didnt went studying after school today.
reason was i think i couldnt take those everyday studying life.
been studying out since sat, and i dont think i like those kinda life.
so im gonna take a break today before resuming it tomorrow perhaps?

last night was pretty much of a emotional night for me.
had all different kinda mixed feelings.
sometimes i just feel like giving everything up.
i dont know why but i just cant seem to grasp maths easily.
my sis was even rubbing salt in.
sometimes i just wished i could just shut her off.
but still, its also thanks to her that i get past some things easily.

was just checking my mail last night and i saw a email from shenyun.
i was feeling sick of stuffs yesturday.
but after seeing that i had a mail from her, my mood went for a sudden turn.
i dont know why, but i just felt that, theres still a friend out there whose still asking on me though shes busy with her life too and though it wasnt a weekend, she sent me a email.
she hardly uses the com on other days.

about today, i went down slightly late in the morning.
made chuiying and her mum wait for me.
for that im sorry.
i slept early last night at 12plus.
but i didnt want to get up this morning.

went to tm to get a walk after school.
at the same time, went to get a birthday card for shenyun too.
her birthday is coming, its on the 21st january.
same as leechuang.
helped my sis to get feilunhai 2nd album too.
didnt want to preorder it.

walked home instead.
i dont know why i did that, but i just did.
okay, some of the songs in flh 2nd album are alright other then that xiao xiao da ren wu.
i think i like that song called Ti Amo and other songs in the album too.
not all though.

going off anyway.
no mood.