just got home from sch.
meet the parent-teacher session today.
mum was pms-ing me right in the morning.
so i was sort of moody.
kept flaring at me for nth.
its not my fault that u dont see the teacher at the time u want right.
how would i know that theres also 7am++ timing slot.
argh...nvm. my fault yah my fault.
wanna scream in the morning go and find another victim lah.
scream at me for what.
i know that ur worried for ahyee because things doesnt seem as well as it is.
but..my fault ah. things not going well for her my fault ah.

mrs teh came in and i saw her but yet looked away.
so she walked over and said : why scared to see me because ur mum is here ah?
no lah. its not that im scared to see u.
its some sort of i dont know how to see u.

other parents asked quite a couple of things.
she didnt asked much.
just said something like : do u know whats the cause?
zzz. mrskoh asked if when i started revising.
mrskoh : 2weeks before?
me : no comments.
mrskoh : what u mean by no comments?
me : just no comments.

i dont know why but the moment she opened my report book.
i felt horrible.
very very very very horrible.
mrskoh told my mum something like maybe its because of the great jump that im not able to cope with and the stress or what and syf was somehow at that period.
as she said on and on to my mum.
my eyes started stinging.
and then the next thing i knew was that i started to be breaking down alittle.
tried my best to control it but i just couldnt help it.
abigail&her parents were there =X

guess some of the things that mrskoh said was truly what i felt.
but my mum just dont seem to see it ='(
i was also hoping to get away as soon as possible because the tears started flowing quickly.
so..i didnt even say bye to mrskoh when she said bye to my mum&me.
i saw mum tearing.
i felt even worst.
just told mum to go off first while walking away from her.

so..i went to the toilet supposingly is to wash my face.
but i soon started breaking down seriously.
i couldnt control any longer.
so i went into one of the showering cubicle.
stayed there for quite some time.

im not going on any further.
im stll feeling veryveryveryveryveryveryveryvery horrible.
damn it. just writing this post has made me started tearing.
im going to play the cello now.
hope it makes me feel better.

='((