thks to those who tried to cheered me up or talk some sense into me over the phone or others.
its over and yup, i know.
but yet, i dont know why.
its the holidays and i arents feeling any good about it.
infact i think im kinda numb by it or what.
i reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally wanna have a nice chat with someone.
somehow to pour out all my - feelings.
but yet i dont know if i really would.
i felt that this time round it has reallyreallyreallyreally sort of killed me.
i guess u did really say something right caiyan.
but in fact, all along i didnt guess it was that bad.
its only this time round.
theres no more time for me to stay like this or what.
but i guessed its really really hard for ....
mum, u just dont seemed to get it until now.
u just dont!
i dont know why u dont.
but u just DONT DONT DONT DONT seemed to get it.
i seriously dont know whow to get back up.
u arent showing me anything * that i need.
breakdowns dont seem to be doing anything it should to get one back on track.
or throwing things away.