Don't know why am I losing my composure over such a little matter. But well I am.
I don't think I'm like that normally right?
I can't think of the rational behind my behaviour and I'm feeling irritated over behaving like that.
Just like some spoilt brat.
But I seriously felt auffocated, irritated, disgusted and pissed at the simplest thought of it.
I don't know why either.
I don't like behaving this way especially making it known to others simply because of the way I react to it which is so @!$%$#^@(
But I HATE TO LEAVE DOUBTS IN MYSELF.
AND NOT BEING ABLE TO DECIDE AND IDENTIFY WHAT I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT.