Sorry I can't help it but I'm feeling so proud of myself LOL.
Let me brag lah k, since it's the first time I feel so proud of myself and since it is my blog anyway. LOL

One firm emailed me to go for an interview next monday, I was soooooo tempted to say ok I will go, but I can't cause I have already accepted the offer from a firm.
Plus, by going for the interview, I'm also depriving others for a position in that firm.
So I had to decline the firm's offer.

And then after lunch, another firm called me saying that I have secured a place in that firm already and that I have to come down for a briefing on Thur. The person on the phone even emphasis that I got a position and not an interview in the firm.
I was like huh?! How come secure already? I never even go for interview or what, why they anyhow secure me, how do I tell them? (Because we were previously told that we can't hold on to 2 positions if not we will get into trouble cause the firms will be unhappy)
I was like okkkk but I had to reject them cause I'm attached to another firm already. Siannnnn.

Then I went to submit my declaration form to my teacher and he went
m - 'ohhh...you went for the interview at their firm already? Mr W conducted the interview is it?'
zm - yah..i went for the interview on sat...
m - hmm..he can be quite a difficult person..*smiles*
zm - huh really? he seem quite ok during the interview..
m - he didn't give you any trouble during the interview?
zm - nope.
m - oh well, ok have fun there during your sip there! *laughs*

Jialatttttttt. Am I going to get hell for my sip?!?!? Lolll.
I'm kinda anticipating for SIP to start because I want to see what challenges will I face.. But at the same time I'm like, I hope it isn't a difficult firm! Lol.

And then I called my mum to tell her about it and she said that the firm that offered me a position is actually a big firm and I'm kinda thinking like huh..I just gave up the chance of working in a big firm, although the one I accepted is a medium but well-established firm.
And the firm(not the one I accepted) starts work only at 9am and not 8.30am and it's at city hall, which means that it is nearer, plus I can take bus 518 and stop straight outside. Plus that firm accepts 2 interns which meant that I would have someone to accompany me (but that isn't really an issue cause alot other firms accept 1 interns only also, so I won't die of being alone)

The only consolation I can tell myself now is that the one I accepted pays higher and that I was comfortable with the office when I went for interview. Siannnnnn, did I miss out like on a real good deal??? =/

Have I shared my story of my interview with you?
I would like to if I haven't! Haha, because I bet I had one of the best experience ever.
But I'm too lazy to type it out here, so give me a call! And we'll chat LOL.
Ok, ignore my random-ness.

I can just say I was veryyyyyyyyyyyy happy when I knew that I was offered a place in one of the firms! Haha
Because this is kinda like the first time I prepared a proper resume and cover letter and even attending a proper job interview, and to my pleasure, be offered a place of which I am satisfied with the working environment!

Well, SIP hasn't started for me, so I don't know how will it be like working there, but at least, it is something that I am looking forward to!
Even though working hours will be from 8.30am-6pm, I will still gladly wake up for work because I'm finally reaching the phase that I have been anticipating since the day I entered my course.
And also...because there were 2 other candidates before me, I actually feel proud of myself for securing this place as it wasn't a situation whereby I got the job without any competition.
Sorry lah, can't help but to unleash the competitiveness in me lol.

And I hope that my mentor will be the one who interviewed me because he is interestingly interesting enough. Haha

Just a random note.
It has already been 6 years and 3 months since I had my cello! Isn't that so amazing!?
Hahaha like 6 years just passed like that and I have been having this cello in my home for 6 years!

And to think that I once left it alone in the corner of my house for 2 years and used the cello that I brought home from nas instead despite the inconvenience just because my cello's bridge was too high that it hurts after playing awhile.
I've also got use to being an obstruction in public with my cello for 6 years! LOL
This is all so unbelievableeeeeee. Hahaha

But sadly, after 6 years, my standard is only like that. Nothing amazing.
But still.... I'm very amazed by the fact that my cello is 6 years old already! hahahaha

I had a kinda fun yet crazy yet exhausting weekend!
Had food poisoning since tue night all the way till sat.
Just when I thought I was better on thur, I WAS WRONG.
That was in fact the worst I've felt.
And one freaking trip to CGH in the wee hours was only 1/10 the cost as compared to the consultation plus medication fee.
Crazyyyyyy. How is this affordable healthcare?!

