i guess the later part of the day was nice for me.
thanks chuiying for keeping my cello for the mean time while i went to spend quality time with my mum XD
just me and her.
lols, sounds so gay.

we went to have some random dinner.
if only there was those kinda roadside stalls..
then it would be wonderful XD

went to breadtalk and got a loaf of bread.
damn random i tell you!
lols, i went to choose a greentea red bean falvour.
i hope its nice =X
haha

went to ntuc and i started taking things off the shelf so randomly.
but i ended up placing it back properly because after comparing the items between each other..
some just didnt look that appealing after all.
lols. my mum 'scolded' me.
she says im mad.
hahahaha.
i guess so.
have never felt such since a long time..
i think i should shop with my mum at ntuc more often. lols =D

was damn contented with what we bought.
lols. though nothing much has got to do with me.
and i would be cooking dinner next week!
haha, because its the school holidays for a week and i feel like cooking on one of the nights.
i havent even cook instant noodles for LONG LONG time.
so that goes to show how long have i not touch the gas. lols
but i do use the rice cooker to heat things up-.-
its just so typical of my family and me to use the rice cooker to warm food up instead of placing it in a pot and warm it up instead. lols

im home and..
im happy shopping at ntuc today XD
i know thats.....
but still, its shopping. hahaha

i think i might make a good literature intepreter?
i make certain sentence interesting =DDDDDDDDDD
eg. 'where were they? at the dump?'
hahaha! what a thing to say.
thats just so funny! to me at least
'did you scream long enough for your dad to hear you? or did you scream your dad away before'
hahaha! so cute.
lols.

okay, im going for my bath now.

byebyebyebyebye.

i gonna get that emo side of me AWAY!
and i mean it! though i dont know what am i going to do to mean it.
but life is already depressing enough for me and to be depressed so randomly like that every single day is going to turn me nuts.
not peanuts, not cashew nuts not hazel nuts or anything. its just nuts.
'Ha..Ha..Hah..'
i guess my sense of humour is getting back.
yeah right-.-

cello practice after school.
learn about 2 more scales, a few arpeggios, and a song.
played alot of errors.
all thanks to my bad habit, 平感觉 -.-

tuition later was omg..horribly long.
i dont know why. haha.
but i was feeling very sleepy on the journey there.
trip back was worst, waited the bus for like dont know how long before a 59 came.
i even wanted to walk again.
sawy terry on the bus.
was sort of surprise actually.
because its like at such a late timing, he was still in sch attire.
guess it has got something to do with scouts.

im dead sleepy.
theres co tomorrow.
wanna have breakfast before practice?

i love my bed.
bye.

the passion is no longer the same.

just like the rainy weather,
i guess thats what i feeling now.

the day..didnt seem good for me.
i dont know whats wrong with me.

im sick of how screwed ive screwed myself into.

i cant think of anything to make me smile from the bottom of my heart.

im liking sentimentals even more then ever now.

tomorrow might not be a better day.

i think ive really lost my cool.
i could no longer be able to be as strong as the past.

i hate myself just like those who hate me too.

im that depressed that not even my cello could cure me out of it.

i feel like fighting now.
but there isnt any tkd training for today.
and it doesnt necessarily meant that they would have sparring today.

whats the hell wrong with me?

tag reply to all : haha.

today was like one of the earliest day that i have ever wake up for school. lols
shouldnt elaborate about it.
because i still screwed up my amaths test -.-
but nevermind, i deserve it for not studying properly.
only studied for it this morning.
its very cold early in the morning.
and one thing i hate about it is that i would go round my house with my jacket on just to keep me warm.

im feeling er... moody.
yah, thats the word to describe what i feel.

oh, and btw mdm ashikin said that she read some people's blog.
but still, that isnt gonna change anything about what i blog about.
because, even before she mentioned about it..
i already heard it from someone that she might read our blog.
so its nothing surprising to me actually.
im not like going to close this blog or what because..
this blog started all the way back when i was sec2.
when caiyan was the enthusiatic blogger who was always bugging me to update my blog..
to me updating it on my own will..
and it contained memories too, be it good or bad; which is one of my favourites if you did bother to read those rubbish things at the left hand side.

sheltered aiysah to the bus stop and i got wet instead..
because when the wind blew, she just pulled the umbrella towards her and i got wet.
and to like prevent raindrops from falling on her, i had to hold the umbrella all the way down that it was pressing against my hair while i walked.
so uncomfortable-.-

went safra to bowl after changing into a new and dry set of clothes.
guess what...
my bowling skills sucked like hell-.-
it had slacken so much just because i havent played it for a long time.
its been at least a year since i last played.
i cant remember if i played during sec2 times.
bt sec3, definitely not.
my scores now are only like 80++ -.-.-
sometimes even 60.
wth wth wth.
seriously wth.
i use to get like so much higher-.-
and i cant find a 10pound ball.
so i had to make do with a 12pound ball -.-
and i guess thats probably why i couldnt control the direction of the ball.

explored safra after that.
stayed in the reading room and looked at the singapore's book of record 2007.
i dont see our school in there =/

came home later and played the cello.
well, i havent really been practicing it every day yet =/

i guess things has changed.
i dont know what to say.
things come knocking to you even when you chose to stay away from it.
and i dont know what to do.
nevermind, lets change a topic.

from the bottom of my heart, my lovely juniors. ok?

i need some happy pills.
not in the context of esctasy; sadly, also known as happy pills right?

caught The Leap Years after school with my BELOVED juniors.
yuyun kept insisting shes one of them, so here you go. lols

i think, watching it a second time gave me a total different feeling about it.
as in, this time round, i felt sorry for the casts instead rather then like the uncontrollable water taps that time. haha
maybe because i was feeling stone hearted today. lols
but still, i still think wong li lin is very pretty. lols
as in, compare her with some of the new stars coming up now, and i think she look way much nicer then some of them.
and i still like the quotes that they used in the show. =)

had to rushed home later because i just saw a message saying that i will be having my physics tuition tonight because i cancelled it yesturday.
didnt had the mood for it yesturday either.
so yeah, it was really straight home after the shows. lols
so im ending here for now.
tuition's starting soon.

and again, people just loves coming to me to show me attitude.
i guess i just attracts attituders-.-

had bio spa.
just like what me and caiyan had said about it, i dont regret leaving my answer as that way.
for, its just how one inteprets the question.
though someone else might say u dont answer questions with just some random and weird 'words'
but still, it doesnt mean that a certain thing cant be written that way.
since you're the play safe fellow all along, dont bother arguing with me.
because we will always have a different viewpoint.

i have been walking home for 3 schooling days continuously!
how cool is that! lols.
okay, maybe not.
i didnt walk home on friday.
but the reason was, i didnt had the time to. haha
but still, i get a different feeling everytime i walks home.

went out to study/do homework with chuiying in the night.
lols, i cancelled my physics tuition that i had tonight because i had no mood for it.
so i dont wanna like waste one lesson away because its not cheat.
to others, it might be nothing.
but im not some kinda rich fellow who comes from a rich family.
so money do matters.

i got crazy and fed up with the drawing of the physics practical graph.
i practically went crazy and felt very irritated.
it was just simply getting on my nerves.
so i went out and decided to buy a green pen for my spoilt.
but..it was already 9 plus and all the shops were closed-.-
so i went into seven eleven for dont know what reason..
and i suddenly wanted to buy The Newpaper or some magazines to read.
nothing caught my eyes, so i decided to go to the magazine booth outside, near the bus stop.
but who knows...
the shop closed-.-
just before i went into seven eleven, it was open.
now that im out of it, its closed-.-

went home around 10pm nearing 11pm.
listen up people!
its not a good thing to return home late okay!
lols, but i wasnt wasting my time away, i was using it usefully.
lols. and the weather was far too cooling that it became cold instead.

physics never fails to turn me crazy.

im sorry for the bad attitude that i showed any this morning.
i was that pissed that i couldnt even smiled when i look into the mirror this morning.
had to like punch myself before my face muscles loosen.
crazy shit right.
yah i know that.

okay, im going to bed now. cya people
happy first month grandma.

its a sunday and what i can say is that i have been feeling rather low for the past few days.
not feeling low the whole day, but at certain period of times, i dropped into the emo-mode.
that also explains why i've been walking home.

lets talk about saturday.
its been both a fun and yet emo day for me. haha.

because of friday night..
i still wasnt feeling back to my normal self.
so i thought maybe a walk in the morning would be better for me.
so being the usual lazy self, i didnt want to wake up early and so the only way to do so, is to take a bus to school instead of getting a lift from chuiying's mum.
but it didnt help much. =/
too short i guessed.

practice was as usual.
fusheng came back; though he also came back on friday.
though there was some times when i dont like him probing into matters which sometimes makes it worst for me..
i really missed the times we had together with huiling.yinglan,stacia and other seniors.
i guess that is what growing up meant.
to gain and to lose.
and thats what i hate about growing up.
lets say im greedy then, because i dont mind gaining, but i dont want to lose.
i dont like the feeling of losing something. who does?-.-

and i really like sitting at the back.
because that makes me reminisce about the past.
okay, i believe ive mentioned this before a few times.
but so what.
this is my blog.
so i shall just say what i want and repeat things how many times i want.
and also to note down how many times i kept missing the past.

and, i guess people this days have been showing me attitudes and stuffs.
i tell you, im sick of it.
seriously.
i dont mind playing those games like being dao-ed or what for fun, but not in a serious note.

like my sis, she just gave me those f* attitudes just because i asked her back the question she ask me.
i seriously dont like the concept that just because shes the older one, she has the authourity to probe into my life and me being the younger one cant probe about hers.
not say i wanna know every single thing, but just some questions to make a particular plan or what goes well, why cant i know what you're doing before that and then i plan?
why must it always be that im the one reporting and you would adjust everything to suit in your way?
and when i arent willing to do things the way you say so, you claim that im troublesome.
sometimes with those freaking attitudes, im really f* up with you.

though i may know the reason why your mood suddenly turn-ed for a 180degree mode..
still, try to take it easy.
and just let me know like you're okay or what and not just give me those stares right..

im sick of ! being so prejudice against @.
seriously, i really dont care what u dislike about @.
its not like, knowing that ! dont like @, i place them together on purpose.
im just arranging things to be at where i think its suited at.
who cares about what grudge you have.
if you have your principles, you should know that some things ought to be 公私分明.
and dont撒娇to me because..sorry, that doesnt work on me.

im not specifically pointing fingers at whoever.
all those werent referring to the same person either.
im just typing out what i think and what should change.

after hearing what # said..
i somehow thought that i saw myself in him/her.
the situation are somewhat the same though theres some differences.
i guess that was what made me _ suddenly..
i seriously felt lost and as if i screwed myself up.
i had to stop because im not going to like embarrassed myself with puffed eyes or what.

caught The Leap Years.
i think its nice. seriously.
at least it appeals to me if it doesnt for others.
and feeling so suffocated of the happenings recently..
i simply cried because i felt like doing so.
it only started when a paricular part touched me at the beginning and i guess that started my water taps.
while watching the shows, many other things also kept coming into my mind and that kept my water tap going.
according to what chuiying said, i cried throughout the entire movie.

if only something like what happened in the show could happened weeks back (like jeremy waking from his coma and being well again..)
how nice would that be.
and tomorrow would be the 1st month since shes gone..

shared packed food with chuiying for dinner at sunplaza park later in the night.
played the swing which i last played since k2 if i arent wrong..(the playground near my house had its removed a long time back)
fell from it when i wanted to stop and pushed chuiying..
i forgot that we should stop gradually and not just stopping by placing your feet onto the ground immediatly.(moreover it was sand instead of concrete ground)
how CLEVER can i get. -.-

okay, so that was roughly what my day was a little.
full of ups and down. haha

my cello bridge is not properly in place on the cello.
damn damn damn.
i guess i gonna bring it to school on friday and see if tianlaoshi can help me with it.
and my fingers really hurt.
i guess the bridge needs to be change =/

oh, and i bought the lemon drink from the vending machine too.
i finally gotten it.
and that made me very happy.
haha, i like the uniqueness/cuteness of the stupid but yet adorable bottle. lols
i guess im really weird.

some random pictures that i found at my grandma's place.

i think that me and my cousin were really good pals who does all fun rubbish together when we were young =D

i guess its just really me to be crazy and wanting to have fun all the time.

and arent i handsome since young? LOLS. =D
bye. XD

hi.
at first, i was very excited to blog about something that happen today.
but now..after thinking so much..
i dont know if i actually did the right thing. ='(

lets share the happy news first.

I'm going to take a Cello exam.
I've already registered myself up for it today..when i only got to know about it today; and that it was the last day for registration today.
after so long..im finally realising one of my dreams which is to go ahead and give it a go for cello(this dream only surfaced after i felt attached to cello after these few years of learning..)
I'm really very happy that tianlaoshi said that i'm able to make it for the exam.
but yet, it might be because of anxiety or others that i might not even do well for it or what on the examination day itself.

and now..yet i dont feel really that happy.
after tuition..i missed my bus while waiting for it at the bus stop.
so i simply just walked down two stops before stopping to board a bus home.
and during the walk..
i thought about things.

actually..i was only thinking about focusing on cello only after O's.
i even told tianlaoshi that i would only be taking it next year.
but during practice, she asked if i wanna take it this year because she think that im still able to make it though preparing only now while like others started preparing long time ago..

so i called my mum and asked her about it.
i was waiting for her to give me a firm no and to wait for next year instead.
but she said 'really?!? okay, go for it then.'
and then..because tian only told me today about this cello exam thing and that today is the last day for registration, she lent me money to pay for the exam first.
and i had to rushed down to VCH by 5pm(according to her and fusheng) when it was already like 3.30pm.

and so i went and applied and blah blah blah with liying and huiyi.
i did felt excited and stuffs.

and it was like, within just 24hours..so much things happened.
and..will i be able to get a A(pass with distinction for it)?
im feeling sad that something that is of so much meaning to me is making me think so much about it and making me think if i did the wrong thing.
like, i havent started private lessons with tian.
so..after the sec4 ceases cca..how am i going to get practice?
and..i have to get use to my own cello because yah, the school one will be for the juniors.
i believe i will miss it.
the pretty strings. lols
and using my own cello, if i go down for practies on friday, i would have to bring it to sch and the teachers might be like 'cca has already ceases for your and like why are u not concentrating but still playing?'

and the exam will be in august(most probably)
so its like nearing O's too.
okay, other people have such exams too.
but its the first for me.
i dont know if i will regret my choice for doing so.
but for now..its making me feel sad.
unlike this afternoon when i knew that i would be able to go for it.
did i really do a stupid thing in a moment of folly?

maybe i really need confidence?
or support?
i dont know. i just feel very sad now.
and i want my grandma.
she would be damn happy to know that im giving it a go for cello.
but she wont get to hear me playing it for her.
sorry, im going.
i cant take it anymore

hi.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURUL.
its been since quite a while since i greeted someone happy birthday on the blog on the day itself.

its yet coming to another end of a week.
jetaime just reminded me that its only 7months to O levels..
thats one of the first thing my new partner told me.
lols, what a thing to say.
chuiying! jetaime's my partner eh..
jealous anot. lols! XP

well, my thumb has a blister on it now...
due to the large amount of hot wax that dropped on my thumb.
i hope i wont need to use it to pluck/strum the cello using it anytime soon.

and so..we failed to lit up all the candles for nurul..
with some alphabets unlit.
and the lighter spoilt-.-
but at least she blew those lighted off. lols

well..okay, mdmashikin changed our seats.
but once again..i remained unchanged. lols!
last year when our seats were rearranged in the lab, mine remained..but my surroundings changed-.-
and this year..again. lols
and caiyan is once again seated behind me
just like how she was beside shawn.
and jetaime is once again beside me, just like how shes fated to be my partner for being register 8 last year. lols
and im once again stucked with the pathetic window which cant be close all at once by the handle at the side-.-

walked home after school again.
i guess i really like the feeling of walking home when im feeling...
er..i dont know how to express it either.
just feel like walking home and so i will walk home..
but i think that the distance seemed to be getting shorter or what..
though i didnt timed the distance home.
but just like yesturday..i seemed to reach the bus stop before mine like very fast?
not long enough for me to emo. lols!

my damn shoe gave me a blister on my toe-.-
i guess i need to change a pair of socks.

cant watch The Leap Years on Friday itself..
Boo...because theres CCA after school..
and after CCA, ive this tuition from 7.30pm-9pm(which isnt of much help, but i guess thats what people meant by '一分钱，一分货' since its only like $12 per term or sem i think.)
and i checked the gv website and the next available showtime is at 11.55pm.
just before midnight. lols

okay, i shall end here.
bye

hi.
im not done with studying and here i am blogging-.-

wasted my day yesturday.
today..was abit better i guess?

went studying with shirlin at downtown east bk.
she was released at 2pm..
so she got to go home and get a bath before coming =(
i cant have my bath too.
thats unfair =/
make me jealous only-.-

met dion&others there.
okay not met. met sounds as if they came first.
we came first, not them.
lols, thats childish-.-
and talking about childish..
i think i had really severe pms yesturday or what.
lols. im not gonna talk about it.
its stupid-.-

studied till almost 7pm when both of us lost concentration and started talking. lols
took 21 home.
but the journey today seemed fast.
guess it was because i was studying. lols
and till now..i still love long bus rides. lols
its a really nice time for emo-ing and admiring the scenaries at the same time though theres nothing nice to see.

i want to watch The Leap Years.
okay, common test isnt over yet im here thinking about movies that i wanna watch-.-
bye, im going.
wish me luck

feeling sad and low..

i dont know if i were to say today as a happy day. lols
reason : because i woke up at almost 11am.
i know that reason is stupid.
but it replenishes all the sleep i needed so far.

chose not to go out and study because i felt homely today. lols
and i guess that was a wrong move.
because, it was too comfortable that i didnt had the mood to study and i was even bored of studying at frequent but non-consistent intervals.
that 'frequent but non-consistent intervals' just looks funny to me.
lols, like some kinda science experiment result.
and nobody was home today either..
so wasnt i supposed to be like having no disturbance from anyone?
but i was feeling bored instead.
because i had no one to talk to -.-

im blogging because im bored.
sent smses to people thinking if i could find someone to chat with.
but some were no replies, some were studying and blah blah blah.
so i just stoned at my chem textbook. lols
im a stoner..yeah!!
whose a rocker??
wahlao..thats like being such a crazy idiot?
rah....i want cello practices NOW and i mean NOW.
lols, but theres no school today-.-

i believe im just crapping shit here.
so i gonna stop.
someone be a kind soul and just chat with me?

hi.
im lazy to recall what happened the last few days.
so i dont know what will i blog about today either.
all i know is that i wanna say..kungfu dunk isnt nice. =/
really. it was some sort of a disappointment though i wasnt expecting much of it.

common test is starting next week for us when the whole school has already taken theirs.
how great =/

ive been changing songs...
cant really find one that will make me wanna use it for long..
so lets hope that the new one will last =)
bye

i was feeling very happy and hyper in the morning.
reason : i brought HOT milo to school.
LOLS-.-
i agree this is a VERY lame reason.
but i really felt very happy because of that-.-
jetaime says its because i have deprived childhood-.- lols

lets jump to the next thing i remember..
i knocked my head against the corner of the door while throwing rubbish-.-
after throwing, i simply just stood up straight.
and in the process of doing so, i knocked my head hard on the door.
and now theres really a bruise there because something is popping out and it hurts even while i touch it lightly-.-
how lucky can i get?

next..while on the way back home, my mum called.
shes not going to the sinseh again today-.-
she says she will visit the sinseh tomorrow instead-.-
she better do so soon to have her toe cured..
about how she injured her toe..its a interesting story-.-

she asked if i could help to collect some things from my grandma place.
i suddenly felt......
its been quite some time since i stepped into my grandma place after the 7feb.
though its not very long ago, it felt as if its been ages since i went there.
the smell of the house, the environment..
everything is still the same.
only that my grandma is no longer sitting on the sofa watching the tv...

walked back home and i heard this person playing the violin in their house.
so i got tempted and wanted to play my cello.
so i came home and started playing and tuning it.
okay, im ending here.
bye

i dont know what to say.
so i shall just talk about random stuffs.

sorry gaoyang, for making ur sleeve tear.
i swear never to play so roughly ever again.

mrspong is really nice and patient.

i think i suck and i really do.

i arent late for school and isnt that good?
i think i would like detention, for i would stay there and study at least.

i think things have change and i feel really sad about it.
okay, maybe not really. just sad is enough.

theres this irritating minnie mouse clock on my table which is supposed to replace the clock in the hall.
but i think its ugly.

my memory today is like SHIT.
i forgot to do ALOT of things.

i dont know what to say.
really.
not in the mood to say anything =/

i hope tian is okay by now.

theres this DHSCO in march
im happy that the new sec ones are willing to go without me like trying to fool them or what into going.
i never fooled ppl into going right?
i hoped not.
i hope they will have the enthusiasm for co.
infact i hope everyone whose in co to have the enthusiasm for it.
but i guess thats abit of hard.

talking about this..
if i still see no enthusiasm for co in the sec3s.
i might seriously ask and give your a skip.
letting the sec2s take over instead.
i want one who is bothered and willing to do things for cello
and not those who tries to push around and say she/he could do it instead.
or mixing personal and official stuffs together.
i believe that i might be partial at times.
but still, it depends on the situation, like how serious it is.

though nasco might have nothing to do with us anymore once we leaves or step down..
still, theres still the sense of belonging to there once before.
and belonging to it once, who would hope to see it falling after leaving?
your might dislike me for doing so, because 理论上, the next batch should take over instead.
but i seriously wont just let it go just to have your liking me.
i believe most of your just take cello/co as a cca; and nothing else.
but come to think of it, does it really mean nothing to you?
if you havent been attending cca all along, what would you have spent your time doing?
dont tell me studying, apart from that i meant.

i believe i have said before that even if you dont like cello, just attend the lessons for the sake of it as a cca.
but even after so long..
do you still not have any feelings for it?
a sense of belonging?
even if it meant getting loads of scoldings before?
and i tell you, before you think of any other faults or what..
would it be better that someone bothers to scold you, to correct you
or would you rather to not get scoldings but finds out that the someone isnt bothering about how you fare at all?
and i dare to comment on this because unlike junyan, ive been through more scoldings then him and some really horrid ones.
so dont come and shoot me off with, 'what do you know, you've never gotten much scoldings before'

okay, im stopping here.
the sec3s are going for their sec3 camp soon and that made me reminisce about ours last year.
i could still remember certain things here and there and the feelings i had for it.
i even remembered deeply about going to AMK for lunch with huiling and others though i was just backed from camp.
but it was really a nice experience, and i do miss the times.

takecare.

let me tell you something.

i really learnt my lesson not to meddle with things for nothing-.-
it started with me trying to play with the clay thing and i cut myself.
quite a deep one though not a big cut.
the blood was damn cute. lols
couldnt stop after some time.

and i saw the skin..
yucks, it totally went detach halfway and u can see in it.
only got better after the blood stopped because the skin somehow sticked to it-.-
and i kept hitting that portion onto some other parts of my other arm.
it wasnt that bad yet.

until i knocked it onto the table just now RIGHT ON THE SPOT ON THE CORNER OF THE TABLE.
i immediatly went *****.
its god damn it pain.
it stinged for like quite a couple of minutes before it cooled down.
and hence, i conclude that never meddle with broken objects for NOTHING.
my thumb cant be straight now too and i cant clutch my right fist. -.-

its chuiying birthday in a couple of hours.
happy birthday chuiying.
but that also marks the end of huiling's birthday.
oh, and abigail's one too.

hello.
im back once again.

i dont know what to start with.
but all i know is that i wanna blog about me stepping on cat/dog poo yesturday(14/2).
i think im damn lucky or what? lols
but im not alone.
because chuiying stepped on it too before i stepped on it. lols
and i woke up late that day; chuiying was even the one who rang me up.
so like, i just chionged down and had to run back up to change into another pair of shoes because though much of the poo came off, the smell was still very strong.
see how considerate i am?
didnt let my friends had to suffer smelling poo on valentine day. lols
kidding lah.
yah, and because we were scared that we gonna be late..
we ran to school.

oh, and i really wanna say sorry sorry and sorry to my juniors too.
lols, because i was supposed to be early yesturday to pass them the gifts.
but i turned out late instead-.-
so they made a trip to my class for nothing.
and talking about that, i feel bad for preparing one less share of gift because i thought yanjie was in bass.
didnt know he was in cello =/
im really sorry too.

and i dont know what got into me during/after recess.
i just turned moody for a sudden.
and i cant seem to find any of the jokes funny.

while i was at the bus stop waiting for a bus home, sae huiling waving on the bus to me.
she gave me a ring seeing that i was so moodless.
she thought i was angry? but that wasnt the case.
haha, do i really look angry instead of sad ?

went to the cc for the cny performance thing.
i think it is like ....
because, it totally dont feels like a performance at all.
just somewhat of a open area practice.

took 15 home and walked home with chuiying one stop earlier.
she had forgotten to bring her keys and no one was at home.
so she came over first instead of waiting at the stairs outside her home.
we were saying that we would practice the instruments together..
but we ended up catching a little of sweeney todd instead.
lols. practice, yeah practice. lols

happy birthday huiling!
its 12am now.

i dont know why, but i seriously became more...
erm, how do i phrase it?
its not really emo.
its just that i somehow think thats its different.
i cant seem to just laugh that easily and i feels low easily.
damn, i really have limited vocabs-.-

nevermind.
and oh, chuiying is spying on me.
omg, that tells me i ought to have my curtains closed. lols
take care everyone =)

guess what.
i dont even know what am i like now. -.-
as in..how i feels.
im neither happy nor sad.
but im just feeling that something is pulling my heart down and its feeling very heavy.
i get random mixed feelings and goes into emo-mode for nothing.
seriously, i dont know whats the matter with me.
feeling all these..i dont know if im really ready to be back on track.

hey yo!
okay, i believe im back on track now.
but on the other hand, i think im not really that back on track yet.
because while typing 'im back on track now', i felt a sudden sadness in my heart.
and, its painful too.
okay, shall stop it at here. if not i will turn emo again.
haha, been really really really emotional for the past week.

