i dont know what to say.
so i shall just talk about random stuffs.

sorry gaoyang, for making ur sleeve tear.
i swear never to play so roughly ever again.

mrspong is really nice and patient.

i think i suck and i really do.

i arent late for school and isnt that good?
i think i would like detention, for i would stay there and study at least.

i think things have change and i feel really sad about it.
okay, maybe not really. just sad is enough.

theres this irritating minnie mouse clock on my table which is supposed to replace the clock in the hall.
but i think its ugly.

my memory today is like SHIT.
i forgot to do ALOT of things.

i dont know what to say.
really.
not in the mood to say anything =/

i hope tian is okay by now.

theres this DHSCO in march
im happy that the new sec ones are willing to go without me like trying to fool them or what into going.
i never fooled ppl into going right?
i hoped not.
i hope they will have the enthusiasm for co.
infact i hope everyone whose in co to have the enthusiasm for it.
but i guess thats abit of hard.

talking about this..
if i still see no enthusiasm for co in the sec3s.
i might seriously ask and give your a skip.
letting the sec2s take over instead.
i want one who is bothered and willing to do things for cello
and not those who tries to push around and say she/he could do it instead.
or mixing personal and official stuffs together.
i believe that i might be partial at times.
but still, it depends on the situation, like how serious it is.

though nasco might have nothing to do with us anymore once we leaves or step down..
still, theres still the sense of belonging to there once before.
and belonging to it once, who would hope to see it falling after leaving?
your might dislike me for doing so, because 理论上, the next batch should take over instead.
but i seriously wont just let it go just to have your liking me.
i believe most of your just take cello/co as a cca; and nothing else.
but come to think of it, does it really mean nothing to you?
if you havent been attending cca all along, what would you have spent your time doing?
dont tell me studying, apart from that i meant.

i believe i have said before that even if you dont like cello, just attend the lessons for the sake of it as a cca.
but even after so long..
do you still not have any feelings for it?
a sense of belonging?
even if it meant getting loads of scoldings before?
and i tell you, before you think of any other faults or what..
would it be better that someone bothers to scold you, to correct you
or would you rather to not get scoldings but finds out that the someone isnt bothering about how you fare at all?
and i dare to comment on this because unlike junyan, ive been through more scoldings then him and some really horrid ones.
so dont come and shoot me off with, 'what do you know, you've never gotten much scoldings before'

okay, im stopping here.
the sec3s are going for their sec3 camp soon and that made me reminisce about ours last year.
i could still remember certain things here and there and the feelings i had for it.
i even remembered deeply about going to AMK for lunch with huiling and others though i was just backed from camp.
but it was really a nice experience, and i do miss the times.

takecare.