Anyway, so yah, spent thur and friday at home and I felt that I was staying home wayyyyy too long already.
And then sun was madness cause a few of us had to prepare for a last minute performance and omgggggggg.
I feel so sorry that I didn't get to play my best but too much fear overcomed me already! so exposed! so quiet! so cold! so scary! and everything!
And I'm never going to wear contacts when practicing cello again anymore cause I realise that my eyes gets too complacent and lazy that it's getting clear vision wherever it looks that it causes my brain to not even focus-.-
I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry yuren! lol.
The onlyyyyyyyy thing I can hope for is that no one saw through my smoking skills apart from ourselves but I don't know.
So embarrassingggg. Hais.
I hope that they will have a very happy wedding though!
HAHAHAH I THINK THIS STATEMENT OF MINE MAKES IT SEEM AS IF YUREN IS THE ONE GETTING MARRIED LOL!

I got my retribution for I was haunted by the song the entire night!!!!!!
Because I was soooo tired that I wanted to sleep awhile and study throughout cause I haven't studied a thing for my test today which was 20% and it was my least confident subject!
No, it's actually the ONLY law subject that I'm so afraid of so far.
Tossed and turned in bed from 1230-430, it was NO JOKE I tell you.
I think I was like either possessed by the song or what.
The moment I close my eyes, the song played, I even went to the extend to tell myself to stop playing the song in my head and that it will soften and finally disappear as I slowly count down.
The amazing thing was that it did quieten down!
But everytime I reach 0, it starts playing again.
Wahhhhhhh my brain was even more exhausted because of that man!

And cause of that I was so tired when I was supposed to wake up that I slept till 730 before chionging my studies for my test in less than 12hrs time. Siao one.
Practically killed myself.

Anyway, it's time to chiong crim by thur morning. DIE DIE MUST CHIONG OUT.
Another 20% -.-.-.-.-
How can I buy more time, seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Purpose for blogging - I don't know.

I don't know what am I doing with my life now.
Lol. Everyday is just lectures, tutorials, lab,, projects, co and tkd.
I don't even know what I want to blog about because there is nothing interesting about my life to blog about.
Everyday, I'm just doing the duties and work that I have to do, come home to get enough rest to continue the routine the next day.
And when I go out and play, I feel guilty for not studying.
Woahhh, saw that?! Zengmei feels guilty for not studying! Like serioussssssssss?!

I'm looking forward to july when I believe that my schedule should be less hectic.
And I can't wait to apply for SIP despite all the jitters that I will get from it. Haha

Take Care Ms Lim!

Apart from Ms Foo, Ms Lim is another teacher of mine whom I will hold dearly to my heart.

They are both great individuals who are incomparable and I will never forget how they have changed my life.

I hope that they will be strong and happy as how they have been no matter how tough life gets for them in the future.

Hi Paul, wanted to leave you a tag but I don't know how to.
You know in that pic of yours, I see the word fatigue written all over our faces. LOL

No matter what happens, as long as we faces it upfrontly, nothing will be too much for us to handle.

Even though we've experienced it before, we probably get too complacent and forgets what it felt like before. Nevertheless, A wake up call is never too late just like how the opposition is becoming a crisis or threat to the majority now.

And the irony was, it wasn't exactly a fight. I have to remind myself to be more honest with myself and never to take things for granted.

And tell you what, I went to cut my hair today lol! And I think that it's a little too short lol!

Bye!

Even though I know that there are problems now in the comm, I'm cool with it for I know that I am not alone.
For that reason alone, it is sufficient to keep me going for I know that at the end of the day, my efforts will be a change in some aspect. Be it people, opinions or anything!

On a side note, school has started just 2 weeks ago but I feel as if I have gone through like probably a month into the term already?
Guess that I've been staying in school for too many hours hahahaha.
I can't wait for applying to my SIP firms and stuffs! (Although I think that everything is gonna be soooooo troublesome)
The time that I have waited for since 2 years ago is finally here!
Maybe when SIP starts for me, I will really start complaining for I have never exactly worked in the law area before.
But no matter what, I will take it as it is for this is what I chose for myself.

Can't get more positive than anything now.
Till I meet CPA or Civ pro which will make me sink back down again, hahaha.
Goodnight!

Knowing what you want in life doesn't help much when you're feeling scared.

You guys never fail to annoy the fuck out of me seriously-.-
Thanks ah, for your 'returning to school gift'.
First, you give me troubles.
Second, you waste my time.
Now, you give me your shit.
Fucking annoyed. Seriously.
Problematic fucktards.