firstly.
i seriously wanna thank my friends who have comforted me in a way or another.
so heres a really really really BIG THANK YOU.
to..
chuiying : thanks for coming down that night with ur mum and staying till midnight. thanks for that chat when i was feeling lonely. and also thanks for those few random chats when we met each other like on wed afternoon. haha
qihao : thanks for asking and those messages which made me try to be strong infront of my family but resulting in me breaking down in sch-.- (so 丢脸)
koknam : thanks for offering to chat when you dont have spare smses and charging me a rate of $5 to chat. lols. oh, and listening to me complain about those damn monks too. lols
jo : thanks for comforting me especially on monday. and for your tissues XD
gaoyang : thanks for saying im welcome to 'shoot' you anytime. lols, and for not being angry with that sudden outburst at you. i do feel sorry for that because its like not your fault that you dont know anything but yet i still ... yah so thanks.
caiyan : were you looking for your name? haha. thanks for being there though you dont know what to do. lols! and to try to distract my attention by asking WEIRD questions like what do i want to have for lunch. lols. and..there were many times when i wanted to look for you, but you could nowhere to be found. lols. enjoy your new year.

im not listing out everyone because i dont want to feel too emotional as i type.
so to the rest..i thank you in my heart.

oh, and because of what happened recently..
i didnt get to meet mandy yet AGAIN. T.T

also, i had been staying home for those few days as if i was sick ._.
so im actually sick of staying home lols.
but i also didnt spent the days studying because i wasnt in any mood to do so.
so i wasted those days of my life away by just listening to sentimental songs and emo-ing away. haha.
and i finally got out of it yesturday to go catch a movie with koknam,qihao,yiliang,chuiying,dion.
and i was again DAMN LUCKY to break my slippers-.-

by the way, losing your voice is a horrible thing to happen.
because i lost mine on thurs for a few hours.
luckily, its nothing much.
and, i have also been having a weird throat since last sunday.
my voice just keeps breaking...

this year..
im seriously deprived. lols
no CNY shopping yet(though its going to be over-.-)
no CNY goodies(because we didnt had the time to shop for it. my mum is those kinda last minute then shop de.)
no red packets.
in conclusion, no celebration.
but seriously, i rather have no celebrations for cny rather then having my grandma to go.

okay, im going now.
bye.

To my late grandma :

Ah ma, everything came too sudden.
All of us weren't prepared for what's happening next.
We hope that you're satisfied with what we have arranged for your wake.
If there is anything you're unsatisfied, let us know and we'll try to make changes for you.
And..I do really wish that you're really happy living in heaven now for you need not suffer any more pain from those needles poking into you.
No more medication for you since you're well and healthy now.
And I know you will be very blissful with ah gong for you've finally reunit with him after almost a decade.

Ah ma, a new life has started for you and do take care of yourself!
We're no longer there to look after you..so do remember to place your interest for yourself first before anything.
We may wish for your blessings at times, but do remember to indulge on yourself and not just on protecting us and stuffs.
If theres anything you need, let us know.
We'll try to fulfil it for you.
Do leave without any worries for us for though we cried our lungs out..
we cried because we were happy for you and we do miss you for we've already been together for so many years.
Do not see it as we are sad for we won't want you to worry for us.

We'll probably meet again years down the road.
But for now, we will all start a new life of living without each other physically but we know that we are all there for each other mentally.
I won't wish much from you.
So please fulfil my only wish for you which is to be happy.
I will definitely miss you loads, but remember, I'm happy for you.

There's also some things I want to complain to you, ah ma.
Why didn't we get to spent with you for the last time a nice chinese new year?
Why couldn't we celebrate your 80th birthday with you this year before you went?
Why did you have to go through so much before going off?
Seeing you lying in bed those few days were heart wrenching enough for any fo us to cope with it.
Why are monks nowadays so @%#$!&^ ?
During the rituals, I really felt that they were very disrespectful to both us and themselves for they were scratching their heads, digging their nose and ears while chanting and YAWNING.
Nevermind, they will get their retribution for doing this.

Though I know that you don't understand english and won't get to read this..
I still wish to note this down for I hope that this message will get to you somehow.
Maybe you can start taking a new language up?
Take english, so that you will understand what I'm typing. =)
Ah ma, I love you.
I seriously never knew how much you meant to me till today...

hi.
things are just happening too quickly recently.
and for now, i dont think i will adapt to it anytime soon.
didnt use the com for the past few days.
but was told by the belinda(i think) that she sent me the scores to my email instead.
like, they were supposed to pass me the copies of it?
just because they were lazy to come down to pass it to me, i had to check my inbox and get it printed.
thanks koknam, for helping me to print things once again.
i will go get the ink catridge for my printer after its over.
couldnt bother others everytime.

maybe i will talk more about what i feel other time.
because, i dont think i want to type it down now and yeah, i have to go off soon.
as soon as that belinda sent me another score-.-
pardon me, but just let me let off some steam.
bloody *, if you're lazy to come down just say so.
why do you bother to make up so many excuses.

for the first time in these few days, im feeling hungry and wants to eat.
so i ate lunch.
and..i miss my grandmother's cooking ='(
been skipping almost every meal because i just didnt had the appetite to.
i believe im getting better over it.
and i really wanna thank my friends for the comforts they have given me.
but i guess, some things really do take time to heal.

and i guess i need a good sleep real badly.
have only slept like 4-5hours these two days.
got to go. bye.

hello.

okay, replies to tag first today =)
-SLY- : i know who it is! yiting right! see...i so clever XP
dion : Bye.
koknam : lols, you sure got cool guy? i think ive yet to see one eh.. lols, i think is my bow too old le, all the hair drop..not havent reach puberty-.-
qh : lols, but she was DAMN les that day. lols
huiyi : haha, so long then realise i got laughing fits too? thats long.. lols. you two damn cute eh.. huiyi, yihui..haha
yuyun : haha, thank you yunyun. lols!
qh : lols, thank you. what a lucky streak that day right! lols.
-SLY- : haha, no lah. i saw you! standing in the first/last row right! lols. i saw you lah XD and, thank you =)

had to report to sch at 7am this morning.
so i tried waking up at 6am and omg..
i couldnt get out of bed. lols
seriously speaking, i wake up later this year compare to last even when i sleep earlier.
and sometimes, i even think that i still want to sleep. lols

took the bus to school today because chuiying wasnt going to school and it reminded me of the times when i goes to school alone in the morning during sec 1&2 years before i went to school with chuiying.
time flies and im already in sec4.
and yet so quickly..its already february.
time seriously past by very quickly.
one week after another..

said that i would stay up last night to study for chem test because you can somewhat say ive yet to study for chem test which consist of 13chaps.
lols, so to study all 13chaps within one night is chionging.
but i went to sleep at 1am instead because i couldnt take it. lols
tried waking up ealier, but i snooze it till it was 6.15am and it was time to get up.
i think faggot2 ask me a really stupid question.
obviously she saw me being late and getting my phone confiscated too right..
still ask me if mine was confiscated-.-
and started going on and on about how much she needs her phone.
as if others dont need it-.-

had co after school.
got wet just to shelter the instruments.
as in, really wet.
mszahra saw me and she ask me what did i do?
so i told her that i got wet while sheltering the instruments and said they mattered more then us.
she replied 'sadly, but thats the truth that the instruments come first.' -.-

oh, and cello has loads of juniors this year!
haha, but if they quit...then i dont know..
haha, and theres finally a guy this year!
for cello and bass, one each.
so it will not gonna change into a all girls section letting the last guy there be junyan-.-
and whats more, he wanted to learn cello on his own accord and not by force.
but his hand was very small and tian wanted to chase him away. lols!

theres also this damn guailan fellow.
even worse then daphne.
first practice come and guailan me.
thats not the way to do things.
i ask you for your contact number so that it will be easier for me to contact you to let you know about practices.
not like i would prank call you or what-.-
and not say i wanna date you out...
you do ought to learn how to respect someone and not by thinking you're damn smart by rebutting.
please process your words before letting it out of your mouth.
seriously, if that is what you gonna show me in the other practices, you can rest assure that i will not let you have your way.

went for the co thing at elias cc.
met loads of ppl on the bus.
ranon,siyuan,chengboon,yanci,yingqi
all from table tennis.
haha, guess they were just back from practice.
and just whats wrong with my bag hur..
keep using that impossible is nothing FOR NOTHING. -.-
okay, i guess im going off now.
its already 2am++ and im supposed to meet my juniors for breakfast tomorrow at 7am before CO. XD
bye!

