I am having a love-hate relationship with saturday nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
I pray and hope and wish with alllllllll my heart that I will be able to do the paper and pass at the very least to be able to show my thanks to my deer for teaching me despite my hopelessness and helplessness knowledge of all these and for all the time she put in despite having her exams ongoing as well.

Can I please turn and be more hardworking overnight and start chionging.
Hais, I'm hopeless.
It's the first week of school where everything is suppose to be relaxing but I'm going to school everyday to study like some mugger.
I hope I will turn into one so that I can pass sat's paper.
Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I wasted time and money once already, please don't let me do it one more time.

jialat jialat jialat.
I wasn't going to be late in the first place but somehow thanks to the traffic im the last to reach.

I'm going to get back my brave self!
It's a need, not a want. haha.

All I want to say is that I want to tell Mr Lim a belated happy teacher's day in real person.
He was one of the reason why I was contemplating to return to nas, but I didn't, saying that I will return the year after instead.
I'm ashamed/sad of myself for not being brave enough to take a closer look at him just now.
I won't comment on his fb and stuffs even though I want to because I find some of it so pretentious to just say deepest condolences and stuff even though its the truth, but it just seem as if it came out of their mouth so easily without any meaning.
I pray that his family will get on fine soon enough and hope that they won't face too much difficulties.
I want to visit Mrs Pong, Ms Yanti, Mr Thong, Mrs Teh, Tian ling, Josephine Lee and Mrs De Almeida like now.

I was packing my stuffs and reading again all those gifts, notes and cards and everything that I received for my past few birthdays and sec4 graduation.
I started thinking, what kind of person was I like in the past?
For all of them to appreciate everything that I've done.
What have I done, to deserve all those gifts.
For that, I'm very thankful.
And maybe, those are the friends that I will truely be in contact with in time to come, but who knows what will become of the friendships.

And then I started thinking what kind of person have I become.
Stepping into poly, facing all the politics, dealing with them, gaining survival skills, understanding others, etc.
Have I change?
Have I also started playing mindgames with some unworthy creatures?
Is it the right thing to do?
Am I becoming like them?
How will I know when to stop?

Maybe afterall, I was a better person in the past.
Am I a bad person already?

The past week was..........busy only ah! HAHAHAHA
Right after mooncake selling was prep for MA, glad that everything ended well even though there was sooooooo many things that happen in the process, especially the stupid rain which caused us to worry sooooo much!
Good job good job!
But I missed the dragz gathering, haha, sian....

Working for F1 at fairmount was everything but boring. Hahaha
Though I can't deny that E is irritating sometimes, but there were times when she was nice or funny.
And I guess sometimes what they all want is efficiency lah..so also not entirely her fault.
But oh man, it was hellllll tiring, hahaha.
Dinner over there was omggg.....horrible.
And then to be placed in a room full of good food was a tortureee.
Omg, those delicious looking desserts! and main course! Argh!!!!!!
But the job was fun because there were nice ppl there too.
I like Susan because I think that she's pretty! HAHAHAHAHA
But I haven't forgot julia! Hehehehehe =D

NIGHTS EVERYONE

My selling mooncake job is over.
I kinda feel more sad than happy about it being over.

On the brightside, I don't have to wake up at 8plus in the morning and nap to and fro on the bus already.
I can go out and play.
I can practice my cello.
No long hours of standing and selling mooncake.
That's all I can think of.

But if I'm still working, I can greet julia and crystal morning everyday.
Tease the both of them.
Joke around with them.
Have breakfast with them.
Do stupid things with them.
Exchange mooncakes with my neighbours.
Smile like a retard to julia.
Gossip about the man who does his duty everyday at 12pm promptly.
Cut mooncakes.
Talk about the pretty girl next next door with Crystal.

I don't know..
I just feel like that past week of selling mooncakes was a dream.
A sweet though tiring one.
I can even wake up at 9am now without the aid of my handphone.
How often is it to have such a wonderful booth manager to supervise and make things right but yet be your friend accompanying you.

