

i think that me and my cousin were really good pals who does all fun rubbish together when we were young =D

i guess its just really me to be crazy and wanting to have fun all the time.

and arent i handsome since young? LOLS. =D
bye. XD

hi.
at first, i was very excited to blog about something that happen today.
but now..after thinking so much..
i dont know if i actually did the right thing. ='(

lets share the happy news first.

I'm going to take a Cello exam.
I've already registered myself up for it today..when i only got to know about it today; and that it was the last day for registration today.
after so long..im finally realising one of my dreams which is to go ahead and give it a go for cello(this dream only surfaced after i felt attached to cello after these few years of learning..)
I'm really very happy that tianlaoshi said that i'm able to make it for the exam.
but yet, it might be because of anxiety or others that i might not even do well for it or what on the examination day itself.

and now..yet i dont feel really that happy.
after tuition..i missed my bus while waiting for it at the bus stop.
so i simply just walked down two stops before stopping to board a bus home.
and during the walk..
i thought about things.

actually..i was only thinking about focusing on cello only after O's.
i even told tianlaoshi that i would only be taking it next year.
but during practice, she asked if i wanna take it this year because she think that im still able to make it though preparing only now while like others started preparing long time ago..

so i called my mum and asked her about it.
i was waiting for her to give me a firm no and to wait for next year instead.
but she said 'really?!? okay, go for it then.'
and then..because tian only told me today about this cello exam thing and that today is the last day for registration, she lent me money to pay for the exam first.
and i had to rushed down to VCH by 5pm(according to her and fusheng) when it was already like 3.30pm.

and so i went and applied and blah blah blah with liying and huiyi.
i did felt excited and stuffs.

and it was like, within just 24hours..so much things happened.
and..will i be able to get a A(pass with distinction for it)?
im feeling sad that something that is of so much meaning to me is making me think so much about it and making me think if i did the wrong thing.
like, i havent started private lessons with tian.
so..after the sec4 ceases cca..how am i going to get practice?
and..i have to get use to my own cello because yah, the school one will be for the juniors.
i believe i will miss it.
the pretty strings. lols
and using my own cello, if i go down for practies on friday, i would have to bring it to sch and the teachers might be like 'cca has already ceases for your and like why are u not concentrating but still playing?'

and the exam will be in august(most probably)
so its like nearing O's too.
okay, other people have such exams too.
but its the first for me.
i dont know if i will regret my choice for doing so.
but for now..its making me feel sad.
unlike this afternoon when i knew that i would be able to go for it.
did i really do a stupid thing in a moment of folly?

maybe i really need confidence?
or support?
i dont know. i just feel very sad now.
and i want my grandma.
she would be damn happy to know that im giving it a go for cello.
but she wont get to hear me playing it for her.
sorry, im going.
i cant take it anymore

hi.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURUL.
its been since quite a while since i greeted someone happy birthday on the blog on the day itself.

its yet coming to another end of a week.
jetaime just reminded me that its only 7months to O levels..
thats one of the first thing my new partner told me.
lols, what a thing to say.
chuiying! jetaime's my partner eh..
jealous anot. lols! XP

well, my thumb has a blister on it now...
due to the large amount of hot wax that dropped on my thumb.
i hope i wont need to use it to pluck/strum the cello using it anytime soon.

and so..we failed to lit up all the candles for nurul..
with some alphabets unlit.
and the lighter spoilt-.-
but at least she blew those lighted off. lols

well..okay, mdmashikin changed our seats.
but once again..i remained unchanged. lols!
last year when our seats were rearranged in the lab, mine remained..but my surroundings changed-.-
and this year..again. lols
and caiyan is once again seated behind me
just like how she was beside shawn.
and jetaime is once again beside me, just like how shes fated to be my partner for being register 8 last year. lols
and im once again stucked with the pathetic window which cant be close all at once by the handle at the side-.-

walked home after school again.
i guess i really like the feeling of walking home when im feeling...
er..i dont know how to express it either.
just feel like walking home and so i will walk home..
but i think that the distance seemed to be getting shorter or what..
though i didnt timed the distance home.
but just like yesturday..i seemed to reach the bus stop before mine like very fast?
not long enough for me to emo. lols!

my damn shoe gave me a blister on my toe-.-
i guess i need to change a pair of socks.

cant watch The Leap Years on Friday itself..
Boo...because theres CCA after school..
and after CCA, ive this tuition from 7.30pm-9pm(which isnt of much help, but i guess thats what people meant by '一分钱，一分货' since its only like $12 per term or sem i think.)
and i checked the gv website and the next available showtime is at 11.55pm.
just before midnight. lols

okay, i shall end here.
bye

hi.
im not done with studying and here i am blogging-.-

wasted my day yesturday.
today..was abit better i guess?

went studying with shirlin at downtown east bk.
she was released at 2pm..
so she got to go home and get a bath before coming =(
i cant have my bath too.
thats unfair =/
make me jealous only-.-

met dion&others there.
okay not met. met sounds as if they came first.
we came first, not them.
lols, thats childish-.-
and talking about childish..
i think i had really severe pms yesturday or what.
lols. im not gonna talk about it.
its stupid-.-

studied till almost 7pm when both of us lost concentration and started talking. lols
took 21 home.
but the journey today seemed fast.
guess it was because i was studying. lols
and till now..i still love long bus rides. lols
its a really nice time for emo-ing and admiring the scenaries at the same time though theres nothing nice to see.

i want to watch The Leap Years.
okay, common test isnt over yet im here thinking about movies that i wanna watch-.-
bye, im going.
wish me luck

feeling sad and low..

i dont know if i were to say today as a happy day. lols
reason : because i woke up at almost 11am.
i know that reason is stupid.
but it replenishes all the sleep i needed so far.

chose not to go out and study because i felt homely today. lols
and i guess that was a wrong move.
because, it was too comfortable that i didnt had the mood to study and i was even bored of studying at frequent but non-consistent intervals.
that 'frequent but non-consistent intervals' just looks funny to me.
lols, like some kinda science experiment result.
and nobody was home today either..
so wasnt i supposed to be like having no disturbance from anyone?
but i was feeling bored instead.
because i had no one to talk to -.-

im blogging because im bored.
sent smses to people thinking if i could find someone to chat with.
but some were no replies, some were studying and blah blah blah.
so i just stoned at my chem textbook. lols
im a stoner..yeah!!
whose a rocker??
wahlao..thats like being such a crazy idiot?
rah....i want cello practices NOW and i mean NOW.
lols, but theres no school today-.-

i believe im just crapping shit here.
so i gonna stop.
someone be a kind soul and just chat with me?