and btw, thanks everyone who tried to cheer me up or what. =)
really appreciate it.
guess im better now. =)

experienced really a range of moods today.
firstly, it was like fine but a little moody with something.
because it wasnt really my fault but yet i will be getting punished for it which is damn -.-
whats more, the 'punishment' doesnt just last for today.
instead..it will drag over a time of period..
but then i was still feeling alright.
got to know that faggot2 is making a hell load of noise over something which she obviously did something wrong.
its because you did do something wrong thats why you're getting punished for it..so its fair and just what.
why are you complaining?!?

and then came chuiying who suddenly broke down and stuffs..
i was seriously worried for her.
as in, it was just a moment ago when i came to school with her.
saw her all fine and even drinking coffee.
was standing beside her for being late.
and yet so suddenly, things goes wrong.
that seriously made my day worst.

not having my phone with me means i cant contact anything or what to have the least idea if shes well or what.
and, i was already feeling down that my grandma was admitted into hospital last night for having a mild stroke.
so to me..i seriously do hope that people around me are well and fine.
i dont want anything to happen to them.
i might not seem as one who is so emotional, but deep down, i can get affected by the slightest thing that you might never have thought of.
i dont know how to describe how i feel.

and then next was scoldings from mdmashikin.
i seriously forgot about the knocking on the door thing.
and for that, im sorry.
and, i somewhat think that im really really very very very unlucky to be late today.
to be late when there was such a big crowd.
it can form at least 2 classes.
and whats more, i think that the humilation today was....nvm, forget it.

caiyan gave me a scare.
i guess it was really really pain for her.
but i being a friend, could yet do anything to help her-.-
and..i do want to act on my own actions to see if i could help to ease her pain.
but yet, i dont want her to think that im probing too much and maybe she wont like me doing things on my own accord for her.

i then started pondering about more stuffs.
like how fragile life is.
as in, i do know that life is fragile and stuffs and such.
but yet, the feelings i get after each things happen is way different from what i thought i might have felt.
i thought it would be nothing for me.
but it doesnt seemed the case.

got through the day and got home after lunch with caiyan,zhihui,qihao,gaoyang&chankai.
at least it brought me laughter.
but yet i still couldnt stop worrying for my grandma.
reached home and i broke down a little.
i dont know why but i just wanted to let things out.
furthermore, i think what happened on tuesday night made me worst.
my sis came home and she got a scared.
because, she has always known that i wasnt one who would tear so easily.
washed up and my sis decided to visit my grandma again with me though she just came back from there.
she was being damn nice for that.

saw my grandma.
she looked different.
as hers is not a full stroke, it wasnt that bad.
but somehow she just looked different and i badly wanted to tell her how much i cared for her.
but i just stood there while my sis talked to my grandma.
i guess i might not have learnt how to express myself out.
stayed there and went off after some time.
i wonder what my grandma will do throughout the night.
she wont have anything to do and no one will be chatting with her.
i feel sad. seriously sad.

i think i will stop here.
i cant take it again.
theres more things that are on my mind.
byebye.
everybody, do take care.

wont be replying tags today.
would reply it when i feel better.

hi.

school was the same.
just that i found out that the $1.20 noodles the school sell is really alot.
and caiyan can gobble it down way faster then me.
she finished hers when im only halfway down.

and btw, caiyan freaks me out a little today.
with her damn CNY songs.(her singing is horrible, LOLS)
and she kept leaning on me today.
well, you dont always do that right caiyan? so 你今天发什么烧啊? lols
and you reminded me about you thinking that i was a les. lols-.-
i was also thinking..'you alright? what happen to you. suddenly so weird today. lols'
and doing all those weird actions are definitely NOT funny.
i dont hope that to happen to any of my friends okay.
and i think we were damn noisy during physics. lols

i just realised that i havent been practising cello for a very long time.
as in, apart from friday and saturday during practice..
i dont practice it at home now.. =/
oh great..so i shall prepare to get scolding from tian again.
or maybe..she wont even bother scolding us now because we would not be of use any more since we're leaving..
but thats not the point.
wheres the passion for it?
okay, i better use my own cello more often now...
because i wont get to use the school's one forever.
but my bow is still hairless D=
and that doesnt make it nice to play.

homeworks homeworks and more homeworks.
but i arent starting on them. instead im doing rubbish-.-
bye people.

feeling emo. =(

YOYOYOYOYOYOYO!

lols. im damn hyper today for dont know what reason-.-
went for breakfast with caiyan.
had rotiprata and i broke three plastic fork when eating 2 pratas only and caiyan only 1 fork when eating 3pratas -.-
and caiyan was laughing with me-.-
lols, anyway, after gaoyang called caiyan, we were saying that we will be late for school.
and who knows, we really were late! hahaha!
it was already 8.15am when we just bought the bubbleteas and caiyan said 'sure can reach by 8.20am lah!'
yah..rubbish lah. lols
but still, we were still merrily strolling. lols

it was damn fun..lols.
having breakfast then strolling though being late and crapping. lols
caiyan said it was so exciting.
and so..we had to pay for being late by sitting outside GO for the whole of assembly. lols

had lessons and during chem..
i suddenly had the urge to laugh out loud. lols
really! but there was nothing funny.
so i was entertaining myself by doing funny faces.
end of chem and out of the lab we went.
and then..i dont know what started it...
but i was lol-ing when suddenly for nothing.
there wasnt even a lame joke or what.
i just laughed-.-
mrspong saw and gave me the STARES. lols!

calmed down and i started again after emaths when she released us for lunch break.
all thanks to caiyan stupid MANLY voice.

then during chinese..
we laughed again. lols
but i was better this time round.
caiyan totally lost control and abigail said my laughing madness got transferred to caiyan because she really couldnt control her laughter.
just because guowei?(i forgot his name. lols!) said pi bei instead of pi pei.
i think yunjen thinks we're mad. lols XD

physics was not that bad lah. at least i didnt laugh for nothing or hae the urge to LOL.
it was then the doing of diagnostic test and i only started at about 3.30pm.
so i was chionging lols.
whats worst, i had no idea what to write and i think i went out of topic halfway.
okay and at the end too.
because, instead of writing how to please someone..
i wrote till it was how to cheer someone up-.-
lets hope its okay.....
i knowing im lying to myself-.-
but still, im hyper. lols

junyan had tuition and so he didnt come...
and i think i suck. really suck.
lols, i mean it!
and..i keep getting distracted today that i keep playing the wrong bar..
so in conclusion...i played alot of mistake.
and.... i suck. lols XD
wah..i suck and yet im still so happy that i suck. lols
i guess im really nuts today.
but i never eat nuts leh! lols

got even more hyper when practice end..
lols, i was playing and crapping-.-
at first with juliet..
then yanting..
then nicholette.
lols. i like punching others bag. lols
caiyan, im coming for your bag next! XD
i guess im really hyper today.
lols, because i dont really usually behave so childishly in school-.-

im going to watch dou niu yao bu yao now.
so bye.
lols, i have yet to study and yet im watching shows.
and i still have to chiong history HOLIDAY homework later-.-
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

PS : im DAMN HYPER TODAY. LOLS =D

hello.
its yet another saturday.
time passes so fast hur?
i dont use to say that until the end of the year..
but now, its only the beginning and ive started to think time passes really fast.
i dont know why, but time seems to be passing faster and faster the older you grow =/

well, as usual, went for CO practice in the morning.
i dont know why, but my playing sucked like hell today.
lols, okay it always suck lah, but i think today's the worst.
especially during the start of practice.
i just cant seem to find my 音准.

went for lunch at mos.
theres new names up the board.
yuyun - public disgrace
junyan - public nuisance
me - public display -.-
leechuang - public cleaner
shihui - public loony
and theres a few more that leechuang gave.
but i cant remember it. haha

went to catch one missed call at gv tamp today.
and the actual plan was to study =/
so i brought my books for nothing.
but thats not the main thing.
the main thing is, my saturday is just gone like that.
without studying or any completion of homework at all. lols
ohmy天(i orgot who said it XP), i should stop playing.
lols, i just cant help it =X

now i see the difference between a PG and a NC16 horror movie.
lols, its just more shocks given to you.
aand..the row behind us was DAMN noisy.
practically all of us 'shh..' them i believe.
while watching the show halfway..
there would be comments like :
-you still owe me my $9.50 ah
-you already know what is this movie about why are you still so scared
-GG is good game lah. like to state game over
-eh *, im jack eh
-you know ah..actually * like * before eh..

and theres even LIVE narration for you. -.-
they even spoilt the show by saying out whats next.
* is replace for names used. forgotten what are the names anyway.

