I kinda miss you =/

Most of my weekends are going to be drain out this coming december. Oh no.......

I will have to stop my cello lessons for 3 weeks to attend the courses.

I hope that my school work and co stuffs won't drain me out =X

I've signed up for NCAP and poomsae coaching course but I don't think I'm qualified enough!

Plus I mia-ed for the past 2-3months for tkd, whoops!

Dieeeeeee.

On a bright side, if I pass both courses, I will be considered a qualified national poomsae coach and half a qualified tkd instructor!

I'm scaredddddddd. =/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!
I know you won't see this, but it's okkkkkkkkk. Hahahaha

I'm soooooooooo excited!

I'm going to catch Harry Potter later at Iluma!

Been so long since I had the HP craze in me, maybeeeeeeeee I will read the entire series all over again in my next long break, HAHA, that means it will be in like next march? Lollllll

My sis is going tw in about...... 6hrs time!

Lucky shit. Damnnnnnnnn I want to go too! If I simply hope on a flight, I can be in tw for abt 5days!(including flying over and returning)

Whatever!! I got to try to go on a getaway somehow =/

Need to get started on my company law essayyyyyyyy. Omggggggggg

Some things don't have to be said.
The amount of priority that it gets.
It all comes naturally with every slightest action.
I was once made to give it a higher position in my life and then when it got there, I see it all, it's being taken for granted.
One day when I'm disappointed and sick of everything, that's the end of it, I will no longer give a damn for whatever that happens to it.
Because sometimes, I find that it is simply just making use of me and it does not deserve any of my effort at all.

Here's some pictures to er.....update about some small events? Hahahaha
Went on a date with my mum and sis to celebrate her birthday earlier this year because my sis will be going to tw next wed. STUPID! How I wish I go to TW too, grrrrrrrrrr.

My mum's not that ahlian already highlight's hahaha

sichuan crispy red bean paste pancakes?

ee fu noodles with the meat from the roasted duck

beijing roasted duck? lol

steam cod fish! damnnnnn smooth, but I find it too smooth, lol.

chilli crab, not that nice=/

broccoli with authentic crabmeat! (y)

BBQ with chuiying, her mum, koknam, my mum, sis and I

qihao&dion is missing out all the

my sis takes nothing but jojo's picture, lolllll

at times like that, i get really confused.

I want to donate blood!

I've been to Australia, Suzhou, Shanghai, Hongkong, Macau, Taiwan, Cambodia, Vietnam, Phuket, Bangkok, Bintan, Batam, Penang, Genting, KL, Malacca.
I'm fortunate to have been able to travel to all these countries no matter what purpose is it for.
It may not have been the best one would have dream for. But it's satisfying enough right?

I don't want my actions to be a burden for my mum to carry because I have been a financial burden to my mum also imo, with all my financial draining interests. Tsk.
How.

The year is coming to an end. But I have nothing to my name. I have so many and so much doubts in my mind which makes me confuse and then I start pondering if my actions were right. What am I going to do now? I don't know why am I having so much doubts when I'm not taking my A's and have to plan my next route.

Speaking of which, my JC friends are sitting for their A's very soon, like tomorrow? I wish them all the best! Because they have all been working very hard for it, and obviously, everyone loves happy endings right.

And I still hate having doubts. I need to be sure of my life. And no doubt, I have to have control over my life.

honestly speaking, i feel very touched when i saw that message. hahahaha
but why so random.

I am having a love-hate relationship with saturday nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
I pray and hope and wish with alllllllll my heart that I will be able to do the paper and pass at the very least to be able to show my thanks to my deer for teaching me despite my hopelessness and helplessness knowledge of all these and for all the time she put in despite having her exams ongoing as well.

Can I please turn and be more hardworking overnight and start chionging.
Hais, I'm hopeless.
It's the first week of school where everything is suppose to be relaxing but I'm going to school everyday to study like some mugger.
I hope I will turn into one so that I can pass sat's paper.
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I wasted time and money once already, please don't let me do it one more time.

jialat jialat jialat.
I wasn't going to be late in the first place but somehow thanks to the traffic im the last to reach.

I'm going to get back my brave self!
It's a need, not a want. haha.