Alottttt of things happened this week.
From the training camp to receiving results to chiong-ing programme booklet to interviewing the new main comm to making a decision to packing my stuffs.
Though its nothing much, but these stuffs has put me through alot of thinking, lol.
It's pretty simple actually, but I just had to complicate matters.
Loads of feelings within me now, with mostly being scared to excited.

All it takes is just a flight to and fro from UK and I'll soon feel that I'm all alone even though I know I'm not.
And then I will have to deal with the fact that yes, the seniors are graduating.
My seniors who have turned into my friends more than my seniors.

But no matter what, I believe that our concert will be a success.
Be it performing to a group of 80ppl or more, because everyone has work together to put up the concert as a team, it is a success.

因为我知道了他们的期望，所以不想让他们失望
但我却怕, 怕自己没本事

会让大家和自己失望

我的心很乱

I don't know what will I do if I have to give up on my aspiration.
But holding onto it is kinda difficult now for it is the future expenditure that is stopping me.
I always tell myself that no matter what, I will be fine financially as long as I don't use my 'future' money which is money on credit.
But again, it's not like I can't enter any of the universities offering law.

Looking at the practice schedule kinda make me sad. Haha
Something that we have all been working hard to make it happen, will finally be happening.
And yet I can't participate in the full process now, especially the process of practicing with everyone till the day of the concert and seeing it happen.
Like what weilin told me before, seeing the fruit of our effort.
The endless whines and complains from everyone over the long practice hours and everything.
But yet all these are my choices, so I can't complain...

Now that exams are over... it's time to go out and have some fun again!
And amidst those fun, I shall leave some time for co stuffs and do the best I can since it's only like a month more to stepping down? YES AHHHHHHHHH, heeheeheehee.

Everyone has their own hurdle to cross over, but I guess, it's just a matter of perception and how you choose to approach it.
The many ways that you can look at a thing to tell yourself how to move on to the next step.
Nothing can get one down for we are made this way. Made to go through ups and downs; without these hurdles, life would be boring isn't it!
So for all of my friends who are having troubles, just believe in yourself and things will be fine somehow, someday. =)

On a side note, studying for BA2 last night turned me into a horrendous monster. The anxiety, fear and helplessness simply got over me that I was behaving like a beast, and I'm feeling pretty remorseful for shouting at my sis. Not that I want to brag, but where can I find such a sister who can seriously bear with all my nonsense and yet never giving up on me and helping me in her own ways.
Knowing that I have been having late nights the past few days, she got me those bottled bird nest, even my mum don't buy those for me leh!(not that i'm complaining, lol). Sometimes I can't help but think that I'm the worst person among the people I know of that I ought to die, but I won't haha because someday I will do something else in my own way to show my concern for her.

Now it's time for me to search back for my motivation to play the cello, if not I'm not making any progress!
I'm thinking what should I do tomorrow, hahaa roam around the streets and slowly taking in whatever I see, stay home to practice cello, go date some friends out?

But for now, it's time for bed! =)

While I was teaching a separate group of students today, one student that I taught the previous week stood within an arm's reach beside me.

I asked him what was he doing, why aren't he going for break and playing like what the rest were doing.

He replied 'I also want to be in your group, so that you can teach me.'

This was the first time I've received such a reply and he obviously made my day. Haha!

I think CNY this year was probably one of the best for me so far.

Not comparing to those childhood ones. But for my teenage years.

Went all out to play and have fun like my holidays were here and I'd actually forgot about the things that I have to do!

But amidst those fun, I've neglected the feelings of some people but I don't know how to say that I'm aware of the things that they have done for me.

Now that the 4 days of break is over, I have to gear myself up again and finish up whatever I have to for this AY. At least get things done decently.

There's so many pictures that I want to share, but uploading pictures on blogger is like.......a hassle.

IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!

Hahahahah I don't know how to describe how I am feeling now but OMG I'M SO HAPPY HAHAHAH

Like finally!!!!!! I survived through all the projects, tests, tutorials, co, tkd, whatever this sem!

After my 2 tests today, I have nothing to worry abt!

Not until my end sem exams!

It's like a whole load off my shoulder for nowwwwwww.

Theres other minor things to do, but at least I know that it is slowly piling up and that I did not suffocate!

I survived through! =D

I can't express how happy I am, heeheeheeheeheehee!!!!!!!

AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

HOW.

WHY.

WHO.

WHAT.

WHEN.

WHERE.

Help! Screw company law.

Not literally.