went to open plaza later because there was this fellow who is famous among aunties coming.
the crowd was..small.
lols. they even had this autograph session thing which finishes very fast.
very unlike the hanakimi one last year. lols
and..so fast, its been one year since the craze over hanakimi which i was catching during the hols that time.
koknam wanted to stalk that artiste. but i guess the mission failed. lols

i later had this laughing fits over yiliang doing one action of covering his top and bottom.
as in, it looks damn funny with him doing it. to me at least.
everytime i said the word suck or you suck to chuiying..
they would move further away-.-
they went as far as to the opposite of me-.-
and chuiying was trying to make me say that they are nice. lols

took neos with them.
and chuiying sure had a long and hard time persuading them while i was laughing. lols
went home after that while chuiying went to meet her mum for dinner.
and now..my mum has just called me to meet her at ikea to get some things for the curtains-.-
so i shall scram now. cya!
im studying tomorrow! anybody joining me? lols

i dont know how to start the post already lah.
so i shall just start, no crapping.
but got rapping. lols -.-

well, went to school today because my fever was officially gone.
and also because my mum didnt know i had a day off today too
so she just woke me and chase me to school.
i asked her whats for breakfast, because i needed to have something before i take my medicine.
she told me : banana-.-
early in the morning ask me to eat banana.
i rather eat apple eh-.-
so i made myself a cup of milo and then off i went to school.
i even got scolded for drinking milo because it was heaty.

abhishek, get well soon.
hope that accident isnt anything serious. haha

lets see what have i learnt today?
vl, ss, physics, amaths, chem, eng

didnt listen during physics because i missed yesturday's lesson.
so i was reading up on it.
and when i got to the page where the teacher was at..
i didnt understand a thing.
so i just did things on my own instead.

amaths was..
reading up on binomial theorem because i havent been listening to that chapter.
not havent been listening lah.
is..during the intro of the chapter, i didnt listen carefully.
so i got lost on the next lesson.
and today, i believe im back on track.
only that i arent sure of the one shes teaching today-.-
what the hell..
im always one step behind-.-
or maybe its a lot of steps.
the drowsiness from the medicine i took was also taking effect at the same time.
i was starting to feel sleepy ( oh damn =/)

chem was..
i forgot to bring down my worksheet because i thought she kept it for us.
so i had nothing to copy.
so i was also not really paying much attention.
further more, i want to sleep. lols

english was...
caught for sleeping/resting.
seriously, i got a total SHOCK out of my life.
i had only just rested my head on the table not long ago i think?and then the next thing was msyanti called me & caiyan to wake up.
and it was really those shocked where you jumped out of your seat.
and i was DAMN awake throughout the lesson.

and then it was TIME TO GO HOME!
but sadly, i had to find mrspong.
so yup did some maths before leaving school around 4.30pm with caiyan.

i think mrspong looks nice, but yet she looks scary too(as in, those kind you never know when will she not be nice)
i think mrspong is nice, but yet she might be freaky(as in, she might just be ticking you off the very next minute like crazy)
she gives me a different feeling everytime. lols

walked with caiyan to her bus stop which i dont know why either.
see..im nice though im sick right!
lols. kidding lah.
im not sick in the mind though!

good luck to all who are getting their O's tomorrow.
have already sent out smses to some though.
oh, i forgot to wish my cousin luck too.
but nah..hes so smart.
i doubt he wants any luck from me. lols

bye bye people.
i have loads of homework yet to be completed..
and more will come along the way.

i just wasted a mc today =/
and..zengmei, get well soon!
LOLS! THATS SPASTIC! XD

hello.
everyone's in school now.
but im not.
i cant fall asleep anymore
im not feeling sleepy =/
but there isnt much for me to do unless im studying.
and i think i rather force myself to sleep instead then.


for once i didnt like the quietness in my house.
everyone's out at work.
normally, if i just came back feeling tired and the whole house is empty..
i would like the peacefulness.
but thats not the case now.


IM BORED.
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE ENTERTAIN ME?
OKAY, NO ONE CAN DO SO BECAUSE THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO LISTEN TO LESSONS IN CLASS.


I SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE TYPING IN CAPS.
IT SEEMED SO FUN.


ITS BEEN QUITE SOME TIME SINCE I BLOGGED IN THE morning.
THATS TO MAKE THE MORNING LOOK OUTSTANDING AMONG ALL CAPS THOUGH I THINK ITS NOT REALLY OUTSTANDING.


MAYBE I SHOULD PLAY WITH THE COLOURS XD
ORANGE RED PINK YELLOW GREEN BLUE PURPLE MAROON BROWN GREY & BLACK
what the hell..
im spamming my blog post again-.-
nevermind, i shall go now.
cant think of anything to write.
bye.

i think im really sick
and being sick really isnt the thing for me.
things will either just keep getting wrong for me or i would break things.

lets see the examples below..
i forgot to bring leechuang's present to school.
i forgot to bring chem project to school either though i reminded myself to bring it this morning.
and then when i got home, i found leechuang's present in my bag-.-
@!$%&*&(#!
meaning i did remember to bring her gift..
but i forgot that i brought her gift.
wth wth wth wth

and during chem spa, i screwed things up.
again, just because i wanted to reach out for something, i knocked over my styrofoam cup-.-
and i found myself VERY stupid later.
i didnt use the cover they supplied me with during the experiment-.-!!!!

oh, and one more thing to end the day.
i seriously screwed up the amaths test today.
after getting the paper, i wanted to just give mrspong back the question paper with a empty answer script.

and, sorry abigail for shooting u off i think.
because you went paranoid about not bringing your chinese textbook when it was nothing because mrthong dont really scolds one for not bringing their textbook.
and for dont know what reason, i was also feeling pissed and irritated.

i can like just tear for nothing now too you know.
everytime when i wanna sneeze or what, my eyes would sting instead and i wont sneeze-.-
that was what happened during bio spa.
so while wearing the safety goggles..
mine could easily form a layer of mist on it.

hello.
went studying again but today wasnt productive.
wasnt feeling good in the morning when i woke up.
but i didnt know how to contact caiyan and i dont know if she has started her journey.
told my mum i didnt want to walk there and she told me to take a bus there and walk backwards because its situated between my stop and the next.
what a nice answer-.-

i was late but yet early. =D
late because i reached after 10am, early because no one was there yet.

something hilarious but horrible happened.
lols. i spilt caiyan's cup of coke on her while reaching out.
and the whole cup landed straight on her pants.
so she was stucked in the toilet for like 40mins while waiting for gaoyang to come. lols
i could have gone home and get one for her because it would be faster
but she needs accompaniment, lols.
so i was stuck in the toilet with her as well.
but for spilling the drink on caiyan, im really sorry.
its really by accident and..why was you wearing white today? lols

felt even worse later on, so i decided to come home instead.
caiyan and gaoyang came along too.
to escort me home.
so nice right!
lols, kidding lah, they came for.. i dont know why either. lols

wanted to sleep, but i cant.
because if anyone was to come into the room..
i would be scolded for leaving my friends alone for sleeping.
watched SAW IV.
its gross.
how can the director actually shoot this?
what if there were many NGs along the way?
lols, imagine those gross scenes happening again and again.

gaoyang went home first and caiyan stayed on.
so we did amaths after dinner.
but i guess we sidetrack for quite sometime before really starting.
and so, the end result is.. im DEFINITELY not prepared for the test tomorrow.

and, my mum gave a casual comment which i found it a little hurting.
because, my thermometer had ran out of battery
so i was asking her if she had one.
she couldnt find hers and she shoot me with a comment with a irritated tone : you're already having your dinner, look for thermometer for what.
i was like..am i that irritatable and am i not even comparable to a meal?

caiyan wasted my effort-.-
told her NOT to drink from my bottle because i wasnt feeling well and yet she still drank from there before going home.
-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
oh, and i broke a glass too when i was reaching out for something.
AGAIN-.- something bad happened-.-
as in, first, i spilt caiyan drink on her.
next, i broke a cup-.-
how lucky can i get.

anyway, im going off now and i forgot that theres mock SPA for chem tomorrow-.-
bye people. sleep early

hello.
its saturday today and yup, theres dazu.

went for lunch at tm later and ate at open plaza.
played some games there and then was bored in no time.
caiyan&me went window shopping and gift shopping.
bought leechuang's birthday gift and then went off to whitesands.
lols, sorry for not saying bye to your(my juniors i meant) and pangseh-ing your.

i dont like the word cam-whore, so i will just use simple terms to describe what me and caiyan did.
we took loads of crap pictures.
and i thought 39 terminates at pasir ris interchange, so i didnt bother pressing the bell.
caiyan knew it doesnt terminates there but yet she never tell me-.-
so we almost went to hougang i think? haha
as in if we didnt get off the bus.

went window shopping at whitesands and went to get some earrings.
i lost one side of my treble clef-.-
at first we was like not intending to get much, so we said we shared.
but later part, we saw tempting earrings and thus, we both got three pairs each.
and we even have a pair of the same design.
its a alarm clock. lols
spent quite some time in the shop when we were only choosing for 3 designs.
what caiyan said was very true. haha
a few things caught my eyes.
but i dont have the MONEY now.
so i shall just wait and save for it. lols

had a red bean pie for dinner at mac.
well, i dont know what to say.
but i prefer taro turnover from BK XD
went to take a bus to downtown east.
caiyan went crazy at the interchange and it was a TOTAL DISGRACE to be SEEN standing next to HER.