All I want to say is that I want to tell Mr Lim a belated happy teacher's day in real person.
He was one of the reason why I was contemplating to return to nas, but I didn't, saying that I will return the year after instead.
I'm ashamed/sad of myself for not being brave enough to take a closer look at him just now.
I won't comment on his fb and stuffs even though I want to because I find some of it so pretentious to just say deepest condolences and stuff even though its the truth, but it just seem as if it came out of their mouth so easily without any meaning.
I pray that his family will get on fine soon enough and hope that they won't face too much difficulties.
I want to visit Mrs Pong, Ms Yanti, Mr Thong, Mrs Teh, Tian ling, Josephine Lee and Mrs De Almeida like now.

I was packing my stuffs and reading again all those gifts, notes and cards and everything that I received for my past few birthdays and sec4 graduation.
I started thinking, what kind of person was I like in the past?
For all of them to appreciate everything that I've done.
What have I done, to deserve all those gifts.
For that, I'm very thankful.
And maybe, those are the friends that I will truely be in contact with in time to come, but who knows what will become of the friendships.

And then I started thinking what kind of person have I become.
Stepping into poly, facing all the politics, dealing with them, gaining survival skills, understanding others, etc.
Have I change?
Have I also started playing mindgames with some unworthy creatures?
Is it the right thing to do?
Am I becoming like them?
How will I know when to stop?

Maybe afterall, I was a better person in the past.
Am I a bad person already?

The past week was..........busy only ah! HAHAHAHA
Right after mooncake selling was prep for MA, glad that everything ended well even though there was sooooooo many things that happen in the process, especially the stupid rain which caused us to worry sooooo much!
Good job good job!
But I missed the dragz gathering, haha, sian....

Working for F1 at fairmount was everything but boring. Hahaha
Though I can't deny that E is irritating sometimes, but there were times when she was nice or funny.
And I guess sometimes what they all want is efficiency lah..so also not entirely her fault.
But oh man, it was hellllll tiring, hahaha.
Dinner over there was omggg.....horrible.
And then to be placed in a room full of good food was a tortureee.
Omg, those delicious looking desserts! and main course! Argh!!!!!!
But the job was fun because there were nice ppl there too.
I like Susan because I think that she's pretty! HAHAHAHAHA
But I haven't forgot julia! Hehehehehe =D

NIGHTS EVERYONE

My selling mooncake job is over.
I kinda feel more sad than happy about it being over.

On the brightside, I don't have to wake up at 8plus in the morning and nap to and fro on the bus already.
I can go out and play.
I can practice my cello.
No long hours of standing and selling mooncake.
That's all I can think of.

But if I'm still working, I can greet julia and crystal morning everyday.
Tease the both of them.
Joke around with them.
Have breakfast with them.
Do stupid things with them.
Exchange mooncakes with my neighbours.
Smile like a retard to julia.
Gossip about the man who does his duty everyday at 12pm promptly.
Cut mooncakes.
Talk about the pretty girl next next door with Crystal.

I don't know..
I just feel like that past week of selling mooncakes was a dream.
A sweet though tiring one.
I can even wake up at 9am now without the aid of my handphone.
How often is it to have such a wonderful booth manager to supervise and make things right but yet be your friend accompanying you.

Life at work has been good so far! HAHAHAHAH

Free mooncake on the second day of work! But I didn't want to eat it, so I gave it to my mum and sis to share.
Got an hour BREAK for nothing, SERIOUSLY nothing when I'm working, the irony, lolll. I went to shop and then took a short nap before returning from my break.
And then our booth manager, Julia, was so on that we can just joke crap with her, hahaha, and I feel as if I know her for quite some time already or what, when it's been just 3days since I started working, lolll.
A new week starts tomorrow and I hope it will be good too! =D

Exams are over!! But I felt as if it's been days since I had my last paper although it was only yesturday!
Hahahaha,caught haunted changi with my friends and I think it isn't really very nice.
Both my friend and I saw the bad ratings for the show but we still pulled the rest along with us to watch it. Lol, waste money only................

I've started working at parkway parade selling mooncakes till 19sept! Visit me leh!
Because it's very boring thereeeeeeee when there's nothing to do. =( Hahahahaha
I wondered how I survived working at robinsons the other time man.

YAY!! BA1 IS DOWN!!!!

1 more to go!

Good luck for your papers everyone!
I wish to get back my gpa of at least 3 again with allllllll my heart.

Can't wait for exams to end!!

MY INTERNET IS DOWN.
I'm sitting at the chairs near BLIC to leech on their internet connection to send out 2emails.
How pathetic is that!!!!!!!!!