Life at work has been good so far! HAHAHAHAH

Free mooncake on the second day of work! But I didn't want to eat it, so I gave it to my mum and sis to share.
Got an hour BREAK for nothing, SERIOUSLY nothing when I'm working, the irony, lolll. I went to shop and then took a short nap before returning from my break.
And then our booth manager, Julia, was so on that we can just joke crap with her, hahaha, and I feel as if I know her for quite some time already or what, when it's been just 3days since I started working, lolll.
A new week starts tomorrow and I hope it will be good too! =D

Exams are over!! But I felt as if it's been days since I had my last paper although it was only yesturday!
Hahahaha,caught haunted changi with my friends and I think it isn't really very nice.
Both my friend and I saw the bad ratings for the show but we still pulled the rest along with us to watch it. Lol, waste money only................

I've started working at parkway parade selling mooncakes till 19sept! Visit me leh!
Because it's very boring thereeeeeeee when there's nothing to do. =( Hahahahaha
I wondered how I survived working at robinsons the other time man.

YAY!! BA1 IS DOWN!!!!

1 more to go!

Good luck for your papers everyone!
I wish to get back my gpa of at least 3 again with allllllll my heart.

Can't wait for exams to end!!

MY INTERNET IS DOWN.
I'm sitting at the chairs near BLIC to leech on their internet connection to send out 2emails.
How pathetic is that!!!!!!!!!

I don't know why but I felt very sad when I saw the YOG flame being put out and passed on to Chinaaa.
Arghhhhhhh =(
I think it was because I didn't get to get tickets for both the closing ceremony and one of the tkd event.
Hais =(
Despite all the mishaps, I still felt that it was a job well done for a first timer.

Life has been too relaxing for me recently!
Not that it is a bad thing, just that.....I'm suppose to be studying for my exams!
I've went on a short trip, enjoyed myself and I don't know what else to say but I've done alot of things to relax but have yet to start hitting my books.

That is not a good thing because I'm almost practically totally lost for BA because I told myself that I will study it during the one month break. And at the look at it, my days are practically almost everyday filled with activities or me slacking around watching dramas that I have not got to watch during the semester break. Oh man.

It's been very long since I did a proper post with pictures and stuff. But it seems that I no longer know what to blog anymore! =/
Just like in the beginning when I started this blog.

I feel so upset with myself for not purchasing a yog ticket earlier. =(

How are you my friend?

Today has been an awesome day!

It was such an awesome feeling to be able to perform with all my seniors again!
Ok, not all, but most of them, especially those who taught me so much during my stay in nasco.
All the fun we had while waiting to perform, laughing and smiling it off when we played mistakes.
To conclude the entire performance perfectly with our imperfections.
Fulfilling one of my wish since sec 3 of getting to perform with all of them again even after they graduate. =DDDDDD

Seeing Tian again after like er......6months? brought me a funny feeling.
Like we were once so close though she always scold me hahahahahaa, till it seem a little weird that we were yet that distant just now.
Afterall, she has been a person whom I respect alot for all the skills that she have equipped me in my entire journey in nasco.
Sometimes, I just miss her.

The end of this performance meant one load off my shoulder.
But I would like to perform with my cello seniors again and again and again!
Even to the day where we are all old and working, it will be such an awesome thing!
I love you guys! Hahahahaha

On a side note...Pauline is back! Like for real, permanently!
Another worry down for she is no longer in that land of worries(from the time those red shirts wreak havoc to now its state of being pretty peaceful).
The hug which was so real felt so unrealistic! HAHAHA

Now that all these are done, I'm left with only 24hours to chiong my Fam law report which is hardly started on and I'm so dead but I will work hard tomorrow for the sake of my results and to be thankful for all the happiness I experienced today.

I realise that I have grown to like hugs because that is a way of me expressing myself saying that I miss you and I feel comforted and assured everytime I get a hug from my friends who I care.

Apparantly...I am experiencing micro tears on both thighs-.-

Since the start of this semester, I have become harsher and last forgiving towards others.
I don't exactly know what caused the change in me, but I don't think it was a good change.
I just don't know what should I do.

At the same time, I forgone and missed out so much things in life while fulfilling my commitments and passions.
For now, I don't have the confidence to say that all these is worth it.
I hope it will be.

At the end of the day, we are all alone.

My godddddddddddddd.
Today's training was hell, but loads of fun, hahaha.