we realised one thing, sometimes we really do overspend.
like, things which we thought we wont get or what, after seeing it, we might just get it almost immediatly even when it wasnt in the plan.
and thus, we ends up 'bankrupt' for the day. haha
but at least the spending is not those kinda $40 or above those kind.
its just like we brought a limited amount for certain things and everything gets used up in the end.

went to watch a movie marathon at downtown east with gaoyang, qihao, koknam, dion and obviously the TOTAL DISGRACE caiyan. haha XD
the first part for fantastic 4 was alright.
but because there wasnt like a wall to lean on..
caiyan&me lied against each other instead.
so innovative right! lols. kidding lah.
there was a short break between the two movies.
went out for a walk for a while.

was tired during the middle of the next part.
i dont know why.
totally no concentration in it at all.
so i sort of slept.
its like, im awake, but yet my mind is switch off.
because i can hear everything and see some images.
but its like just not registered into my mind.
because at the end of it, i couldnt remember what happened. lols

took 21 home and had sort of a short nap during the journey.
it was quite of a short rest and i was damn energetic when i woke up.
was somewhere after tpjc when i 'woke' up.
and i was like..
wth...why am i so energetic only now? -.-
reached home and my dad was already asleep.
so he didnt ask me anything XD
well, some things changed and yup, i return home early now. lols
as in compare to the past where i return home like after midnight?
now is really like 8pm++ or 9pm++ the latest so far as compare to the past when its like 11pm, 12am or even later.
im a good girl now. lols
kidding lah, like i am-.-

okay, im going to stone on my bed now.
so bye everyone.
have a early night rest.
oh! and i think i forgot to mention..
my buddy recieved my birthday card for her already!! XDD
haha, okay, though its early, but at least i know that it travelled safely there and isnt late for her bday. lols XD

HEY YO!
my computer is back.
but i dont know if it will last.
because the repairman didnt touch any of my files(luckily) and any program in my com.
but then, i still think that its not working right and that there might be some problems popping out in time to come =/

okay, lets talk about today shall we?
well, once again, i didnt hear my alarm ringing this morning again.
i dont know whats the damn problem with my nerves.
seems pretty dead recently ah?
and though im tired nowadays, im still nocturnal in the night-.-
but im able to sleep early at maybe like 12am ocassionally now.

was hoping lessons to pass by real soon today.
no mood i think.
and, havent been studying this week.
monday, i cant remember.
tuesday, in cd shelter which wasnt of much productivity.
wed, was fixing shawn's bday present.
thurs, went for lunch to celebrate shawn's bday and then window shopping with caiyan.
fri, which is today, had cca.
so in conclusion, i somewhat didnt study at all.
unlike the first week. so hiong. lols
i will get back to that hiong mode next week!
but i shall leave next thursday free to watch a horror movie XD

went for lunch at tmart again.
im somewhat sick of tmart. lols
but i have no idea of where else to go for lunch.
went back to school for cca.
tianlaoshi wasnt here today.
so i was the teacher instead.
lols, i dont know what your think about today..
but i dont wanna change too much thing because im afraid if tian suddenly decide to change the style of playing suddenly and your are stuck with the old one..
she will be scolding your again and if she happened to be in a bad mood, your might get the scoldings.

went home after that because i had to wait for the repairman.
had no idea what time is he coming over.
so my mum told me to go home and wait for him-.-

i guess thats all about it.
have to go to school at 8am tomorrow while my juniors get to go at 9am. =(
haha, and by the way, i think i have yet to have breakfast with my juniors yet so far eh =(
i used to have breakfast with yinglan before co in the past eh..
my dear juniors, do your want to have breakfast with me the next co prac when we all report at the same time? =D
and i do have nice juniors who listen to me XD
dont bother listening to dion or qihao because they are of bad influence.
lols XD

bye everyone.

hello there.
im here again.

my computer has officially died on me.
i couldnt switch it on at all for the past few days.
as in, it doesnt even remains switch on and jams..
it just remained OFF..
and the repairman dont wanna come down on the weekends..
so my computer has only left today-.-
using my sis laptop now which is running at only a speed of 256mb i think?
much slower then mine, so i can practically die while waiting for it to load.
but yet its more lasting then my desktop-.-

by the way, i think im damn pro last night.
after dinner and stuffs, i went into my room to try switching on the com..
but it couldnt be on, so i went to lie on my bed and listen to songs when it was only about 8pm.
and so, i fell asleep all the way till this morning.
okay, i woke up at 10plus and 2-3am plus..
but went back to sleep almost immediatly because i didnt want to do anything else other then listening to songs.
so isnt that still considered pro?
like i slept for more then 8hours on a sunday night.
its really rare that i sleep at 8pm in the night.
but yet, i seem to be in a daze the next morning.
i couldnt think properly quite frequently today.
i think i suit being nocturnal instead.

school was just the same today.
went lunching with the suzhou girls today.
okay, its chuiying, yingqi and chongmin lah.
but they are called the suzhou girls, and me the shuai-ge from suzhou.
haha, thats crap.
and by the way, sorry caiyan, for pangseh-ing u last minute.
but its really rare that the four of us could find time to have lunch together.
so far, this has been the first time we had lunch together since we were back from suzhou.

after going off because chongmin had to return to sch for vball, i was sorta frustrated or depressed after receiving a phone call.
im not gonna write it here as it might get a little offending and for safety precautions, i should just forget about it.

met norman on bus 21 while going home.
he still sort off look the same, only that he seemed fairer?
he said hes in basketball.
if so, shouldnt he get darker?
and he said hes surprised that after so long, hes still shorter then me.
haha, that was pretty funny.
but hes already 160++, so i bet he gonna be taller then me in no time since guys grow at a later age.

had a umbrella but that was somewhat equalvalent to not having one.
shared it with chuiying while walking home from the bus stop before the stadium.
we're weird right?
though the bus do stop at our stop, we still got down earlier and walked home. lols
but it was only raining after we got down the bus-.-

going to have my dinner now.
its 9pm by the way and i have loads of homework to be done =/

sometimes i do really wonder what are people thinking.

didnt went studying after school today.
reason was i think i couldnt take those everyday studying life.
been studying out since sat, and i dont think i like those kinda life.
so im gonna take a break today before resuming it tomorrow perhaps?

last night was pretty much of a emotional night for me.
had all different kinda mixed feelings.
sometimes i just feel like giving everything up.
i dont know why but i just cant seem to grasp maths easily.
my sis was even rubbing salt in.
sometimes i just wished i could just shut her off.
but still, its also thanks to her that i get past some things easily.

was just checking my mail last night and i saw a email from shenyun.
i was feeling sick of stuffs yesturday.
but after seeing that i had a mail from her, my mood went for a sudden turn.
i dont know why, but i just felt that, theres still a friend out there whose still asking on me though shes busy with her life too and though it wasnt a weekend, she sent me a email.
she hardly uses the com on other days.

about today, i went down slightly late in the morning.
made chuiying and her mum wait for me.
for that im sorry.
i slept early last night at 12plus.
but i didnt want to get up this morning.

went to tm to get a walk after school.
at the same time, went to get a birthday card for shenyun too.
her birthday is coming, its on the 21st january.
same as leechuang.
helped my sis to get feilunhai 2nd album too.
didnt want to preorder it.

walked home instead.
i dont know why i did that, but i just did.
okay, some of the songs in flh 2nd album are alright other then that xiao xiao da ren wu.
i think i like that song called Ti Amo and other songs in the album too.
not all though.

going off anyway.
no mood.

BOO!
got a scare?
lols, lame. nevermind, haha XD

well, today was the first proper day that lessons started for me.
and school gonna end so late everyday, and even later when epp kicks in.. =(
haha, the pleasure of being a sec4 = going home at 4pm on most days. -.-

mrthong looks funny/weird being my mt teacher now.
i dont know why, but i just seem to have the mood to just treat him as a normal friend instead..
rather then a teacher like how i used to before the suzhou trip.
maybe because i was used to speaking to him like a friend for 9days and crapping with him so much that he dont seem to have a disposition of being a 'strict' teacher to me now. XP

went for lunch with shirlin and zhihui later at kfc.
saw two fellows(decided not to use freaks since freaks would be a much nicer person then them) which pissed me off greatly.
let it be my fault since i didnt stay behind to look after the seats.
but still, why should we be treated like as if we were in the wrong all along?
okay, im going to talk about it since those two fellow pissed me off really much.

here goes the story :
i placed all the bags on a chair each before going next door to look for zhihui, shirlin and caiyan.
returned and found out that our seats were occupied and that the bags were shifted.
but they've already gotten their food and were starting to eat.
so i thought, okay, its my fault that i didnt look after the seat, so we shall just wait for them to finish their meal quickly before we take over the seats.
but i dont know why, there just seemed to be a problem with them that they just wasnt happy that we confronted them on the seat matter.

guessed caiyan accidentally hit onto one of them while getting her bag and thus they were unhappy?
they then said that we didnt know how to say 'excuse me'.
in the first place, they were giving us those kinda voice which sounded simply so irritated by us when i guessed we did nothing?
and, to have your seat taken when you've OBVIOUSLY placed your bag on the chairs..
its hard to be NOT pissed.

