I'm just hoping that everything will end so that I can sit down and practice my cello for hours without having anything in mind.

People like you are always dampening others mood. Disgusting, I don't want to talk to you if thats the case. Whatever, fuck off man. I had a long day already. CBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB

Hate my life now.

End of company law individual project!

YAYYYYYYYY hahaha, ok lah, not like I'm very hardworking-.-

But it's okkkkk, hahaha, I still feel tired after sleeping for 12hrs=/

Training later, ahhhhhhhhh, i hope its not tiring because I'm not in the mood for ittt.

GAHHH

Shall date my cello after 9pm =D

I hear the bells ringing

Don't know what to do for my company law project.

Oh nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

I ♥ lawnet -.-

Went for GY's 21st at downtown east!

It has been sooooooooooooooooo long since I met them and grace gave me a hug the moment she saw me!

I totally appreciated that! Because I miss them alotttt too. (She can read my mind, hahahahahaha)

Downtown east has never been so quiet before I think..and it was already empty and quiet when it was only 1am.

Stayed for the chalet unexpectedly, lollllllll, so that meant no clean clothes to change into, omgggg and my mind was pretty tired in fact.

Tried to do some company law to atone for my playfulness but I only managed to absorb 2pages and I gave up on studying to play, lollllllll.

Breakfast with a few of them at mac was awesome, not because the food was good, lol.

Been so long since we had a chalet together, went for early breakfast when we don't sleep at all(always happens, loll), chatted and just talk about nonsense stupid stuffs and sometimes even having our conversations made into debates.

But the feeling that came back to me, just made me felt so happy that I could be there, meeting up with them instead of being occupied with other nonsensical stuffs.

It has been so long since I got those simple happiness kind of feelings again.

Like for the 4years that we spent together in secondary school.. it was all wonderful memories no matter how much maths, physics and chemistry tried to kill me.

There was a short period where I even thought that we were having our holidays together again.

Ok, my post don't really make sense lah, but I just wanted to share how much I enjoyed their company, how much I missed it and how awesome it is to have them as my friends.

Bye!

All of a sudden, I find that I have changed.

I don't know how to explain that, but I'm pretty much disgusted by it.

I can't seem to put my heart into doing something well.

Even if I want to, I will waver somehow.

Hais.

what is the correct thing to do?

tell me where to go, how to go.

stop playing with my feelings.

I kinda miss you =/

Most of my weekends are going to be drain out this coming december. Oh no.......

I will have to stop my cello lessons for 3 weeks to attend the courses.

I hope that my school work and co stuffs won't drain me out =X

I've signed up for NCAP and poomsae coaching course but I don't think I'm qualified enough!

Plus I mia-ed for the past 2-3months for tkd, whoops!

Dieeeeeee.

On a bright side, if I pass both courses, I will be considered a qualified national poomsae coach and half a qualified tkd instructor!

I'm scaredddddddd. =/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!
I know you won't see this, but it's okkkkkkkkk. Hahahaha

I'm soooooooooo excited!

I'm going to catch Harry Potter later at Iluma!

Been so long since I had the HP craze in me, maybeeeeeeeee I will read the entire series all over again in my next long break, HAHA, that means it will be in like next march? Lollllll

My sis is going tw in about...... 6hrs time!

Lucky shit. Damnnnnnnnn I want to go too! If I simply hope on a flight, I can be in tw for abt 5days!(including flying over and returning)

Whatever!! I got to try to go on a getaway somehow =/

Need to get started on my company law essayyyyyyyy. Omggggggggg

Some things don't have to be said.
The amount of priority that it gets.
It all comes naturally with every slightest action.
I was once made to give it a higher position in my life and then when it got there, I see it all, it's being taken for granted.
One day when I'm disappointed and sick of everything, that's the end of it, I will no longer give a damn for whatever that happens to it.
Because sometimes, I find that it is simply just making use of me and it does not deserve any of my effort at all.

Here's some pictures to er.....update about some small events? Hahahaha
Went on a date with my mum and sis to celebrate her birthday earlier this year because my sis will be going to tw next wed. STUPID! How I wish I go to TW too, grrrrrrrrrr.

My mum's not that ahlian already highlight's hahaha

sichuan crispy red bean paste pancakes?

ee fu noodles with the meat from the roasted duck

beijing roasted duck? lol

steam cod fish! damnnnnn smooth, but I find it too smooth, lol.

chilli crab, not that nice=/

broccoli with authentic crabmeat! (y)

BBQ with chuiying, her mum, koknam, my mum, sis and I

qihao&dion is missing out all the

my sis takes nothing but jojo's picture, lolllll

at times like that, i get really confused.

I want to donate blood!

I've been to Australia, Suzhou, Shanghai, Hongkong, Macau, Taiwan, Cambodia, Vietnam, Phuket, Bangkok, Bintan, Batam, Penang, Genting, KL, Malacca.
I'm fortunate to have been able to travel to all these countries no matter what purpose is it for.
It may not have been the best one would have dream for. But it's satisfying enough right?

I don't want my actions to be a burden for my mum to carry because I have been a financial burden to my mum also imo, with all my financial draining interests. Tsk.
How.

The year is coming to an end. But I have nothing to my name. I have so many and so much doubts in my mind which makes me confuse and then I start pondering if my actions were right. What am I going to do now? I don't know why am I having so much doubts when I'm not taking my A's and have to plan my next route.

Speaking of which, my JC friends are sitting for their A's very soon, like tomorrow? I wish them all the best! Because they have all been working very hard for it, and obviously, everyone loves happy endings right.

And I still hate having doubts. I need to be sure of my life. And no doubt, I have to have control over my life.

honestly speaking, i feel very touched when i saw that message. hahahaha
but why so random.

I am having a love-hate relationship with saturday nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
I pray and hope and wish with alllllllll my heart that I will be able to do the paper and pass at the very least to be able to show my thanks to my deer for teaching me despite my hopelessness and helplessness knowledge of all these and for all the time she put in despite having her exams ongoing as well.

Can I please turn and be more hardworking overnight and start chionging.
Hais, I'm hopeless.
It's the first week of school where everything is suppose to be relaxing but I'm going to school everyday to study like some mugger.
I hope I will turn into one so that I can pass sat's paper.
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I wasted time and money once already, please don't let me do it one more time.

jialat jialat jialat.
I wasn't going to be late in the first place but somehow thanks to the traffic im the last to reach.

I'm going to get back my brave self!
It's a need, not a want. haha.

All I want to say is that I want to tell Mr Lim a belated happy teacher's day in real person.
He was one of the reason why I was contemplating to return to nas, but I didn't, saying that I will return the year after instead.
I'm ashamed/sad of myself for not being brave enough to take a closer look at him just now.
I won't comment on his fb and stuffs even though I want to because I find some of it so pretentious to just say deepest condolences and stuff even though its the truth, but it just seem as if it came out of their mouth so easily without any meaning.
I pray that his family will get on fine soon enough and hope that they won't face too much difficulties.
I want to visit Mrs Pong, Ms Yanti, Mr Thong, Mrs Teh, Tian ling, Josephine Lee and Mrs De Almeida like now.