'listened' to them and said 'excuse me' in a sarcastic manner to them but not that loud either before taking zhihui's and my bag.
its already hard enough to try grabbing two bags which were tucked so tightly to the table from a distance with the next table occupied.
but yet they had to picked up zhihui's amaths textbook and threw it onto the floor just the MOMENT when i was to grab it.
and they did it RIGHT IN MY FACE.
and i mean it, RIGHT IN MY FACE!
that just totally got my nerves outta me.
that was simply ridiculous.
firstly, who were they to touch others stuff?
and next, i DIDNT ask for their HELP to pass me the book.
so why are they touching it and yet throwing it onto the ground RIGHT IN MY FACE!

and so i glared at the b*tch who threw the book.
so she was like saying to me 'what are you staring at, not happy is it!'
at that point of time, i was seriously going to blow at her i tell you.
but because i was in my school uniform, NOTHING HAPPEN TO THE BOTH OF THEM.
no matter how unpleased i am, im not gonna risk my last year in ngee ann in getting into some trouble which only puts my own future at risk.
its simply not worth it.
i seriously wanted to punched her right into her face.
i dont care if she gets a crooked nose because of that or what because if that happens, she deserved it.
they should be glad that they didnt meet me on a day when i wasnt in my school uniform or some other students who are even worse then me.

they then started being uncouth by using all kinda 'interesting' words on us and about what complaining about us and what shit.
we did the same back to them.
HOWEVER, we're CIVILISED PEOPLE.
we gave negative comments hoping that they would take into considerations for changing for the better.
so we wont bother insulting them with the words which they think they are so smart by using it.
they're just showing how uneducated they are.
shirlin and i had fun at the counters when we were so near to them and yet insulting them on how low class they can get.
shirlin even said that they were so 'in' enough to know how to use vulgarities!
lols, that was really funny at that time k!
and i got so pissed that i placed the wrong order though i obviously already knew what i had in mind. -.-
but the cashier was kind enough to change the order for me though i said nevermind because it was my fault to place the wrong order.
for that, i will say THANK YOU to her..
and that not all people are like those two who had just displayed out their ugliness.

and, BANDITO is SO COOL!
haha, stupid Bandito, what the Bandito, loser Bandito.
I LOVE BANDITO!
lols. that was crap. but BANDITO IS REAL COOL.
hah. only we know about it XD

went to complete some work after meeting up with gaoyang, qihao & chankai.
went home around 6.
tried switching on my media player but my com chose to hang on me.
so i fell asleep while waiting for it to load.
and when i woke up somewhere near 8pm, it was still jammed-.- lols
and so, i told my mum what an EVENTFUL day i had.
well, was on the phone with her while having lunch and she asked what was the commotion about.
HAHA. my mum is a educated woman.
she dont go round throwing strangers stuff around.
and she nots a auntie, shes a NICE MUM.
SHE DONT BELONG TO THE SAME CATEGORY AS THEM XDD

haha, okay, im going off now.
i shall go do some reflection instead hur? lols

by the way, happy birthday yinglan.
forgot to post this earlier-.-
my memory is getting really lousy.
maybe i will lose all my memories hur?
lols, i guess im really typing rubbish now other then the sentence for wishing yinglan happy birthday.

my dad is sleeping
my mum is watching a movie
my sis is playing online games
i am bored because i dont know what to do.
i feel like playing with anything that i dont have to clean up later or clear up if there gonna be a mess.
maybe i should take my soft toys and shove it into the printer too hur?
just like what happened to zhihui's one.
lols, i was just kidding XD
i dont torture toys.
i just play with them.
(haha, like real)

well, this is real crappy.
i had better sign off now.
i think no one understands all this talking either.
because every sentence is just so random.

i want to watch some shows too..
but there isnt any interesting to me now-.-

spams my blogpost
spams my blogpost
spams my blogpost
spams my blogpost
spams my blogpost
spams my blogpost

THIS IS UTTER RUBBISH!

bye people.
go to bed.
its late now.
you shouldnt be seeing this actually.
gogogo!
you can do it!
(as in fall asleep)
=_='''

hello.
its already saturday today.

well, went out to try to complete my homeworks today.
but sadly, its not finished yet. lols
and today was the first day since i laughed that much for the year of 2008.

and i guess, my slippers really needs a change.
lols, i slipped twice and nearly once just while walking to the bus stop opposite 201-.-
and guess what, my position is damn cool hur!
im like proposing to someone. lols
and gaoyang was laughing damn madly about that-.-
nearly slipped again when walking home-.-
okay, its not that i dont wanna change my slippers though its already wore-out.
but, its been with me since i was p6.
so, im somehow attached to it. lols-.-
partly its also because i cant find one that i like.
and, because i have BIG FEETS XD
okay thats not a good thing either. lol
so i always wear that pair of slippers out and its really very comfy!(to me at the very least)
this pair of slippers only ran out of sole like at the end of last year?

oh, and i just recieved a email from my buddy!
wahahahahahha.
okay, i sounded like im some kinda despo-.-.-.-.-
but well, thats me lah, i do miss people who are close to me.
okay, maybe i dont look like those who does, but well i am.
that sentence dont makes sense-.-
anyway, back to it, if there isnt any problems, she will be coming over in july!
well, i do look forward to seeing her again.
but still, that would mean O's are arriving in no time.
so should i anticipate for her to come or not? lols

going off now.
bye.

hello.
its been the 2nd day since school for year 2008 has started.
and unlike other years, im still thinking that im living in 2007 still-.-
New Year's day and the eve of it just seemed to be any normal other days which seriously doesnt make me feel that a year has passed.
was talking to my juniors today before i realised my time is lag very backwards.
for example, i said..'this year wont have, next year would have' when i actually meant, last year didnt had it, but there will be one for this year.
another was when we were talking about poly's open house or what..
i was thinking..'why would we need to go for open house? its more important for the sec4s what'
and im already sec4 this year-.-
i seem to be still stuck in 2007 hur? lols

oh, and a new blister just join into my fingers family-.-
one was caused by the plucking today the other was by scalding myself accidentally that day.
and it seem that its been long since i really pluck the cello hur?
because just this little plucking could sent blisters off.

and, my throat hurts. =/
screamed at the top of my lungs today a few times because they were simply too rowdy.
okay its not screamed. its shouted.
i cant scream for goodness sake-.-

yesturday night was a really busy night. lols
it seemed lah.
because after dinner at like 8plus..
came to the room and was settling some co stuffs.
i then had to make quite a number of calls here and there which make me scared that i wont complete some work i aimed to complete in time.
in the end, i only really like start on homework at 11pm plus?
and it seemed that when im free..
i have nothing to do.
when i have things to do, my friends from primary school and others just suddenly come out from no where and chats with me.
so i was like replying them with really short answers like 'yup, dont know, ok, yes, no.'
sorry for that.

oh, and i wanna say that it was damn freaking cold this morning?!?
wore my jacket over me immediatly after getting off the bed.
my mum was shocked and asked me what had happened because i just woke up not long ago and im walking everywhere in the house with my jacket on like some kinda weirdo.

was once again late this morning-.-
i gonna be early tomorrow i tell u!
okay, not early but on time.
i dont feel like doing bio mindmaps =/
I.Hate.Mindmaps.
lols, this reminded me of one of my friends email which was something like 'i_hate_your_face@...'

i feel like sleeping now. lols
okay, im going off now. bye

hey there.
Happy New Year Everyone.

Well, i dont know if it will indeed be a 'happy' new year for me.
because..2008 would also mean for me that O's will be coming in just how many months time.
so let it just come by when its time for it.
and being 16 suddenly wont be a nice thing either.
because that meant that we're going further into life meeting more obstacles then before.
so everyone, all the best! Gambate!

and though 2007 has just passed about 3hours ago..
all memories be it bitter, sweet or sour..would be something thats worth reminscing in the times to come.
and i will certainly miss the times spent in 2007 because nothing would be the same again.
and thanks to everyone who contributed to my life in a way or another because without all those help ive gotten or the tolerance your have given me, nothing would have turn out as the way it is.
and if i pissed anyone off at anytimes..which i believe ive done that oftenly given my bull temper, im sorry for it and thanks for your graciousness.

so let this be the first post for 2008.
though i wasnt anticipating the new year..
well, the last ended off with laughters shared by few of my closer friends and thats nice enough =)
all the best everyone and Gambate! for the new year to come.
cheers!